I can’t attend baby’s POP!!!! ARgh… sad. I wanna go to his POP. but i gotta work. and i’ll be rather busy next wk and the w after next. =[

I WANNA GO BABY’S POP!!

Yan can cook, So can You!

haahaa. i just cook fried rice for myself. smart girl i’m. =] it’s been a long time since i cook something (beside maggie mee) for myself. =] instant noodles, im geting sick of them. hehe.

Sunday, 25th March 2007

Woke up so late today. Wanted to attend Asli’s wedding early but i ended up reaching the place at around 4plus because i’m just so tired. So when i reached there, there isn’t anybody i know there. The 1st time i attended a Malay weddng. Asli is SOOoooOOoOOOOO pretty. It’s true when people say the time when a woman is beautiful is the day of their weding. =] It’s cool. After that we headed back to baby‘s hse because he’s booking in today. Had dinner at his house and his house is filled with so many people, his relatives. never ask that much. I don’t like my younger sister lah. She’s the one who wants to watch movie den she’s the one who doesn’t wanna watch anymore. zzzz.. bluff me. Wkend is too rush for me to do anything. I have so many movies to watch but i dun have time to watch. It’s so irritating. =[ Sigh.

Saturday, 24th March 2007

Nothing much is done. Met up with baby‘s fren, Yuting. Slack at C.A.N Cafe again. this time around, we slack there since 4p.m to 8p.m. hahaha. can u imagine we wasted 4 hrs there? sigh. we wanted to watch movie, but we ended up going to Jack‘s newly opened pub. It’s somewhere near boat quay. it’s a KTV pub so me, don, baby & my sister had a gd time playing around. don is so funny and lame. though it was fun but i was so freaking tired. because i’m lacking slp. baby was so quiet… sigh.. Perhaps we are just so tired. Nevertheless, We are going to KBOX next wk. HAHAHA. to think about it, it’s my 1st time to KTV pub with my sis! =D

Asli & me

The couple.

me & baby

Me & moi sister~

us at Jack‘s pub.

baby smsed me when i was hesitating if i should sms him. Not that i am being strong headed or i don’t realise i’m in wrong for throwing temper at him.. but i just misses him too much to have short conversation. i thought he would understand. but apparently, no. Nevermind about that.. like me, he miss me too much that he can’t don’t call me or sms me.. just like i was hesitating because i can’t don’t sms him.. i hope this time is the 1st time and the last time because i seriously think that i’m going crazy.. soon enough if this kind of quarrel surfaces. but in which relationship there isn’t any quarrel? am i being childish? =[ den bren ask me out to M.W to visit a.k.a disturb ah kang because he’s working closing this whole week + he misses me. LOL. i say he miss me on my own accord. LOL. thick skinned to keep saying people misses me. it’s been awhile since the last time me & bren went to slack.. just the two of us. =] kinda miss this kind of feeling. =] had some crappy moments. had my agilo olio. hahahaha. special request. baby, learn how to cook this for me den i will marry u! hahaha. time to slp. cos i’m mentally tired now. haha..

Am i too much?

Am i too much to ask him leave me alone for the whole of this week? I’m frustrated over this relationship.. or was it because relationship is not my cup of tea.. and i should remain single forever? Damn, I m having second thoughts again. This must be the Xth time i’m thinking about it. Nothing about us matches except maybe for the mole on our nose? ha. I guess i m throwing my temper again. What for? I misses him so much everyday, i waited patiently to finish my work early so i can talk to him and of cos i will be disappointed if our conversation is so short when i have been waiting to talk to him. he’s trying to say i’m not understanding. i told him a millionth time if he’s tired den he should slp early. I know he wants to talk to me every nite, not that i don’t want. But he’ll be tired to concentrate on talking to me loh. So in order not to make myself disappointed i told him tat we shall not chat on phone every nite. Sometimes i’m tired too.. but i always waited for his calls. I don’t like this. ahhh, nevermind about this. Sometimes i’ll have this urge to say the ‘forbidden’ sentence to send me back to hell. But i always refrain from saying it out because i don’t wanna hurt this relationship. I just need to know what’s my purpose in this relationship. i need to know. it feels like i m hanging out of nowhere. And den i asked myself, how many times a week i actually meet up with my friends that he has to wait to call me? he said I’m stepping on his tail now. He’s stepping on mine? I’m FENGYUN.

I’m very stone to do anything now. I’m very stone to even talk to anyone [ i have to talk when i’m working. this is bo bian ]. I’m kinda moodless now. I don’t even wanna talk/sms to baby. whatever. =[ Maybe i just don’t like disappointment anymore.

ARGH~~~!!!!

Let me continue to stone.

here are some old school cashier register and typewriter from C.A.N cafe me & baby went last sat.. =] He likes to go there now. =]

1 month. =]

He’s most fu*king cheapo guy i have ever seen. Do i look like i get bullied easily? Do i look like i get cheated by this kind of cheapo asshole easily? Fuck. I think i am. To think i took his words for real.

No, i m NOT talking abt baby.

I’m talking about some cheapo asshole.

SOME ASSHOLE who doesn’t have even fucking $40 to pay up. But want to feed a girlfriend. Who behaves he lent me a million bucks (you dunno how many ZERO does a million has, there you go -> 1,000,000) before we broke up when he only pass me a fucking pathetic $10 (he doesn’t know how many ZERO does a ten has, there you go -> 10) which he said i used to “feed” gigolo. =] From January until February until March. He drags. It’s only fucking $40 bucks! kaoz. How i wish his r/s are so sweet with no quarrels. The girl will abide his fucking childish thinking. With absolutely NO jealousy. With absolutely NO friends. With absolutely NO rivals. have a happy ending. =] This is what i have wished. Hope it will come true. =]

YES. I AM TALKING ABOUT HIM. THAT PATHETIC ASSHOLE. who complains EVERY BAD THING about me, but NEVER realise he’s OF THE SAME KIND too. PLEASE, if you ever bump into someone fat, who keep saying he’s handsome + he looks like some handsome actor, PLEASE RUN. I regret bumping into someone like him. And i don’t want someone to follow my footstep. =] It’s a warning.