oh well, i was suppose to wake up early to go church today but then i heard my mum mopping the floor and so i went back to bed and forget to wake up( i mean i only wake up at ard 1plus in the afternoon..).. liting gave me morning call and i just erhm erhm erhm back to her.. i don’t know what she said also.. hahaha.. den i online for awhile and got to know that he saw me & duckie last nite at cineleisure.. ahah.. oh well, watever.. so i took a train to meet darling at lakeside and passed her her bday present.. at boon lay mrt station when i was in the train i saw.. edwin and kean lee.. sian diao.. i wanted to talk to them.. but i didn’t dare.. i tried to pretend i didn’t see them, but i did saw them and that’s the fact… the look on their faces told me.. told me that i shdn’t talk to them.. they are on their way to meet him.. eeeekkk yer, i shdn’t think about them anymore.. sigh.. think about them.. a bit weird.. after all i used to hang out with them.. sigh.. and den it’s like they, too, pretend my presence..

alright.. this is what i have bought today:
* a necklace from far east shop & earrings from future state for suzy (necklace is for personal exchange, earrings is bcos i draw lot cos i got her name..) – necklace + box: $24.80, earrings: $13
* 2 kickers for my elder sister from top shop.. – $17.60
* 1 Ali Baba skirt for myself – $45.90
* 1 unknown present for duckie – unknown.. i’m going to buy it tml..

haha.. i’m such a spendthrift.. i have to buy things to make myself happy cos i dont feel gd these few days.. i dun like each time i meet up with duckie and he gave me those black black face and after that 1st time i went to expo to look for him.. i dreaded to go look for him after work.. i don’t like his attitude towards me even though he said it’s joking.. humph.. always wanna make me cry.. sigh.. he always get du lan for nothing and i dont know why.. but nvm.. it’s already a past..

I got a funny sms today.. i have to do some translation cos the sms is in chinese:
that person: what u wan for christmas?
me: who are u?
that person: santa claus
me: haha..nice one..but u dun tel me who r u i dun tell u want i wan.fair?
that person: i m the one who giving u present.
me: oh.. frm tcc huh?
that person: yah. i m choosing present but i don’t know what u want.
me: haha..hmmm..let me think.. btw..how u got my no. huh?
that person: u told me ur no. b4. u faster think what u wan. big bag? perfume? earrnings?
me: i want perfume..frm e clinique..e perfule cal happy heart..i got tell u b4 mehz?
that person: yah. u told me ur no.. ok lah.. i now go find the perfume u want. u know who am i?
me: i don’t who r u.. so u just tel me who are u leh.. reali buy that perfume? exp leh.. hahaha..
that person: when u recieve ur present then u will know who am i loh.. i found the perfume but no one is serving me.
me: haha.. how come suddenly got eng sia..haha..i wanna store ur no, mah.. but dunno u who how 2 store? cool! i finally can have tat perfume!haha..
that person: u set santa claus lah.. wat’s engsla?
me: i don’t understand wat u r saying.. u working in the kitchen rite?
that person: u dont have to know who am i.. when u receive ur present happy can already..
me: cannot lah.. just tel me!
that person: i bought the perfume.. sat give u.. hahaha
me: haha! thanks leh. my dream perfume~
that person: *some kuku sms*
me: haha..tat’s vert lame..haha..i think i know u who..ahaha
that person: den u guess who am i?
me: hmmm.. daimen.. haha.. i don’t know how to spell..lol..
that person: DAMIEN.
me: haha..i guess correct already! haha..

haha, he made my guessing easy cos i don’t really talk to kitchen staff.. and he’s the one i chat with the most.. hahaha.. even he bluff me that he got me that perfume is ok man.. at least i’m happy for a day.. HAHAHA.. =) i thought he told me he choose a malay guy who is either abd or amin.. haha.. duh.. dunno which one is real.. lol..

i got my pay today!! but i will soon become a poor person again after shopping for christmas presents.. =) i have to remind myself.. kekez.. today, i gave duckie a treat at TCC cos he always pay for meals when i’m so damn poor.. even though he like wanna pay, of cos i insisted on paying cos we had an agreement.. that is sometimes he pay and sometimes i pay.. after all i don’t really like to use his money too much.. he said he a bit buay song to use my money but den, he got no choice.. kekez. =) lolz..

i was quite angry with him at first.. bcos i went to look for him after work at Expo..

(of cos i took my own sweet time cos he finish work at 8pm and i finish at 6plus.. i stayed in TCC to read my Potter book and.. tim was like “do u want me to tell u the ending?” hahaha.. had a fun time working & bitching about that patricia (the new MT).. haha.. realising how infamous she is makes me.. pity her.. she’s not bad.. but too bossy.. i dun like bossy person.. she boss ppl to clear table when she’s so DAMN free and was pretending to be busy and acted hardworking in front of tim.. oh man.. suck.. it makes me wanna puke.. and when Erin told me that patricia made some cakes ytd and kept asking tim to eat it and only ask the rest of them once.. makes me wondered.. well.. it’s TOO OBVIOUS! hahaha.. kekez..) today’s work was fun.. haha.. had a lot of laughter and of cos.. ppl get to see my REAL side.. that is.. actually i’m a super crappy person.. hahaha.. val’s uncle is getting on my nerves by calling me darling.. ARGH.. so irritating.. next time i will scold him when i see him.. haha.. and brenda is a bit crazy today.. she just keep poking me.. keep having those she-wants-to-hit-me actions.. and she said, that was to ‘lighten up our lives’.. woo.. that’s cool.. hahaha.. and i helped her to buy food.. kekez..

duckie was like shouting at me when he sees me.. even though he said he was joking at the end of the day.. but den i dun sense his joking-ness.. oh well.. i almost wanted to cry out.. humph.. i didn’t even wanna talk to him at 1st.. cos i m REALI very upset by him.. always shout at me for fun.. duh.. sigh.. but everything turns ok when we went for our late dinner.. i’m thinking whether i shd buy that mickey mouse bag which cost $32.. it’s quite nice and i quite like it though.. =X but i scare i wun have enough money.. sigh.. how? i wished to buy it asap cos my bags are rotten.. hahaha.. let me think about it.. =)

then me and duckie went to have a short walk frm P.S’s TCC to heeren and took a bus to esplanade there and chit chat.. we stayed there until 12mn den i forced him to go hm cos he gotta work tml.. =) he told me that his sister say i’m si wen.. -_- haha.. oh man.. =) cos his sis saw me ytd.. and she tot when she saw me the 1st time in his hse i purposely dress until very si wen.. haha.. well.. =X but i always dress that way!! hahaha.. oh well.. =) ppl just don’t know me.. kekez.. but it’s ok lah.. even ppl who know me well wun say i’m si wen.. hahaha.. =X me and duckie took 174M and pass by MOS.. OMG, the queue was like so damn f**king long.. hahaha.. dun understand why these people so gan jiong wanna go in.. it’s not as if MOS will close down tml when it’s opening is today.. lolz.. alright, gotta go slp now le.. cos i’m feeling abit tired now.. keke.. and i’m going to look for duckie tml and wait for him to finish work~ cheers~

today, i woke up early to wake duckie up and den i paused for awhile thinking whether i shd go to sch early.. hahaha.. den “poMMmm” i went back to slp again.. hahaha.. den i finally wake up at 1plus.. and received a sms saying duckie called me at least 6 times today.. hahaha.. cos y? i switched off my hp and tooty keep barking.. it keep irritate me.. haha.. *but i promised i wun switch my hp off anymore lah.. in case duckie get pek chek (i’m not angry but i’m very du lan.).. LOL.. i saw monkey (chye teck) on my way to sch.. the reason he go sch is bcos he’s going for the NAPFA.. Hahahaha… den i went to the lib to look for duckie to do my IC assignment.. DAMN~ i overwrite mine with jo’s.. and i GOTTA redO~!!!! when i see this happened.. i cried.. sian diao sia.. sigh sigh sigh.. but i have done it and upload already.. it’s so damn plain unlike the one i have done previously.. sian diao.. but they always say design is not important it’s the coding.. and my welcome page is the nicest.. hahaha..

today, duckie got tickets for “King Kong” cos his sister gave him cos it’s M1 destress day today.. so his sista got a few tickets and she gave us 2.. tat’s very nice.. haha.. i didn’t know the movie is so damn long.. i sit there until i almost wanted to pee and my butt bcums stiff.. =) hahaha.. and so, i can’t help my brother to buy his present for fri (the budget is only 5-10 bucks).. hahaha.. and den we went to esplandae’s makansukra to eat.. and den after that we took 106 to clementi and we went seperate way.. =) and i saw yujie when i was waiting for my bus.. haha.. it happened that he just finished work.. so much coincidence today.. kekez..

I’m getting my pay tml~ i wanted to get it today.. but den i didn’t know the movie is so damn long till i can’t go anymore cos the TCC closed at 10pm~~~ anyways, i’m so excited now.. hahaha.. i’m going to buy suzy’s present soon~ hahaha.. cos i gotta buy 2 for her.. cos 1 is for working exchange (she didn’t know i’m the one buying present for her.. so..Lol..).. another 1 is for presonal exchange.. i’m still thinking wat to buy for her since i have to buy 2 presents u know.. kekez… and i still have to buy duckie’s present.. haha.. so many things to buy~~ OMG~i bite duckie today.. cos he scolded me with middle finger and guess what? there’s a small tiny hole and blood came out.. haha.. well, it’s only a bit of blood lah.. no much damaged done.. and so he called me king kong.. HAHAHA.. =X who ask him to scold me with that.. even i bite him, he will still show it to me anyways.. and i really don’t like guys to scold those hokkien vulgarites to me.. it’s so unpleasant to my ears..

did i say about my weird dream today? haha.. well, i had weird dream.. for absolutely NO reasons.. i dreamt of the guy i used to like when i was in sec sch (some of u guys know who.. i dun wanna mention name in case he’s reading.. hahahahaha..).. =X haha.. it was like.. i am crying over something and he was just there to console me.. i’m really so damn sad till he came and hug me in his arm and i just keep crying in his arms.. duh.. he said some things to me.. and then he finally told me he likes me.. and in return.. i told him i liked him too.. hahahaha.. den we just hugged and i wake up.. haha.. it’s so stupid and weird.. for NO reason.. he came into my dream and disturb me.. hahaha.. i’m just joking.. but still.. yeah.. perhaps i haven’t really got over why-did-he-choose-to-ignore-me thingy.. sigh.. count count.. it’s already 4 years.. haha.. sian diao.. well, perhaps it was bcos i’m not someone who get over something fast.. =X

i m so tired now that i dont feel like putting anything else besides words here so u wun see any full stop or commas
so to avoid any confusion that u guys dunno where did i end my sentence i will just put a paragraph alright
hahaha

went to work today
started work at 10am today and end at 6pm
i went to UOB to help tim to deposit the money
den i start work
i m so damn poor this whole mth that i only left 5 cents in my wallet
hahaha that’s great
so tim helped me pay for my lunch first
den i went back n eat my lunch
and i stand all the way till i knock off from work
duckie and my sister came to meet me and we going to town to have our dinner
and den we went to walk ard
and den we went hm at ard 9 plus
cos i m so tired after work
i m leaving out some details i will write tml
cos i m reali very lazy now as u can see
hahahaha

*I’m sorry duckie i didn’t mean to always feel tired lah.. cos after work mah.. and i have slpg very little this few wks..

Things to buy.. so i need to save money.. Here are the items that i need to save money for:

*PSP (duckie wants before feb next yr)
*Digital Camera
*Passport ( Cos i really wanna go overseas with my friends!!! wait for me)
*Clothes

It’s a busy day.. i thought i have overslept for my lesson again but.. i did not.. sad~ i thought i have an excuse not to go sch early today.. hahaha.. ooPS.. =X so i went for AVFE lesson today.. today’s lesson is to teach us how to make blue ball orbit ard the yellow ball.. and the extra hmwrk to do was to make the pacman run and eat the white color ball.. haha.. tough.. so far, i only managed to make the pacman EAT the ball but can’t move and eat the ball.. hahaha.. so after lesson i went to meet duckie to do FYP.. so now i’m done with the Registration.aspx & login.aspx.. =) of cos that’s with duckie‘s help lah… hahaha.. with him ah.. always make me laugh until i almost pengz.. ytd, he say screw-ru instead of screw.. hahaha.. so funny.. and today we talked about the bra thingy.. oso make me laugh until i almost pengz in the bus.. =) we went to long john sliver to have our dinner. den we went to walk walk at JP for awhile den we went to pasar malam to buy his sausage.. hahaha.. den we go hm already.. =) tml i gotta work.. starting work at 10am.. hahaha.. not bad.. it’s better than 7am.. haha.. i will die!! tml my younger sis will come look for me at TCC.. den tml i will go out with her and duckie.. kekez.. when i take my pay tml, i will keep 50 bucks with duckie.. hahaha.. the rest, i still gotta buy christmas presentS~~~

BUSY! I’M SO DAMN BUSY RITE NOW!!! i need to get my brain to work!! i need to finish my stuffs!!! My FYP and my IC assignment~~~ wanted to MOS’s (Ministry Of Sound) opening with duckie this wed.. but it seems like we are nothing going.. but we can go after our project~ so no worries yet.. saw fang yuh and his gf on 99 today.. have some gossip chat with him.. hahaha.. life is still the same.. well, i will be organising an gathering soon~ it will be on New Year’s Eve~~ so everyone PLEASE make urself free ya? went to the library with duckie to do my IC assignment and my part is already done.. hahaha… that’s very fast.. -_- and i am doing my FYP.. gotta copy and paste my old one and create a new proj cos the old proj can’t open.. and i don’t know why.. ASP.NET is SOOOO troublesome.. sigh.. and i got lesson tml.. tml IC tutorial dont have to go since attendance will not be taken.. i can sleep lateR~~~ hahaha… so excited now.. sian..~~ i feel like time is NOT on my side.. but i will run along with time and see who is the fastest.. people don’t look down on me please.. cause i will make u regret like i have made u regret once.

I guess i have to return this story to him. and this is wat i have to say.

Before we are even friends, we are just classmate who doesn’t really talk until i borrowed his laptop during the lesson and use it as if it’s mine cause that time i haven’t got my laptop yet.. and that was the time we started to talk like as if we had know each other very long.. and there was edwin, kean lee and derek in our group.. and we always hang out together.. yeah, that was a very happy time.. when once, i organised an outing for steamboat and on that day itself, everyone except him said they dont wanna go any more bcos it’s raining.. i was so very upset and unhappy… when he came to console me.. i scolded him “fuck off”.. i feel so bad.. and since then i had nvr scold him that anymore..

so we went to have our first movie outing.. and with our blur-ness.. we watched a thai movie “The Unborn“.. den we took a bus hm.. since den.. we always went to watch movie together and had enjoyed each other’s pressence.. that was a very fun time.. we became very close friends and we always go out together.. and i remembered the time he kept saying he’s takashi (jin chen wu).. it makes me laugh alot.. and i always LOL in the cinemas.. we always shared blah blah.. till the day he told me he likes me.. i was shocked.. he even asked me to be his gf.. i think for a few days and. finally i gave him an answer.. that was, on 14th april 2004, i’m willing to be his gf..

during the r/s.. there are some ups and downs.. promises that i made but nvr manage to fulfil them.. like going to zoo together, going to malaysia for his bday, blah blah blah.. i always remembered the first day he said he wants to get a mistress even though i knew he was joking.. he just keep saying that and i wasn’t very happy about that.. den he stopped saying about tat.. i remembered the first day we met up after i had agreed to be his gf.. the first time i holded his hand.. the first time he hugged me.. the first time he kissed me on my cheeks.. it was all so sweet..

during some occasions like my frens’ bday, they wanted to go clubbing and so i went since i don’t miss out my fren’s bday.. but i don’t like clubbing.. this is a KNOWN fact to my friends.. they also know i don’t like to drink.. so they nvr force me to.. for example this yr.. my bday we went to ktv pub, they open a bottle of chivas.. they ask me drink a few glasses and when playing game, i said i don’t wanna drink.. they nvr forced me.. that’s my frens.. but to him, he always thinks i love to club.. but its’ ok.. but i did not go clubbing to let guys to touch me.. this is another fact he got wrong.. whoever went clubbing with me b4, know my style.. =) but it’s ok..

and so, we break up after 6 mths plus of r/s.. the reason was because of a guy i don’t like.. and that guy is yujie. and i must say and clarify that i only treat yujie as a close fren of mine and nothing more than that.. but he doesn’t believe me.. he asked me if i love him but i told i can’t say i love him yet.. but i like him lots.. but he don’t take that as an answer.. sadded.. and so he break up with me because of that guy.. i did not cry.. at least i tried not to.. but i still cried out.. even after we break up, we maintain like as if we hasn’t break up.. so everyone knows we break up only after a few months after we break up.. and when everyone knows that.. he treat me like a stranger in sch but when we are alone.. we are still close.. so no one knows we contacted each other.. no one knows.. but he didn’t want them to know.. simply bcos.. “When we are together, i make sure everyone knows we are together. When we break up, i also make sure everyone knows we break up.” i remembered once when i called him.. he hanged up my calls bcos he was in Kailun’s car.. he didn’t want kailun to know i called him.. so he only sms me back when he reached hm.. i was very upset.. but he doesn’t really care.. he only said that to me.. i was heartbroken.. but he still treat me very nice.. so i also don’t care.. after that, each time i went clubbing.. he will scold me bitch.. say bad things to me.. that makes me feel like i’m worth nothing.. i feel VERY down.. even so, i still love him.. bcos i finally had the courage to say i love u to him.. but.. he doesn’t believe me.. even i had the courage to ask patch up.. he doesn’t want to.. i feel like going away but den i can’t.. cos.. i really love him..

and he got very close with a girl he knew frm working last yr.. i was very jealous.. so i went out with my friends even more.. and on jesslin’s bday, i gotta know duckie (even though he’s in the same WISP class as me.. we didn’t talk until that day we saw each other in chinablack..).. and since then i got contact with him.. when i was sad.. duckie talked to me.. and i always told him about piggy until he listen until very sian.. and i stopped talking to him.. the day b4 i became duckie’s gf.. i was so upset with piggy.. we had quarrlled and duckie consoled me.. i was surprised to know duckie likes me.. bcos i only treat him as a fren.. and den duckie asked me to be his gf.. and some considerations.. i decided to be his gf.. but i broke up with him bcos of piggy.. i admit i’m indecisive cos i simply don’t know who to choose and i don’t know how to pls both of them.. but i patch up with duckie bcos, i still thought piggy wun wan me anymore.. and in any sense.. at least duckie wun scold me bitch the way he scolded me.. being with duckie is diff… at least we can sit down and talk.. but in my heart there is always piggy.. sigh.. i hate it whenever piggy forced me to choose.. i hate to be forced.. that’s y i didn’t choose him.. and i don’t hate him.. i just can’t let… i don’t wanna say out..

ppl, shd stop judging me for u guys don’t know me nor him.. just.. let the past be a past.. thanks.. any reprimands will not be considered..

ytd, went to work.. morning.. 7am.. hahaha. so early bahz.. =) den i reached there 7.03am.. was late abit only.. so nvm.. =) so we do housekeeping (as usual lah..).. den i stayed there to help Erin to draw a face for the store.. so i left the place about 1plus.. and meet up with duckie ard 2plus already.. by the time i reached his hse is already 3pm.. den his mum cooked mee fen and i ate it b4 i went to slp.. haha.. was soooo tired and tis guy kept coming here and disturb me but i ignore him cos i couldn’t even open my eyes.. hahaha.. =) but i wake up after he had taken his bathe.. =) so we went to town to have our dinner b4 meeting with amy & darling. =) cos we are going to Expo to watch WU YUE TIAN!!! hahaha.. omg.. the concert started at ard 8.30pm and when we left the place about 11.30pm.. it hasn’t finish!!! but we had to leave cos take cab VERY exp!! hahaha.. but in the end, there’s no train to boon lay already so we took the train to changi airport and took 36 to town.. WU YUE TIAN sing a few of my fav songs like zhi ming yu chu jiao, zhi zu, gong lang, so on.. =) so nice… kekeke.. we went to mac to have supper.. joseph came to meet us (or rather, darling lah..).. amy went off after supper cos her bf came to fetch her.. =) so nice.. den duckie send me hm.. =) and den he took a cab hm..

i was suppose to go duckie’s hse today to do my IC assignment but i slept until 4plus den wake up.. hahaha.. so i meet him at JP for dinner instead.. we went to blk 492 to have my fav hor fun… den we went back to JP.. den we went to playground to sit and chat… =) keke.. den after that we went to pasar malam to walk walk and buy food to eat.. i eat until my stomach very big now.. sian diao.. hahaha.. =) lalala..