after thinking the whole of last night, i thought i might have over reacted a little… ok, i was very over reacted. that was because i am still a little affected by this he-were-to-ask-me-back thingy. which he has no idea why he ask me back when peili asked him. and this has been at the back of my mind for 2 days. and i feel rather bad for pushing Andre away when he was trying to be concern and all. Argh. what am i thinking? i m affected because he told peili that he has never toy with my feelings before. so which one should i believe in? the one he told me about him playing with my feelings and stuffs (and that night i cried my lungs out. i became so pathetic that night.. but he don’t give a damn to me. he don’t care about me. but he told peili that he still cares for me after we break up.. tell me, should i buy that story? i begged him. i begged him dun break my heart that way… but he did it anyway) or the one he told peili about him being serious with me at the initial part? i loved you. but i have done my part that is to stop loving you, which i almost succeed. but now, i m almost back to square one which is not fair to me. because you have your fun.. when you have got noone to turn to, u think of me.. when i used to think of you almost every single day. i gave my best, u know i loved you so much. but, your desire is to know those girls working in the pub and get their number.. go out with them for movies, drinks.. i am not one of them, nor i am cute. i almost want to run into your arms again.. i almost agree steadily when you asked me to go over.. i almost. but on 2nd thought.. i shouldn’t. you say you thought we can try again.. i wanted tat long time ago… but u refused to give us another chance.. you rejected me flatly.. remember? but i have put all these aside, and moved on.. I want to think about it no more.

It’s been 2 days, and my emotions are still affected by his smses yesterday. i have been feeling real down these 2 days. i thought i should ask Andre out so i would feel better. it did makes me feel a little better because we bumped into Peili & her colleagues (my future colleagues too), crapping with them for awhile and headed back to Mac when i just left the place. My mood did not turn bad because i head back to Mac but rather, some thoughts came into my mind… or rather, my mind turns blank. till i don’t feel like talking.

while waiting for Andre, i bought my very FIRST book which i-supposed-is-an-interesting-book to read. And i seriously think that this is an interesting book.. though it may seemed a little bimbotic to some people. Sometimes, its nice to read such BIMBOTIC book you know? It’s FUNNY. What’s the criticism for? I just can’t understand these people. zzzz

Had a rather emo morning, afternoon till i met up with Bernice, Danny, Michelle, Jason, Josephine, Pamela, Abigail (the birthday girl) in the evening. Yup. We had dinner at Paisley & Cream, Central – Clarke Quay. I am definitely not a creamy person because i failed to finish up my pasta. =[ then we head to Minds cafe at Boat Quay for some games. Damn fun, but i left my brain at home. =X i was supposed to meet Andre after my game. But he didn’t pick up my call nor reply me.. Damn upset today la. Super Duper EMO. DAmnit.

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I enjoyed this year’s christmas eve by having dinner with Andre at Holland Village, Wala Wala and Le bar with Peili, Justin, Martin & Jenna. =D But Le Bar was too noisy because they have DJs there. Hmmm.. not what i have expect for this year’s christmas though. But it’s fun taking pictures and crapping around and, hitting Andre. =X I bought everyone a christmas present but i forgot about Justin‘s because i was busy helping my mum to paint the house. so it was not very convenient for me to go out so ‘early’. I bought Yuting a present too since i will be seeing her today. =] and she was kinda surprise. and for that, she hugged me like a hundred times (ok, i’m being exaggerated here) and kissed me like at least 4 times and even on my lips. Thanks to Andre‘s suggestion. =.= oh well. whatever that makes her happY! me & Andre left early because he was kinda tired and i find Le Bar too noisy. Oh well. I want a beautiful and romantic christmas next year puh-lease! =P This shall be the last time that she’s gonna mention things regarding to JJ.. i’m not interested to know who he’s interested in or whatsoever. I’m SERIOUS. Oh well, at least Yuting promised me that she wouldn’t talk about him after christmas. But, she was like in a drunk state. =X But, it doesn’t hurt me anymore even talking about him. I cared less and don’t care.

the woman behind the mask

i looked rather retarded here.

but, he’s the winner. LOL

peili, me & Jenna

peili, me & Yuting

peili, me & Martin

I Love HEr~!

isn’t he sexy? LOL

Yuting & Me.

The tree at Vivo!i’m suffering from BAD HAIR DAY

me & Jeremy. I hate to stand beside someone who is 1.8X. makes me so short. =X

Ermm. we are trying be a tourist. =X

Met up with Jeremy yesterday, supposed to do some shopping… but because i was ‘trying’ to help to paint the house, so by the time i met up with him was about 8p.m… and grabbing some bite, ok… i mean dinner here = no shopping can be done. aawww. Met up with Peili & Justin as well, since they are there. And we took some pics. Well, what else can we do anyways? LOL. Was supposed to watch movie, but things doesn’t went well.. Justin went home and Peili was left alone.. because she told him she wants to be alone. and me, have to head back to Vivo to look for her. =.= 好朋友难找。你很幸运，因为你找到我。She bumped into the guys we met at MOS previously. Yup. It’s been a long time. Haha! Crap for a little while before heading to Le Bar. Yes, again. Because my hp was low batt, thus… no more pictures for the day! Haha

It’s Christmas season again. So it’s also time to meet up with people you have not seen for ages. =] and i did. I met up with some of the Poly friends and 1 of them, i didn’t see before. =X anyways, it’s fun. We went to this “Pitstop” cafe and had our dinner and played some games there. we had fun testing our reflective system. apparently, it’s either we left our brain home or we are just slow lah. LOL. It’s so fun, because i was like disturbing the servers there. oh well. hope they know it’s nothing offensive. heh heh. And there is present exchange. And we left the place at about 9plus. =] gonna head off to bed soon. cos i m feeling tired. yup. nitey world.

Was out with Andre last night for a movie which… we were late because i was late. HAahha. we went to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks. And yes, this is the FIRST time i am watching chipmunks. I have NEVER watched chipmunks cartoon or show before. 没有童年。sadded. then we went to Tanjong Pagar Rd, Amici Restaurant for dinner. And the food there is nice la! It’s an Italian Restaurant. =] Then we went to Le Bar to meet Peili. =] I don’t know if he feels uncomforty because i kept seeing him chatting with lots of people. Which is good. LOL. and Peili kept saying i didn’t entertain him. But, he doesn’t need me to entertain him leh. =X Peili & Justin went off early so we stayed till about 4plus before heading home. and i’m SOOOOOOOOOOO damn tired. WHo wakes up early during their holiday? i mean, definitely not me.My lover. =] They just make me love them even more. heh heh.

Went for a little tour to Club Street since i have never been there before. It’s kinda cool to see the buildings in different pattern. as in from the pictures you can get what i mean. =] The street is very quiet because it’s like 4plus in the morning. We went to take a stroll after playing Dai Dee for awhile in Le bar. =]

It’s my LAST DAY at work today! And everyone is so nice to me. And i received 2 small boxes of Kokocrunch from Bernice. =] and i got a little pink color Koala bear pouch from Pamela. Well, that kinda surprises me. she pass it to me in a rush because she’s rushing to the airport to pick up her luggage. It’s so busy because i kept forgetting stuffs… and damn la. i pack up the storeroom to make it neater. =X oh well. and i worked till almost 10p.m because the POS is taking it’s own sweet time to update. it took about 30 mins to UPDATE lo. OMG. That’s so long lah. I think the POS kinda miss me that’s why. LOL. ok, think too much. i m feeling slpy while waiting. oh well, den went home with Erica. the last time i can go home with her. =] and yes, i m feeling slpy now. =] oh welll… i shd rest more and prepare to PLAY till i drop! LOL

The new mama of BMI. Esther just gave birth to a cute baby boy. =]Wellllll, i guess no more chilli with fishball, OOPS! i mean fishball with chilli from the Old Chang Kee. Danny bought me a last stick of fishball today, because he’s not coming on Tuesday. Sad-ed. PSSS… DANNY, WHERE IS YOUR EYES???

My Keyboard teacher. But she’s always too busy to coach me. so Bernice actually owe me quite a few lessons. =P

*poke poke* Erica here is someone so fun to talk to. =]

And yes, Everyone who stays for the Christmas Party (no gift exchange! =[ sadded). We had fun playing Taboo. Hunnie came to join us, but she’s the camera woman here. LOL.

We had KFC and Pizza Party today! But Ms Mah went home early because she’s too tired to stay. It’s Jaymee’s last day tomorrow. Jaymee will be missing this place soon. =[ Because, Jaymee loves all these people here. =]
and yes, my Forever21 dress and heart shape bling bling is FINALLY here. =] isn’t it pretty. I know you guys will say it looks like ANY OTHER kind of my DRESS. but i DON’T really CARE. hahaha.