Went to watch “House Bunny” with Scandal, Alvin and Wei Xiong at JP.

The waiting for the 3 guys is an angry one. Because Alvin‘s car engine couldn’t stop. Because of the extra thing that was added into the car (i don’t know what’s the name of the extra thing lah, but you know guys they like to modify their car into i don’t know what shit.) and they have to go to the repair shop to get it repair and so me and Wei Xiong just walk around in JP. And I bought a jigsaw puzzle (the picture below). Spent a total of $70 for the puzzle and the frame. Bought it for Nicholas.

Movie is kinda funny lah. And Shelly (in the movie), is definitely a BIMBO. But that’s what made the movie funny. Haha. After movie, went Super Bowl for some bowling action. And I might say my bowling SUCKS. For the first round of the game, my ball went into the gutter 4 times. ZZZz. And my total score for the 1st game is only a pathetic 30 pts. Can u believe it? I don’t have the strength. And Scandal‘s father is really good. And I heard he’s ex bowler. =X That explains it. And after that I went to meet Nicholas.

And I received his sudden SMS. I don’t know if you guys knowa who am I referring to. But I aint gonna say his name. You know it’s been almost 7 months since we broke up… And he doesn’t look like he’s gonna contact me at all. BUT, he did. The first msg he sent me was “Are you with your bf?”. Pretty shocking. I woke up at 11plus and saw the msg that he sent me at 10plus, I was kinda speechless. I did not replied his qns and asked him instead if he had SMS-ed the wrong person. I wasn’t waiting for his reply because I don’t think he would reply at all, I swear! But he replied me at 2p.m after I am done with driving lessons. I know I have been thru this before. I know I did. But sometimes, I can’t help it so I replied him asking what he want from em when he replied “No……..man…” to my qns. He said “Nothing”, but usually there is something if not why would he wanna SMS me in the first place? He said I sounded angry. Of cos I am! For all he had done to me – being harsh towards me, told me to stop SMS-ing him, deleted me from friendster and facebook (+ he blocked me), changed his number and MSN. I wasn’t informed at all! And he said he was harshed on me because I was too denial at that point of time. C’mon lah, if he were me, he won’t say that anymore. Because he simply have NO IDEA how it feels to be treated the same way by him not once, but TWICE. And I was pissed, so I told him to entertain his gf, he replied saying he has no gf. And asking further, he ‘only’ had one gf after me (and that’s Ruth) which last for a month and he say that doesn’t even feel like it existed. So I asked him again, what was his intention for SMS-ing me, he said HE MISS ME. Should I even buy his story? And then he told me he’s going to sleep because he got ‘beaten’ up by indians the night before and his whole body is aching. When I asked why, he didn’t wanna tell me. And then we continued the conversation. I sounded so angry that I even told him that he was the one being petty. And he jolly well knows how much I loved him. Perhaps a part of me still does love him now. He said if not for my childness, we would still be together. And he agreed that he was childish too when I pointed that out. Ahhhh, saying things like that really makes me going nowhere. Really. And we ended the conversation after he told me he deleted his facebook and friendster account.

I refused to tell Nicholas who I was SMS-ing in the afternoon because if I were to tell him, he won’t let me go out with Scandal because he will be so busy asking me qns that I don’t wanna reply. I promised I will tell him later at night. And then I went out with Scandal. He really kept me thinking about the whole thing about him SMS-ing me, you know. So, I decided to SMS him to tell him to stop SMS-ing me. Because I aint his subsitute when there is no girls to care for him. And he stopped replying me after awhile. And I carried on with my bowling game, after which I went to meet Nicholas again. And, this time round, we really broke up.

I don’t have any reasons. I feel guilty. For using him so that I can forget him. And most importantly, I broke his heart, made him teared for a useless person like me. I hate myself you know. I promised him I will still meet him. But he still wants me to stay overnight at his house, which I did. Because I don’t wanna upset him further. I’m really sorry. Because I couldn’t love him and I’m still stucked in the past that he has left me. I really find it so hard to move on. I’m not committing to this relationship, so it’s best to end it now than later. I should have be more persistant a few weeks ago, but I failed to do so. This hurts. I know and I can understand. He was using the whole night telling me not to let him go. He wants me back when I’m ready to settle down. But, I can’t commit any promises to him. This is how sucky I am now. Sighed.

The last entry for the day!

Went to meet up with Darling Alicia and Sweetie Amy last night for dinner and a night of juicy gossip till 11.30p.m!

I met up with Darling first and we went to shop around JP, I think it’s been a long time since I last shopped at JP loh. So many shops went missing and new shops popping out. So sua ku (mountain turtle). I went home to put down my bag and wait for Alicia to ring me when she reaches JE. Meanwhile, I kept myself busy by watching some Korean drama show which Brandon lent me. The title? I don’t remember. LOL.

Anyways, we had dinner at Ichiban. And it’s nice catching up with the girls because it’s almost 11 months since I last saw Alicia. If I hadn’t remember wrongly, the last time I saw her was on my birthday last year! Gosh, that’s so long! We have been talking about meeting up and you know what happens next. =P After dinner, we went to McCafe to continue our conversation and do some catch up with each others. =]

After the long chat, we headed home separately. Perhaps, we should organise one meet up soon, with the rest of the girls! =D

Taken at Ichiban

Didn’t get to see Bi for 2 days. And I know he’s missing me dearly. =D

And I really need to get my ass stick to the chair and start learning photoshop and edit my pimple out. Zzzz.

This is a get together night before my younger brother, TWK will be enlisting on Thursday, 09.10.08 (in this case, he’s already enlisted. I’m trying to pretend I’m still in the past. =.=).

We went out for dinner at Blk 815 (i think there is nowhere else we can have our dinner liao), and out of a sudden, mama’s crying. I mean, you know how it feels like when your brother get enlisted and won’t be coming home for the next 2 weeks? Sighed, I’m starting to miss him though I’m not close to him. After all, he’s my brother and I love him! He’s the one and only able man to be enlisted because my elder brother couldn’t speak properly (as in he doesn’t talk and even if he does, you won’t understand him), thus he’s spared.

So I took some pictures before his enlistment.

With TFZ, our elder sister

With TFG and Tooty, his best friend and best dog

With me.

With THP, my elder brother

And lastly, with my ah ma.

Papa didn’t wanna take picture, so there is no picture of mama and papa. So not sporting right? Sighed

I have been wanting to update my blog these few days but my internet at home is DOWN. Holy molly. So I shall do some updates now, in different parts. So that my entry won’t look so squeezed. Let me start from Tuesday.

We were supposed to go ice skating but we changed to Kbox instead because the ice skating closes at 9p.m when by the time we reached the ice skating ring is already 7.30p.m. and it’s really bo hua to skate for 1.5hrs and pay 14 bucks when we can pay 16 bucks for 3 hours of singing! Haha!

The reason why we reached that late was because we were so busy pasting the photos that we developed onto the giant birthday card that we prepared for Wee Keat. And of cos, we got to have our dinner before ice skating right? If not we will be starving to death. And on this day onwards, my working hours are changed to 7.45a.m – 5.15p.m on Mondays to Thursdays and 7.45a.m to 4.45p.m on Fridays. Waking up early means I will get hungry real soon. We had KFC for dinner and I must say the KFC at JE SUCKS. But i was having cravings for that, so bo bian loh. And singing is so fun! We sang till 11p.m and head home, and I dropped dead on the bed after showering!

The back of the birthday card

Me holding the giant card

The inside of the card

The group pics

It’s another post birthday celebration for a colleague. This time round, it’s Wing Kin’s turn. The sabotage starts at 12noon when we are having our lunch time. And we had prepared a special lunch menu for him, except that he can’t choose.

This is his special lunch.

Happy Meal comes with a toy, of course. That’s rat which they always throw around.

The birthday boy look shocked!

And he’s so brave to drink the drink mixture of orange juice, onion and some unknown ingredients.

And the egg mayo with wasabi

Yummy? I don’t know and I don’t wanna know!

And the ‘dessert’ after the special prepared lunch. Searching for the key that’s placed in the flour.

This is the fake present.

Presenting the GAYS:
Gay no. 1

Gay no. 2

Gay no. 3 and the REAL present is on Keith‘s hand

Gay no. 4

Gay no. 5

Presenting the GROUP pictures!
I think this is supposed to be Ultraman Sign. But somehow it became so Xu Chun Mei.

The guys

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

The fake credit card.

And the REAL present!

And I don’t know if I should be glad that I’m a girl. And how is it possible to HIDE my birthday from this crazy people? OMG.

Went clubbing last night! After such a long time. We were supposed to St James, but at the very last minute, XueYan is not coming (cos he’s going to m’sia the next day) and his bunk mate gotta celebrate his friend’s bday. So we changed to Butter Factory but Zong Yang is not of age yet (Guys minimum age is 21 yrs old, Girls minimum age is 18 yrs old [i supposed, because we walked off after the door bitch told ZY he can’t go in]), so we have to change our plans again. What makes the whole night stupid was, we took cab to Boat Quay because his stupid bunk mate say he’s there and when we were about to reach, they are at Riverside Point. That’s not the end, we ended up going to Clarke Quay just to meet his friend, who walked off to look for some pub without bidding goodbye and there is not even a ‘Hi’ from them. Good thing is they are NOT handsome at all, so we don’t really bother. So we decided to go MOS, but after walking a big round because the girls was so engross in their conversation, we walked the wrong direction, we ended up in front of The Arena, and since I haven’t been there and I HEARD it’s happening, so we decided to try out the place. Because ZY kept saying he can’t go in because he thinks the minimum age for guys is 21 yrs old, so i went to the bouncer and asked if he can go in. But the bouncer didn’t really answer my qns, he only told me to ask the GUY (referring to ZY) to queue up. Well, I thought being in the army, ZY will learn NOT to be so ‘beat-around-the-bush’. When you are told to get something done, you just do it. After all, we , as girls, are definitely of age to go in! Nevertheless, the entrance fee for The Arena is $30 for girls and I can’t imagine the entrance fee for guys. And there is LIVE band and when the band is resting, there is R&B, Hip Hop music. And for that $30 bucks you paid for, there is 3 drinking coupons. And yes, we tried to enjoy ourselves (OK, we DID enjoy ourselves), but there is stupid Ah NEI who keeps following us. This scares us.

After that, I went to Bi‘s house instead of mine because he wants to see me. I didn’t wanna make him upset further, so I went to his house still despite me keep rejecting him before going to club.

We drink ORANGE JUICE in club.

Eve‘s YO-YO sign

Our ONLY group picture. LOL.

The LIVE band

And I woke up at 1plus today. Bi‘s mum called me asking me if I need lunch and I told her I don’t need because I thought I’ll be going out early. So I called Scandal and wake him up just to meet him at 7.30p.m @ JP because he needs to get a hair cut. And then I read my Harry Potter and watch DVD with Aunty because I don’t have anything to do. And then around 5plus, Aunty asked me if I wanna go with them to pick up Bi. After that we went to Balestier to have dinner. And now I’m feeling so full. LOL. and now, I’m back at Bi‘s house.

Some things are so unpredictable. Don’t you agree with me?

One moment you are still in a relationship with someone and next minute, you guys broke up for only god knows reasons. Saw a friend’s profile in Facebook changed from “In a relationship” to “Single” shocks me. Because they have been together for at least 7 years if I remembered correctly. And I have yet find out anything from him, because I only saw the status change today. And then, I have another friend calling to pour out his sorrows on his relationship with his girlfriend. No wonder he hasn’t been contacting me, because his girlfriend checks on him. And today, he sent me a SMS to ask if I’m free tonight, his girlfriend saw it and I think she’s paranoid over this and reminded him of his promise to her that is never to cheat behind her back. Oh well. I still think that this relationship of his is not going anywhere even though he say his girlfriend is committed to it. But the thing is, how long more you can tolerate this relationship when she gets overboard most of the time? Telling you to apologise when you know the fault doesn’t lies in you. This sounds hilarious, but there are such people around! Being committed and still doesn’t have trust in each other, this relationship will be a tough one. Testing each other’s patience gets nowhere too.

Sometimes, I’m reminded how badly I have been treating Bi these 1 or 2 weeks. And I know clearly how it feels to be treated like shit, and yet, I gave him the same treatment. This is so wrong. Somewhere in my heart, I just couldn’t find the feelings I had for him. Why is this so? Why do I sound so bastard? Why am I behaving as if this relationship is nothing to me? It doesn’t feel the same anymore. I hated this feeling! Really hate it. Perhaps, I’m running away from this relationship because I just couldn’t stand being in a relationship for too long.

My friend hanged up the call because his girlfriend SMSed him and he SMS me back telling me his girlfriend pop up. See, so much trust for each other. And they just started early this year and have quarrelled umpteen times. All small matters add up to become a big issue in a relationship. Even if a couple who doesn’t quarrel at all, will never know what truly matters because perhaps, they don’t even talk about it. And once the volcano erupts, it’ll be too late to save anything.

And I still think I need some time to adjust my feelings back. Do you agree with me?

Finally, catch a movie after 2 weeks! It’s a long wait because I was so broke you know? Got my GST money from Government and now, I feel broke again. Paid off some debts, bills and my driving lessons money I don’t think I have much money left. That’s how sad I am now.

Nevertheless, movie is good! With a little bit of humor. And because I was busy getting my cosmetics, so I asked Evelyn to help me collect my movie tickets and when I went to look for her, I saw the person writing on 6 blank movie tickets. And when Bi and Wei Wan saw it, I told them GV no longer print out the tickets, they are going manual now. Wei Wan was shocked. It’s just a joke, why so serious? Haha!

After sending the girls home, we went to have supper at West Coast (you know the nasi lemak next to NUS?) and pool at Bukit Timah. =] Reaching home ard 3a.m, and i was so tired already. One day, I will win Wei Wan in pool! Humph.

Haven’t been updating my blog. So here’s some pictures that I took over the few days.

This was taken on Monday.

1st, it’s the group pictures taken in Creative.
1st row: Supervisor Hoi, Vemala, Me,Faezah, Trixy
2snd row: Zong Da, Wing Kin, Larry, Keith, Edmund, Jason
please read from left to right.

Zong Yang‘s 1st book out! It was on Monday. Because it’s rushing, so we change to Tuesday instead of Monday. And he still looks the same. Except I think he’s darker. =]

And, this is 7 people squeezing in a car. =X Of cos, everyone still can pose lah. The ‘twist’ hand i think belongs to Jun Quan. =D
And Peili always has to be in the background for some reasons.

And, I finally meet up with my Poly cliques! After 2 years, or perhaps more since I didn’t really see them during my 3rd year. Really feel like I’m back to my poly life. That kind of feeling, so nice. Anyways, we went to a pub call DR8 located at somewhere near Outram Park MRT station. It’s just a 5 minutes walk. And, there is NOONE except for the 4 of us and 1 more customer. So you can imagine the pub is filled with our voice. Edwin drank the most because he kept losing for some reasons. And he was joking, by drinking more, this will make his money worthwhile mah. LOL! After finishing the whole bottle of Chivas, we head back home because I have to work today. =[

And I still think I can’t treat Bi nicely at all. What’s happening to me? I get so paranoid when he kept repeating himself. I know he’s being nice to me. I know he’s giving in to me in every SINGLE thing. Perhaps it’s mental thing. Because once I know I’m treating him nice again, I will then start to treat him bad. Maybe I was hoping that he will back off. But I doubt this gonna happen any time soon. I know as a guy he doesn’t like me going drinking with other guys. BUT, I don’t really care because these guys are my friends whom I have know for so long and missed dearly. So he say, I can have my freedom. I love my freedom. Some times, I feel this relationship is tying me down because I can’t go out with whoever I want, I can’t go out till wee hours, I can’t this, I can’t that. I don’t even feel like going to a club with him. He say it’s the guys that he doesn’t trust, I just think that the person he needs to trust is ME, not others. Maybe you think I’m being ridiculous here. I am still wondering what I can do so I can start to treat him right again.

Had my driving lesson yesterday and I’m starting on my Stage 2 now! That’s exciting. In one or two month’s time then I will be able to book my TP test day (provided i have the money lah). =D This was the instructor who first took me out on my 3rd or 4th lessons. And, I just kept stalling engine. Where is my concentration??

Anyways, went singing with the guys after my lesson and we were having so much fun. Peili is such a pig, waking up at 8plus 9p.m.. They are snatchers, who snatch the songs I want to sing. Evil peeps. LOL. We had dinner and then play pool for half an hour and then went singing for 4 hours, went back to JE because we are unable to extend the time, had McDonald’s and then went to play pool again. Haha.

The map for the race.

And now, back to my life.

Well.. I have been thinking these few days on my relationship with Nicholas. I’m trying so hard to give up on this relationship, why does he try so hard to save it? It’s so hard to make decision you know? Like you kept thinking in your head that this relationship will turn out sucky, why bother? There are guys who are in a relationship and yet still go out for one night stand (ONS). I asked him, your gf won’t call up and check on you meh? He just reply saying the most he don’t pick up her call and just tell her that he’s sleeping + they only meet on wkends. Bastard right? And this bastard is one of my friend. Haha. So this friend of mine asked me if I want to have an ONS with him. Though, I have been wanting to break up with him since Sunday, but he didn’t want to break up, I won’t resort to such method to make him break up with me. And this reminds me of myself when i tried so hard to persuade him that i don’t want to break up. So, this is the time someone has to heartless. But I simply can’t be heartless towards him. Whatever it is, I will try loh. But I really can’t promise anything to him.