I guess i have to return this story to him. and this is wat i have to say.

Before we are even friends, we are just classmate who doesn’t really talk until i borrowed his laptop during the lesson and use it as if it’s mine cause that time i haven’t got my laptop yet.. and that was the time we started to talk like as if we had know each other very long.. and there was edwin, kean lee and derek in our group.. and we always hang out together.. yeah, that was a very happy time.. when once, i organised an outing for steamboat and on that day itself, everyone except him said they dont wanna go any more bcos it’s raining.. i was so very upset and unhappy… when he came to console me.. i scolded him “fuck off”.. i feel so bad.. and since then i had nvr scold him that anymore..

so we went to have our first movie outing.. and with our blur-ness.. we watched a thai movie “The Unborn“.. den we took a bus hm.. since den.. we always went to watch movie together and had enjoyed each other’s pressence.. that was a very fun time.. we became very close friends and we always go out together.. and i remembered the time he kept saying he’s takashi (jin chen wu).. it makes me laugh alot.. and i always LOL in the cinemas.. we always shared blah blah.. till the day he told me he likes me.. i was shocked.. he even asked me to be his gf.. i think for a few days and. finally i gave him an answer.. that was, on 14th april 2004, i’m willing to be his gf..

during the r/s.. there are some ups and downs.. promises that i made but nvr manage to fulfil them.. like going to zoo together, going to malaysia for his bday, blah blah blah.. i always remembered the first day he said he wants to get a mistress even though i knew he was joking.. he just keep saying that and i wasn’t very happy about that.. den he stopped saying about tat.. i remembered the first day we met up after i had agreed to be his gf.. the first time i holded his hand.. the first time he hugged me.. the first time he kissed me on my cheeks.. it was all so sweet..

during some occasions like my frens’ bday, they wanted to go clubbing and so i went since i don’t miss out my fren’s bday.. but i don’t like clubbing.. this is a KNOWN fact to my friends.. they also know i don’t like to drink.. so they nvr force me to.. for example this yr.. my bday we went to ktv pub, they open a bottle of chivas.. they ask me drink a few glasses and when playing game, i said i don’t wanna drink.. they nvr forced me.. that’s my frens.. but to him, he always thinks i love to club.. but its’ ok.. but i did not go clubbing to let guys to touch me.. this is another fact he got wrong.. whoever went clubbing with me b4, know my style.. =) but it’s ok..

and so, we break up after 6 mths plus of r/s.. the reason was because of a guy i don’t like.. and that guy is yujie. and i must say and clarify that i only treat yujie as a close fren of mine and nothing more than that.. but he doesn’t believe me.. he asked me if i love him but i told i can’t say i love him yet.. but i like him lots.. but he don’t take that as an answer.. sadded.. and so he break up with me because of that guy.. i did not cry.. at least i tried not to.. but i still cried out.. even after we break up, we maintain like as if we hasn’t break up.. so everyone knows we break up only after a few months after we break up.. and when everyone knows that.. he treat me like a stranger in sch but when we are alone.. we are still close.. so no one knows we contacted each other.. no one knows.. but he didn’t want them to know.. simply bcos.. “When we are together, i make sure everyone knows we are together. When we break up, i also make sure everyone knows we break up.” i remembered once when i called him.. he hanged up my calls bcos he was in Kailun’s car.. he didn’t want kailun to know i called him.. so he only sms me back when he reached hm.. i was very upset.. but he doesn’t really care.. he only said that to me.. i was heartbroken.. but he still treat me very nice.. so i also don’t care.. after that, each time i went clubbing.. he will scold me bitch.. say bad things to me.. that makes me feel like i’m worth nothing.. i feel VERY down.. even so, i still love him.. bcos i finally had the courage to say i love u to him.. but.. he doesn’t believe me.. even i had the courage to ask patch up.. he doesn’t want to.. i feel like going away but den i can’t.. cos.. i really love him..

and he got very close with a girl he knew frm working last yr.. i was very jealous.. so i went out with my friends even more.. and on jesslin’s bday, i gotta know duckie (even though he’s in the same WISP class as me.. we didn’t talk until that day we saw each other in chinablack..).. and since then i got contact with him.. when i was sad.. duckie talked to me.. and i always told him about piggy until he listen until very sian.. and i stopped talking to him.. the day b4 i became duckie’s gf.. i was so upset with piggy.. we had quarrlled and duckie consoled me.. i was surprised to know duckie likes me.. bcos i only treat him as a fren.. and den duckie asked me to be his gf.. and some considerations.. i decided to be his gf.. but i broke up with him bcos of piggy.. i admit i’m indecisive cos i simply don’t know who to choose and i don’t know how to pls both of them.. but i patch up with duckie bcos, i still thought piggy wun wan me anymore.. and in any sense.. at least duckie wun scold me bitch the way he scolded me.. being with duckie is diff… at least we can sit down and talk.. but in my heart there is always piggy.. sigh.. i hate it whenever piggy forced me to choose.. i hate to be forced.. that’s y i didn’t choose him.. and i don’t hate him.. i just can’t let… i don’t wanna say out..

ppl, shd stop judging me for u guys don’t know me nor him.. just.. let the past be a past.. thanks.. any reprimands will not be considered..

ytd, went to work.. morning.. 7am.. hahaha. so early bahz.. =) den i reached there 7.03am.. was late abit only.. so nvm.. =) so we do housekeeping (as usual lah..).. den i stayed there to help Erin to draw a face for the store.. so i left the place about 1plus.. and meet up with duckie ard 2plus already.. by the time i reached his hse is already 3pm.. den his mum cooked mee fen and i ate it b4 i went to slp.. haha.. was soooo tired and tis guy kept coming here and disturb me but i ignore him cos i couldn’t even open my eyes.. hahaha.. =) but i wake up after he had taken his bathe.. =) so we went to town to have our dinner b4 meeting with amy & darling. =) cos we are going to Expo to watch WU YUE TIAN!!! hahaha.. omg.. the concert started at ard 8.30pm and when we left the place about 11.30pm.. it hasn’t finish!!! but we had to leave cos take cab VERY exp!! hahaha.. but in the end, there’s no train to boon lay already so we took the train to changi airport and took 36 to town.. WU YUE TIAN sing a few of my fav songs like zhi ming yu chu jiao, zhi zu, gong lang, so on.. =) so nice… kekeke.. we went to mac to have supper.. joseph came to meet us (or rather, darling lah..).. amy went off after supper cos her bf came to fetch her.. =) so nice.. den duckie send me hm.. =) and den he took a cab hm..

i was suppose to go duckie’s hse today to do my IC assignment but i slept until 4plus den wake up.. hahaha.. so i meet him at JP for dinner instead.. we went to blk 492 to have my fav hor fun… den we went back to JP.. den we went to playground to sit and chat… =) keke.. den after that we went to pasar malam to walk walk and buy food to eat.. i eat until my stomach very big now.. sian diao.. hahaha.. =) lalala..

today’s work is fun.. start work at 11am today.. 1st time chat with Brenda for so long.. cos i took the initative to chat with her.. hahaha.. anyways.. i’m on floor today and when suzy went to break, i took over her for awhile.. den duckie came to look for me.. the moment i saw him, my whole face turn red until sophia say me.. hahaha.. he ah, drink double espresso again.. so Erin asked me why he always drink that, so i told her he’s crazy.. hahaha.. =X so we had our dinner at TCC.. =) they didn’t charge us for the drinks.. of cos they got charge us for the food lah.. and they gave us 20% discount.. so overall we just had to pay $30++.. while we are having our meal, nana came and say i really have alot of appetite to eat.. hahaha.. =X kekeke..den after that we went hm already.. cos i’m very tired.. until i slept in the train.. Hahaha.. had lotsa laughter today.. =) i love to laugh.. along with my colleague.. keke.. =) they are so frenli and nice to play with.. i have a new nick name.. tim called me tick tock.. hahaha.. duh.. hohoho.. =) alright.. i gotta slp early already.. otherwise tml late for work again.. start work at 7am and finish work at 12noon den i will go duckie‘s hse to do my IC.. sigh.. =) so tired.. hahaha…

to those ppl, stop looking for troubles.. it’s so irritating.. go away.. leave me alone and i swear i will leave u alone too. thanks alot man.. i’m reali damn happy now lah.. ahhaha.. life w/o u is really much more better since both of us are stubborn ppl who doesnt give way to each other and i can’t let anyone to have any more chance to say anything bad about me anymore.. nvr.. and pls, ask ur very nice and gd frens of urs to KEEP OUT OF OUR BUSINESS.. thanks.. i meant wat i say.. it’s getting on my nerves.. =)

i m so bz recently.. busy until i don’t think i got time to finish everything on time.. haha.. sigh.. so i gotta work hard!! =) jia you bahz

Went to work ytd.. start work at 12noon and end work at about 10.30pm.. cos i m doing closing for the bar for the 1st time.. so i’m a bit slow don’t know wat to do.. don’t know wat’s wrong with me i break 3 drinking glass, 1 catalina glass and the jar for the thermometer & spoons for the bar.. sian diaoz… and the bar was so busy that i don’t even have time to read the FHM.. stupid sia.. i don’t understand guys lah.. some gers in the mag are not very pretty but i admit they do have big boobs.. lol.. big boobs with no looks oso can make it to singapore’s FHM.. tat shows the low mentality of those guys.. hahaha.. boobs are imp.. =) and suzy asked me whether i wanna exchange present with her on xmas or christmas day.. i say i’m ok with it… so i’m going to shop for christmas! how exciting this yr’s christmas.. lol.. =) can’t wait huh!!

Today i went to sch late.. sigh.. and i forget to sign out.. haha.. nvm.. sigh.. sian diao me.. i do IC assignment until i forget about everything.. -_- today i ate quite alot of things.. i eat xia mian, teriyaki chicken s/w & dinner i had KFC cos me & duckie left the sch at about 9pm.. so we went to have KFC for dinner.. i have been eating the whole evening.. haha.. i feel so hungry.. so tml i better dont eat lunch.. =) i hate to have big stomach.. =( i need to finish my part hopefully by this wk.. so i can combine my work with my partner (josephine.. not our jo.. but my class’s).. =) jia you bahz me.. and i stil have to wake up early tml.. and i’m sick.. i m having flu RIGHT now.. sigh diao.. haha… gotta go.

i was so tired until i didn’t online last nite and went off to bed.. =) can’t help it.. i woke up 7plus in the morning bcos i gotta attend one stupid talk about security blah blah blah.. in short.. it’s SAF talk about army.. -_- so i reached sch at 9plus.. and meet duckie to go in together.. i was sitting quite in front only a few rows frm the stage.. the talk thing is boring.. and.. i didn’t know who was sitting behind me until i turned and see.. it’s yuxiang, andrew, and edwin.. we didnt even say hi.. and i dunno why oso.. sigh.. i kinda miss talking to them but they dun look like they wanna talk to me.. just watever lah.. sigh… den sis sms me asking me to go watch movie.. so i went and we watch “Aeon Flux“.. not bad though.. the actions are very fast…fast and swift.. lol.. =) den after that i went hm (and before i went to bed.. i suddenly feel so sad.. don’t ask me.. i oso dun know why.. it feels like someone is sad.. tat’s why i m sad.. i dont know lah.. don’t ask me!!! ) and sLP till tis morning i wake up and realised.. i didn’t go for my IC tutorial again.. stupid… sigh..

well, was too tired to post anything last nite.. so i will post everything today.. =)

ytd, i worked 7am – 3pm.. it was suppose that i work till 12noon.. but tim told me to work till 3pm instad.. so i say ok.. so i do painting the whole day after the housekeeping.. =) i painted the branches, and bricks.. that was meant for tml’s decoration.. =) i do painting till i forget to eat my lunch.. so i went hm at 3plus.. after i reached hm, i saw a package on my table and i tot someone sent me a bomb.. just kidding.. it’s a birthday present from sister carol and brother andrew.. thanks alot.. =) both of them gave me a christian CD.. =) slept for awhile cos i reach hm ard 4pm.. and get out of my hse at about 7plus to meet duckie at the boon lay interchange den we took train to town to have our dinner and rot before our movie (“Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire) at 12.40mn.. =) after dinner we meet darling & joseph.. den we went to swensen to eat earthquake.. after eating me and duckie rush all the way to P.S for our movie.. lucky we reach there just nice.. the movie start immediately after we sat down.. lol.. den after movie we took a cab hm cos i’m reali VERY tired and slpy.. =X

*p.s. my ah ma say my doraemon’s sweater is CUTE.. hahaha..

today, i woke up late.. i was suppose to meet suzy at 11.30am!! but i overslept and woke up only after 1pm.. sian diao.. so i smsed tim and told him i’ll be late.. so i was reali very late.. LOL.. i reached there about 5pm.. and i took a cab down.. it’s so damn hot today that i almost melted.. waste my money to take cab down.. but it’s fun.. =) darling & joseph came down to pass me my brithday present.. they bought me and bracelet.. thanks alot.. lol.. these 3 days i keep receiving presents.. =X that’s gd.. ahaha.. so we deco the place until 10pm.. and i whole day only eat 3 satay and 1 chicken thigh.. lol..duh.. jus finish my maggie mee.. hohoho.. time to upload those pics i took today.. it’s a bit blur.. =)

yay, i finally bought a new hp.. for $0 cos i trade in my samsung e600c.. lol.. it’s faulty but i still can trade in for $150.. not bad not bad.. so i only need to pay for the SIM card money which is about $27.. lol.. =P so i got myself a panasonic VS2.. =) although i’m a bit disappointed that it’s not pink color, but i’m satisfied with the silver color =) keke.. den we rush all the way frm paragon to P.S for our movie (“chicken little”) it’s funny though.. lol.. after movie we went to have our dinner at the food court and den we head for hm.. b4 that i meet kelvin cos he say he wanna pass me by bday present. and guess what he gave me? lol.. a doraemon sweater.. LOL!! so i’m working 7am tml.. =) alright.. i’m very tired now.. gtg now.. tml will be a better day~ cos i m going to watch harry potter! hohoho.. i will take pic of it and upload here soon.. =) nite

i saw him.. saw him in the bus.. 242.. wat a coincident.. why did we decided not to contact anymore.. i still see him?

We “almost” break up… “I dont want to break up with u” that’s what he said to me.. think of it.. i didn’t want to break up with him too but then i can’t stand people always say i need him and so on.. i hate it when people say bad things about me.. but it doesnt matter anymore.. think of it.. maybe me and him had never started.. duckie said it’s ok for gf to use bf’s money.. but i think otherwise.. somehow i think we need to pay for each other and not always let the guy do the paying.. that’s what happened btwn me n him.. he always say he wants to pay for me and when he’s broke.. i pay for him too.. but it seems like he forgotten about it and only rem what he did for me.. and not what i did for him.. but it’s over anyways. i don’t even wanna start thinking about him at this point of time.. sigh..

I went to queenstown to meet bao ge ge cos he’s returning me the money for sat’s.. =) now i’m 20 bucks richer.. hahaha.. den we went to ikea.. but it’s CLOSED!! and the time is only 6plus.. and all the shop is CLOSED!! that’s weird.. but going there reminds me of him.. reminds me we used to go there for a walk after a filled meal.. reminds me we always walk past ikea to go oppsite ikea for meal or walk.. and we used to go alexendra for dinner… eat our fav or jian… hahahaha… memories.. hard to erase.. but i will try my best NOT to rem.. =X i dragged myself there though.. cos.. everywhere there reminds me of him.. sigh.. he send 2 sms.. but it wasn’t meant for me.. he used to it.. and so i didn’t bother to sms him back.. lol.. a girl..

after meeting bao ge ge.. i went to town to meet duckie.. we met at lucky plaza cos i took bus 14.. den we walk all the way to cineleisure to have our dinner… and den we went to teleshop to look at hp.. cos i desperately need to change a new one cos my hp keeps hanging and for example.. it hangs 2-3 times within 5 mins today!! and it auto switch off.. sian diao.. and i saw tis hp i like.. it’s panasonic VS2.. it got 16 millions of colors which makes it damn cool.. hahaha.. and most of all.. it’s the PINK color that attracts me… kekeke.. i’m so excited now cos i’m going to buy that pink color hp.. BEFORE christmas! =) lalalalala..

i feel so good. =) i feel like i had nvr know such person before.. when i wake up today, i don’t even rem what happened last nite.. =) so happy now.. i’m going to put away whatever that person has given me away. keke. it’s brand new start.

Be mine forever, alright? =) i can’t bear to let u go.