well, was late for work today bcos i went to ICA building to get my new passport! =D i didn’t expect to see so many people there and i got so shocked. so i was late for about 40 mins for work but pat was ‘nice’ she helped me time in.. after work, me, erin, guo bin went to bugis bcos amin took us to his fren’s shop since erin wants to buy an addidas jacket. but doesn’t have the one she wants. so amin went off first bcos he got something on and the rest of us went to foodcourt to eat cos mr. guo bin wants to eat. after that we gossip about pat.. well, sometimes it’s beyond words to describe how lazy she was/is.. sometimes i wondered if there is anything going ard btwn her and jiayong when i heard jiayong calling her “qing ai de“.. and in return, pat calls him “ lao gong” or even “my boyfriend“… my hairs is standing up.. didn’t she doesn’t like us to tease her n jiayonG? she even told erin the “latest gossip” which is maybe there is something btwn jiayong and bren.. and pat even say that if jiayong is reali interested in bren.. den she will not be so close with him.. but wat i see was the opp.. she got even closer with him.. there is some contradiction in her words.. and her actions and words makes ppl loath her even more. i’m serious.. and the worse part is, she complaint to tim the way i used my hp and.. guobin told me she EVEN USE THE WAY I SMS TO SMS!!! WTF? bitch. she can even pretend not to see the table that’s not cleared.. damn.. i have been clearing the tables the whole day.. my greatest achievement today is to get her OUT OF THE BAR. thank you. i can’t really stand when there is already guo bin & erin in the bar, amin at the cashier ,nana is having break and the poor me on the floor and SHE FEELS LIKE DOING BAR WHEN GUO BIN IS SUPPOSEDLY to DO. =] well, i managed to get her out of the bar without being rude to her with some unhappiness inside. =] hahaha. she suck. seriously.. nvr like her since day 1 i saw her. after that duckie came to meet me and we went to heeren’s korean resturant to have our dinner and it’s ok but.. little.. after that we went to walk ard and settle down outside ngee ann city and sit there for about an hr before i decided to go home since duckie doesn’t feels like going to kbox and of cos i find it exp and we got nothing to do.. =[ i just feel like slpg.. hahaha. =X after tat, on the way to the bus stop, duckie suggested to watch movie but have no idea what to watch so, i still insisted on going home.. but it was so damn crowded at the bus stop until we sit there for another 30 mins or so.. i decided to go cineleisure to play xbox and some CS game instead. hahaha. it’s fun and we played for whole 2 hours.. wahahahahha. =X and of cos i’m lousy at playing game.. i knew duckie was giving in to me when we were playing xbox.. so i got a bit angry.. after that we changed to playing CS which was much more fun than the xbox.. and i only got 18 fag and he got 100 fag… LOL. well, this is my 2nd time playing after 4 years? lol.. den we went to took a NR home.. as usual lah.. i’m going to slp now, cos i have to go to sch tml for my AVFE editing… sigh.. WHY SCH OPENS ON SUNDAY?!?! anyways, we planned to go back for some more games! wahahaha. =X

i don’t know what’s wrong with me today.. i feel like crying today.. and i went to toilet to cry when pat ask me to go for my break.. nana asked if i’m ok cos i’m so quiet today.. when i came back from break, amin asked if i have been crying but i told him no.. i got flu.. which is half truth lah.. and den he ask me to go to kitchen rest.. there’s something about me that makes me wanna cry but i don’t know what makes me feel like that.. i just cried.. damien saw that i’m moody, he thought i wasn’t in a good mood (which was actually, i feel sick) so he kept me accompany after work to wait for duckie.. he wanted to treat me movie but i don’t want.. so he say treat me eat.. we went to bugis cos it’s convenient for me to wait for duckie there.. and we have nowhere to go cos everywhere is like crowded since it’s time when office people go off from work. sigh.. we went to sketch with damien.. and i drink milkshake while he eat his pasta.. after that i went to meet duckie.. i just thought duckie was over reacting when i told him damien accompany to wait for him cos i’m sick.. tim actually ask me to go home at 5pm.. but i refused to cos i wanna wait for duckie till 7.30pm.. so i went to the kitchen and rest for awhile and chat with erin.. she’s so clever.. after some resting, i feel much better so i resume to work.. suddenly i have this thinking that working in TCC is leading me to nowhere.. pay is low.. and i can’t seems to have enough money for the overseas trip me and duckie have planned.. sigh.. but at least now, i have a passport.. i wanted to change to a more pay job which is i don’t know what.. sigh.. somehow, i’m a bit lost.. i’ll be going to ICA to take my passport tml.. and i still got my stupid headache.. sigh.. when will duckie reach home? he has been sending me home lately because i’m sick.. =[

1st pic – Pic of my supposed to be pink color form for collection of the passport. 2nd pic – that’s me & amy at the bus to another location which i forgotten to upload ytd.

yay!! i can collect my passport this coming sat (11.02.2006)..den i can go JB with duckie already. =) maybe i can even go KL with damien & bren. =) it keeps me excited.. but now, i got headache and i feel so weak all over my body.. need to slp early today.. i will wake up early this sat to collect my passport.. think of it, i might lose my sleep. hahaha. =X

I wanted to make duckie happy today since he looked and sounded so sian over his family stuffs.. and when i say “dun so sian lah, i treat u eat”.. den he say, “i got so sian meh?”… the sian face is already written all over his face.. den he kept asking me “i look sian?”, “am i very sian?”… it drives me crazy.. sigh.. we walked from heeren to park mall to take bus and in the bus, my headache came back and he just kept talking.. when i was slpg, he wake me up… i was a bit paranoid by his actions and the way he talked.. sigh.. and slowly i fall aslp again.. and my head was so heavy till i can’t open my eyes.. and something bite my eyes.. a bit swollen.. when i asked him to look at my eyes at the mrt station on the way to town, he didn’t even bother.. i’m quite upset over it.. he later den told me he was given a chance to have his Viva next monday and he told me he dun wanna go.. i was quite disappointed with what he said.. when sch gave him a chance, he doesn’t wanna treasure it.. if he dun wanna go, sch might think he’s insincere.. but it’s his own decision.. and he told me later on, he will go.. there are problems in his family and i can’t help him.. sigh.. whatever it is, he shd know i’m at least still by his side.. but this few days, i just feel so sick.. =(

1st pic – taken after some photo shooting (fake eye lashes, eye liner), 2nd pic – make up~, 3rd pic – at playground near air base.

1st pic – at playground near air base, 2nd pic – taken at amy‘s hse, 3rd pic – take at the living room’s sofa (i like this pic).

1st pic – comfort is important, 2nd pic – me & darling at amy‘s hse living room, 3rd pic – at the playground.

1st pic – me & mich (did u see who’s the extra behind), 2nd pic – darling & me, 3rd pic – me, mich, darling & amy~

Amy woke up me at about 1plus.. she called my house if not i might over slept.i promised to help her by being her model.. hahaha. usual habit.. den i went to CCK to meet her, mich and darling. was suppose to meet duckie but everything ended so late so i decided not to meet him.. went to the beach for photo shooting. the wind there was so damn big that i almost fly away.. was having fun with playing the bubble thingy and posing.. well, i’m poser.. =X den after that we changed venue to the playground near the air base.. and the officer came out to inform us not to shoot the building because they have very high sensitive cameras.. duh.. it’s not as if the building is damn nice to take. we cont with our photo taking.. after that we went to amy‘s house to sort things out because everything is so messy.. after the photos will turn out nice alright.. =X amy‘s mum cooked for us.. so nice of her.. and it’s like we only rest for 10 mins and food is ready on the table. she cooked kang kong, fish and egg for us and we even got satay. the kang kong was so nice till i ate quite alot.. =X den we went to sort out and gossip for awhile. we planned to play mahjong together since everyone of us knows how to play. LOL! ok lah, i’m tired to write anymore. i will write again tml. =)

i had my VIVA today….

I dragged duckie to sch early so i can practise my VIVA presentation slides.. i got so nervous.. =X but i had my fav xia mian today.. but i’m not happy.. maybe i was over gan jiong with the VIVA that i don’t think that xia mian taste nice at all… =X the presentation was good but i screw it up with my report… ARGH.. ok, i tried not to think about it…

went to town with duckie after VIVA had dinner at P.S the indonesian food and it tastes normal… weird and there is always a LONG queue for that.. and after that we went to cineleisure to take neoprint!! wahaha.. after that we went to take 174 to JP.. slept thru out the journey.. feel like my head is goin to burst soon. sigh.. i just thought duckie wasn’t very happy when i say i’m lazy to walk or if he wants me to walk, he has to change his shoes with me.. did i say anything wrong? my leg is so tired after wearing those heels and walk whole day.. head is so pain till i refuse to open my eyes.. we went to the playground anyways.. i take a rest there till about almost 10pm den we headed home.

was suppose to work tml.. but i gotta help amy with her project by being her model for the day. and hope the effect will be nice.. or at least i hope i got helped her.. sigh.. will be replacing bren on sat instead.. =X will be meeting duckie after his work tml. for dinner. =)

I have finally send my application form for my passport!!! yippeee.. this means that i have $50 lesser in my bank. and finally duckie can go home! i dont have to worry about him staying overnight outside. so happy now. just now we went to JP to eat KFC den we went to chinatown to walk.. but the crowd there was so pathetic, so we had chicken rice there and den we took 174 to JP again. =) i have VIVA tml.. i’m kinda scare now.. what will happen to me? sigh.. ok, i still haven’t touch on my avfe assignment 2 which was due long time ago and i still have to prepare my viva. =) i will ask duckie help me scan my pic so i can post it online. kekez. excited. mayb i might get my passport this week since it stated it tooks 3 working days to process. =]

I’m so frustrated. I’m so furious. Some times i wondered why on earth did his parents do this to him. It’s not as if they chased him out of the house it will change the fact that he got himself debarred. They signed the debarrment form and chase him out of the house. and now? he’s outside alone. i don’t even know which part of hougang he’s at. Damn. and i can’t even help him. Sometimes I find it too ridiculous for his parents to over react over the fact that he got debarred. and no matter how traditional parents are they, they shdn’t and nvr slap their kid and chase them out of the house. ARGH. i’m so upset now. zzzz whatever, no matter how happy i tried to be, i can nvr be happy. i feel very stressed and helpless whenever duckie keep saying i’m his everything. i wanted to help him but i have my limits. i feel so damn helpless. i wanted to ask if my fren could let him stay at their house but i don’t wanna cause inconvenience to them. i really don’t know what i can do for him man. and he’s outside alone in a rainy nite. damn. and i can’t cheer him up. zzzz. stupid gf.

i don’t understand why his parents have to be so cruel to him. sometimes, i wondered if i’m the one who is bringing all the bad luck to him. he got chased out of his house bcos of his debarrment. sigh, but i can’t help him at all. before i knew his father knew abt his debarrment, i went out with my sis to Attica… and… i didn’t dare to tell him after he told me that his father knew abt the debarrment. sigh. but in the end, i still told him bcos he was worried about me.. and i don’t wanna lie to him by saying i’m slpg at hm. life is bad till i have no words to describe it. one word: Suck.

1st pic – no doubt, amin & me are the famous 007, 2nd pic – $1200 fine + revoke of licence, damn sad, 3rd pic – captain nana & me.

went back to TCC to get pay today. was surprised cos the pay was far too early. and the cut off is till 19th jan. i had a little bit of fun.. amin keep disturbing me and he even put my bag at the top of the cupboard. stupid. but lucky, i’m smart. =P abd kept touching my neck, bren came too. =X but still, it’s some money. i have to pay present for duckie and make passport this month so, da ta.. no much money left. but there is always enough for me to spend. =] duckie’s officially been debarred… and he said something like “i dun want u to waste ur time on me. and i think i’m so useless.” i thought the next thing he will say is, “Let’s break up”.. but he didn’t.. i cried bcos of these sentences he said. i don’t really care if he could study.. maybe he’s good at some other things except studies. like me, i could barely pass everything. and i didn’t even wake up on time for my AVFE filming today. damn. but then, duckie said he wun wanna break up with me becos he like me too much.. and seriously, if he break up with me.. my heart aches. =[ and i also dun wanna break up with him.. even though we had a few conflicts, but that can be solved. i told him damien ask me go KL on the 18th Feb, since he’s going back to do something which i forgotten, because he wants to bring me ard to eat, duckie was like… a bit dun like lah if i have to stay overnite there but if i want to, i still can go.. and today his ex went to look for him and when duckie‘s boss ask who is she, she said she’s duckie‘s gf i was like.. KNS! DUH~! liar. we spent many hrs at the esplanade there to talk. wanted to go MOS with my sis but i changed mind bcos duckie needs me. it’s ok, i can go anytime i like when duckie feels better. =) ciao. i’m tired already.. =)

was so flare up with pat today, was suppose to closing for bar. but the moment she came back, she chased me out from the bar saying she need to be familiar with bar closing. duh. until now i still haven’t do closing bar properly on my own. damn. but i have no choice cos she is the shift in charge. arghhhh.. and it was pretty obivous that jiayong was waiting for her to finish work bcos only damien worked till 10pm. =X but nvm, after work i went to lao pa sat with damien to eat. treat him fishball noodle since he helped me carry my laptop. duckie as usual sent me alot of sms and gave me 2 missed calls when he said finish chatting then sms him. i wasn’t really very please with it bcos he always does that when i’m with them. but nvm, he was only very gan jiong about me that’s all. ciao.