I just reached hm and have taken my shower.. today, I woke up at 2plus today and den i went to bath and went to sch to look for duckie. i could have gone out earlier but i was searching high and low for his bangle.. i’m getting more and more absent-minded lately.. i actually forget that i have hang the bangle at the hanger and i was so panic.. so stupid de me.. so i spent about half an hr searching.. lol. den i reached sch at 5plus.. den i wait for duckie to sign out and den i went to his hse cos he needs to put down his laptop and take a nap.. he didn’t reali slp last nite thus.. yah loh.. i told him to slp early he dun wan and in the end, he doze off lah.. lol.. usual de.. i had dinner at his hse.. and his mum suddenly shout at him when i happened to walk pass them.. den his mum turn to say ‘sorry sorry’.. i realised they always shout de.. lol.. oh well.. quite pai seh though.. when we are about to leave his hse, i was singing den he ask me to ‘shhh’, den i was like ‘i sing to u not gd meh?’ den his uncle and mum looked at me.. i feel like burying my head.. stupid duckie.. lol.. argh.. we went to citylink to meet up with darling den we decided to abandon zouk and went to chinablack instead.. argh!! wasted my money, i could have save up that money and watch a movie instead.. i don’t like the music, and it’s too crowded.. damn.. and we waited super long just to get in.. me and duckie went off at 3am cos i reali dun feel like stayin there anymore. darling drank alot.. duckie told me to slap him and so i slapped him (i reali slapped and he was like staring at me.. ahaha).. darling SLAPPED me out of a sudden.. (oUch!! pain!!) and i slapped her back lah.. duh.. siao ding dong.. under the influence of alcohol.. that’s why.. =_= i asked her if she wants to go she doesn’t want, so i have asked alex to tell edmond to send her hm and give me a sms.. =) he did send her back.. =) me and duckie went to take Night Rider(NR) home.. lol.. and he’s like keep kissing me on my cheeks.. crazy liao him.. signing off now.. =)

Well.. well.. well.. me being a good kid today, stayed at home the whole day doing nothing.. shit, i shd have spend some time on my IHP!! damn, but it’s too late lah.. i have been slacking too much though.. =X so bad de me.. time to work on my IHP otherwise i can’t finish on time and i can’t depend on ppl anymore since the one who can help me isn’t here anymore.. Jesslin read my blog and this is what she said to me:

no thank you. says:
heyhey.. im too stress and i went to see your latest? blogpage.. hey! it lovely!! ; )

Thanks for ur compliment! hahaha.. =) hope she wil not feel so stress.. poor thing.. i asked her if she wants to go zouk tml but it seems like she got alot of things to do.. just hope she can manage to finish it.. heh.. ok, i going to cont to watch my Naruto so that i can return to yujie soon.. =) cheers

Today i skipped sch.. 1st day of sch and i skipped!! haha.. =X kinda feel bad.. i am suppose to go sch today to look for duckie, but i didn’t.. i went to meet him (which i’ll not elaborate any further).. and after that i went to meet duckie.. duckie was very angry with me for 2 reasons:

1) i didn’t go to sch to find him each time i say i would,
2) bcos i went to meet him.

ok, i admit i’m bad.. but i just want to hear what he wants to tell me.. he told me that his spine might got prob and he might not be able to enter into the police force. and i told him, i knew he’s not going to get in.. he said i’m lookin down at him.. he got low blood pressure, it was darling who told me that he can’t get in de loh.. and when i told him that, he say he also got friends in police force and i’m not the only one who have friends in police force. well, den i told him “den it’s gd loh”.. anyone who wants to be a police force must be strong, but he’s so weak in physical.. not say i’m looking down on him, but look at him.. sigh.. i just knew.. but anyways, he’s not important anymore.. and i dont really care about whether he’s alive or dead.. he said when everyone is stopping him, i’m asking him to go and die.. den why didn’t he die? why until now he’s stil alive? lol..

duckie cried. when i meet him, we walk into paragon and he went into the toilet and i saw his eyes red. den he walked to the second level and sat down on the bench and asked tissue from me.. so i knew he’s crying.. i don’t know wat to do, but he want me to tell him “don’t let me see him, otherwise he will beat him or slap him”.. it’s not worth it.. cos frm today onwards i don’t care about him anymore.. the whole nite, he was saying i’m the one looking for guys.. and when i asked him he got go know girls, he denied.. lol.. LIAR.. he’s such an asshole, what makes me wanna believe in him rite? i managed to make duckie laugh again, and i don’t wish to sour our relationship bcos of an asshole like him.. thus, i choose to ignore him and not going to have any contacts with him anymore. and i’m serious.. i told duckie i’ll try to love him so i must do what i promised.. and i think he (my ex) has ruin me enough.. i waited for him for almost a yr and he said i waited for him for only 6 mths. and we are only in a r/s for 6 mths plus, he said we are in a r/s for 8 mths (which includes after we break up.).. that’s holy crap.. he can keep saying i dont need duckie all i need is someone to accompany me when i’m lonely but he’s wrong.. lol.. gosh, i have know him so long and yet, that’s the conclusion he could get out of me.. oh man.. and yes, i’m disappointed when he said that, but it’s not once he said that, he said it many times before and this shall be the last time i ever gonna mention him in my new blog.. i shall write down what he said:

I feel like a girl in this relationship. and it’s always guys who hurt the girls and even so, the girl will still love that guy even though that guy can cheat on her. guys are bastards, really loh.. they only want girls for sex and when they are sick of their gf, then they will find a new one and break up.. only guys will change feelings.. i have nvr see a girl like u before, u are like special.. (so he was saying, i went to look for new guys.. flirt ard.. i did what he says. if he say i’m a bitch, i will be a bitch for him to see. if he says i’m flirting ard, i flirt ard for him to see. the only thing that he said and i didn’t do is he said i fuck ard.. i have change of heart.. that’s what he means. he said even so, he still wan me back.. he was very upset that i didn’t want to marry him anymore.. when he asked me if i’m happy, i told him yes i’m happy now.. at least with duckie i’m nvr sad.. perhaps sometimes got attitude for awhile and he will say funny things to make me happy again.. even sometimes when duckie is unhappy, i tease and make him feel happy again.. the feeling with duckie is different.. if i were to patch up with piggy, i will feel damn stressed.. sorry, i don’t even know who am i now.. but if i’m still little moomooz, i wouldn’t be his little moomooz anymore..) but sorry i can’t stand ppl say me until lidat.. i might suffer a breakdown.. i don’t wan that kind of relationship anymore.. so i told him, do whatever u wan, just stop writing and talking about me.. =)

So, me and duckie went to watch movie (Flight Plan).. we watched the 11.25pm showtime.. the show quite ok lah.. got the suspence.. lol.. gosh.. and we keep joking.. the guy who sat beside duckie fall aslp.. so we are guessing whether he’s there to watch movie or pay for the ticket jus to get some slp.. further more, that guy is riding a bike.. lol.. oh well.. lol.. the show finished at 1am (ard there lah..) den we went home.. cos he said his sis is going to his hse, so he needs to get hm early.. so he sent me hm first.. and on the way hm, i asked him about his ex gf.. lol.. i realised i’m very ‘se’.. cos i asked him whether his ex gf’s breasts is big.. LOL.. oops.. =X still got B cup.. sian.. mine is so small..!!! LOL.. when eddie say i’m small (i know he’s saying i’m a small kid), i asked him i where small.. lol.. anyways, it’s always curious about other’s past relationship esp duckie’s.. lol.. i’ll still be a virgin till the day i get married! hohoho!!!

This will be my new beginning. Actually i’m quite sick of the past think of it makes me sick. Really. How can i please everyone? It’s beyond what I can do now. And i’m not going mention about the past here. cos i really wanted a new start. =)