he cares! =D

i guess, we are running out of love. we started so fast, now we have got nothing left. do we still have the love from the beginning? i could sense it flowing away; away from us.

i guess, we are running out of patience. we were too patience from the beginning, now we left with zero patience. time has sucked all the patience away from us.

i guess, we have personality crash. we are two stubborn people together. but i don’t want to be the only one giving in to you. can’t you just give in to me? sometimes, the actions u did to me, really hurts me deeply; without you realising.

i guess, we have nothing left to say but angry words. my angry words, his angry words. this is never gonna end. i know. i just knew it.

i guess, we are running out of time. thus this is the end of our love story? it takes 2 hands to clap. i don’t wanna be in this relationship alone. where are u? i don’t see you anywhere anymore. i do not want a prolong relationship that leds us to nowhere. both of us need a direction to somewhere. i was hoping that you will be my direction, someone whom i can follow forever. but somehow, i guess this decision made was wrong. we are not meant to be. [if we are meant to be, God tell me. or YOU tell me?]

if i can’t use my blog to vent out my anger. den what’s the point of my blog?

+ Bf throws his temper back at you when you threw your temper at him for not meeting you when you have waited for him the whole darn day JUST BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING OUTSIDE [waited for him to wake up from his sleep, wait for him to finish his dinner]

+ He said you are just PMS-ing (well maybe that’s true, but still. I’M A GIRL.)

+ Then he would give you the same attitude you gave him the night

+ He just won’t coax you at all

+ Then when you told him that you had a bad night last night, he would apologised and then when you say something more, he would then say “I say sorry loh. Den what you want me to do?” this kind of suck up attitude.

+ Then when you typed [GO AWAY] in your MSN personal message, he typed [fuck you! Get Lost!]. what was your reaction?

+ Then he would say “we meet more than last time already what.. why complain? it’s not i run away” [perhaps you wont run, but i will be the one doing that]

i simply hated this relationship. and i don’t know why i’m still in it. i don’t feel myself being treasured by him. I DON’T AT ALL. when i told him about this, he would always say ‘didn’t my actions proved my love for you?’. but i just don’t feel it anymore. i just don’t.

what am i doing?

suddenly i have this pissed off feeling.

just go away everyone.

i need to slp.

Whose action does this picture reminds you of?

A familiar action from the very someone whom we are always talking about.

A familiar someone of a higher position.

shouldn’t make it too obvious. =X

and yes, only the BMI-ers will know. =]

*** picture contribution goes to Abigail. =] Thanks for posing. LOL

Went to meet hunnie for dinner and then qing ren (peili) for some kbox session. ok, after all these, i’m broke! hooray! =] we went to Lerk Thai to have dinner, and they are having this dinner “eat-all-you-can-buffet” dinner.. thus, me & hunnie ordered that. even though everything is small portion, but we didn’t managed to finish it because there are food i don’t eat after all. =X and when the food came, it filled up the whole table, literally. then we went to Marina Sq to have our kbox session. [we almost end up in MOS alright]… Lawerence tot we are supposed to go see penguins ytd (saturday)! omg. =[ thus, i m at home now.. doing nothing.. because noone ask me out! gosh.

this is our dinner. =X

us at Lerk Thai

This is what we cal multi tasking – singing, smsing, posing at the same time. =]

me & lover

these are my woman. HAHA

what she is doing? =.=

today, i am a good girl. sat at my desk, do my work. was trying my best to compile the emails from the complimentary students so that i can send it to Pamela ASAP. but still, i can only manage to finish it at about b4 i do closing. =[ it’s a lot of email and typing loh. i was trying to do till it’s readable for them. and then i meet cacca for dinner. well, i might wanna try for a airline. went to meet baby at JP for ‘supper’ though. because i m sure he hasn’t taken his dinner. =X wanted to have ice cream but i changed my mind. i have my cravings for ice cream since yesterday. baby bring me to eat ice cream soon k? haha. whatever. it’s time for me to go.

it’s our 5th month today. =] love u. =]

my mini little booboo dropped out. =[ so i can’t hang it to my hp now. argh. anyways, bf came by to my workplace to fetch me. =] so i didn’t get to wait for abigail to go home together. so me and baby went to lao pa sak to have supper. oh well, he didn’t have his lunch nor dinner, and he’s behaving like a pig. =X den we headed home.

think it’s time to review on my job prospective. what am i gaining from this work. besides ‘good’ money, good colleagues… maybe some spiritual imparts. i love my colleagues there. but sometimes, i’m too restless to do the things i’m supposed to do – faithfully. checking studios etc, are boring. sometimes i think i need something that is EXCITING. hahah. sigh. i would love to try to be air stewardess. of any airline, as long as i have this opportunty to fly ard the world. certain airlines, are too tough for me to get it, especially when it’s so competitive. if not, i wanna be someone else.. do something that would impact the whole world, does it includes being a terrorist? oh no! i’m NOT! as i was listening to what josephine said today. i agreed totally with her that i was too slacking in my job. partly because i’m damn restless to sit on the chair for 8hrs w/o chatting with the rest of them. ok, perhaps, i just wanna be part of the gossip. ha. whatever it is, i think it’s time for me to start being like an adult. i do feel myself childish. that’s why people always treat me like a small kid. sigh. that’s not what i want to be.