when will i start to learn not to miss him so much?

i wanted to see him so much… but he said it’s late, so we didn’t meet. but at least i had my yu pian tang; with peili… why is it so hard to give up someone? why?

went to Shaiful‘s house for the Hari Raya lunch since he’s just staying at Blk 739; the block opposite to his. but he wasn’t at home… Jiaying, Eugene, Gary and his gf came. so i hang around at his house till 4p.m and headed home to meet my younger sister out for a movie and dinner.. and as usual, my mum forced me to treat her. lol. which i did. we went to have Thai Express for dinner, then we head back to Cathay to watch our movie, Mr. Woodcock, at 7.25p.m and we headed back home again. the movie is not as funny as i thought it would be… it’s better not to have much expectation if you don’t want to have disappointment.

and i think i must have said a hundred times i miss him… i really do.. it’s really upset to not get his reply… i wanna see him.. so much… but i dun wanna bug him… i… am lost.

went double O last night. wanted to go MOS but hunnie last minute told me she can’t go because she got assignment to do and exam next week. =_= now u OWE me one MOS outing. zzzz. lao pa was trying to persuade me to pubbing instead of clubbing… but pubbing became so boring after so long, so i insisted on clubbing… JJ came to fetch me after his work and then we went to have dinner at Jurong East because i’m so hungry… and Qing Ren, Peili was already there waiting for us. i wanted to sms him if he has finish work then he called me… when i kept saying “hello” and get no reply from him, i thought he might have accidentally pressed his phone, then i heard him saying “hello” too. *relived* he offered to send me home after my clubbing, and i’m so touched and thrilled at the same time… because he cares about me. i wanted to hug him so much… i wanted to kiss him so much… but i didn’t get to do it. i was so high after drinking so much… because i don’t usually drink a lot.. saw Kelvin there and he treat me a “tequila pop”… i thought i’m going to be a goner soon… i survived but was so high until i almost couldn’t stand straight. Saw Fang Yuh and Yew Ching over there as well… after that i called JJ and asked him if he wants to pick me up… of cos i want him to pick me up because i miss him so much… but i was too high to talk to him… and i fell aslp… and the next minute i knew, i reached home already… i was really happy he came.. and i love him still. i still love him lots though i kept saying i have love him lesser…

i just came back from breakfast with him… after bugging me from my sleep for 2 hours, i finally woke up because he’s going to his HQ to pass his cert, and he says he wants to have breakfast cos he’s damn hungry… so we went to the mac at Gek Poh… and i bought myself a kid’s meal which comes with a a toy. LOL. oh well, because i didn’t wanna eat so much and get stomachache the whole damn day… =D then we went our separate way; he head to HQ while i head back home. *yawns* maybe i shd go and lie down on my bed for awhile before preparing for work in 20 mins’ time. =D *ahhh chooooo* *sniff sniff* *cough cough*

my heart was beating so fast until i could feel it, even without touching my own pulse.

i was walking to his house to meet him. in my mind i was thinking about meeting him. everything in my mind is about him. how i wished to keep the conversation going longer and freeze the time there. the night is passing so fast.. faster than i could imagine. then i wished he’s still mine, but in my head, i know this is not possible anymore. but, i love him. i do.

celebrate my dad’s birthday… was supposed to celebrate his bday on Monday but i have to work till 9p.m… so.. we have an early celebration. =]

My lim jiu session last night. Though there is only 3 of us, i enjoyed my lim jiu session… and i just get more red. LoL.. 1st we went to Jiu Tan Lin for some hoegarden, then Qing Fu smsed me, so after our hoegarden, we went to 36a Drinking Place to look for him. played pool and my skill suck. lol. it’s my unlucky day. and suddenly i think of him… so i decided to sms him… he replied me for awhile then he didn’t reply me… i was kinda upset… =[ till i almost wanna cry out… but i control myself… i think i’m just thinking too much again… and i wished he misses me like i miss him.. but i don’t think that will happen… but we are going partying soon. =]

peili a.k.a kerine, me, my sister and hunnie

me & hunnie

qing ren & me

qing ren, qing fu, hunnie & me

ubilant

dorable

ummy

erciful

nergetic

nchanting