OMG! Jaymee is leaving on the jet plane in less than 4 hours time. I can’t contain my excitements in my pockets anymore. I will be back on Sunday, till then wait for me!
I am starting to miss you when we have to bid goodbye last nite. =[ Miss everyone. LOL. I should stop being so drama. Wait for me~
I am soooo tired right now. But I just want to complete this entry before I continue packing my luggage for the trip to Vietnam on Thursday. And I am still wondering what else am I missing out. Anyways, I went to JP with my lil’ sister and after that I went to meet TY and Alvin for some singing action. Ok, I am gian when it comes to singing. LOL. And time passes so fast that I didn’t realized by the time I walked back with them it was almost 1a.m. No wonder I feel like a dead person today (I swear I will sleep early tonight).
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And of course, I took some pictures. Haha.
I was a little mad with TY on Saturday (we went singing with Junren, Felix and Herman for the whole night) because he jokingly said that it’s a waste of time to sing songs that I don’t know. Argh. I was so happy playing mahjong with Wilson and his friends (winning only $2.40.. Duh) and this kinda spoil my night. But things improved gradually because it’s not my intention to spoil it and the fact that he kept trying to talk to me. =] Anyways, really appreciate Wilson for coming to my house and chauffeur me to JP and then to his friend’s house and finally to Cineleisure to meet TY and his friends (and drove back to West Coast Park to meet his friend and of course the fact he stayed in Kallang. Haha!). LOL.
Anyways, it’s time to go and continue packing my luggage! Woooooohoooo!!!
Time really remind us the fact that we are getting old and time for us to get married is near. Just as I was enjoying myself last night, I received a SMS from Michelle Lim that she’s getting married on the 2nd August. I called her back immediately because I thought it might be some kind of post April Fool’s joke.
It’s not a joke! Michelle is indeed getting married this year August! =] Feeling happy for her because she’s the 1st person in our mini group to get married. And I am invited to be her bridesmaid! This is gonna be filled with all the excitements and laughter. Looking forward to meet her and the rest of the girls soon. =D
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I just witness a suicide saga opposite my block when I was on my way home after dinner with Wilson. As the bus was passing by, I was wondering why there are so many people standing around Blk 73X ( x because I don’t know what block is that. LOL). And I heard people discussing about an Indian man trying to commit suicide on XX floor. But as I was looking up, I saw no one but the SCDF men standing on the higher levels. Getting bored, so I headed home to find out more. So my lil’ sister told me that the Indian man was standing on the roof top (which is just 10th floor), and he was attempting to jump off in front of the block, then he decided to try the back of the block. The SCDF has already prepared the air beds at both places. The worse thing that my sister told me was the whole saga lasted for 2 hours! Oh gosh. I was just in time for the end of Suicide Saga. The man was arrested and brought to the police car. And all the crowds moved to the car park just to take a look at the man who attempted suicide (apparently a flop one). And I managed to take some pictures of what had happened. Not in the best quality. But it’s better than none. =]
Nonetheless, I think life is too precious to be wasted in this manner. Love your life. You only live once in this lifetime. You are not always so lucky to survive one ordeal following by another. Like the woman who got shot in her face in 2004? She’s trying so hard to live her life as normal as possible. Her name is Connie Culp, being the world’s fourth person to have a face transplant. You know how hurt it can be not being able to eat, drink, breathe on your own and all you can depend on was an machine. Even when you are out trying to get some grocery and the little kids look at you and say you are a monster, the feeling is so indescribably terrible. Read this news, and you will think you are very fortunate to own whatever you have now.
Anyways, on a lighter note.. I was chatting with Wilson on Tuesday, and this is what he came out with when I say he’s so unfriendly. LOL.
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I screen shot it. Too bad lah.
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My little cute niece came to visit us last Friday (since it’s Labor Day (01.05.2009), a public holiday for almost everyone!), and we had some mj session (this is a MUST have since my sister came back so early). And cute little Alyssa, is so cute. Desmond placed her rings (for biting purpose) on her eyes as her little specs, and it looked so funky. LOL. Anyways, I won $12 could be more if I didn’t zha hu. Damnit. Lucky, they are ‘merciful’ enough to charge me 3 tais money. Zzzz. And then, I went to meet TY for movie session at JP. I finally watched “X-men Origins: Wolverine“.
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I must say this is a very good, considering that this movie focus only on Wolverine. If you wanna know the plot of the movie, click here because I am so lazy to type out. Sometimes, you just have to watch it for yourself and this movie will prove to you that it’s worth your $10 on weekends. So after the movie, we hang around his neighborhood and chit chat till morning and I headed back home. And unfortunately, we quarreled on Saturday. This makes my Saturday and Sunday suck totally. Lucky for me, I was out with Guowei for KFC and some singing session @ Partyworld (Taman Jurong), but I was still feeling very emo because TY refuses to talk to me. I switched off my hp, left my house without it. And when I got back home and saw that he did tried to call me twice, I still didn’t feel too good about it. We talked about it, and we are fine once again. =]
Let’s talk about my sisters’s birthday. Yea, the youngest and eldest’s birthday falls on the same day! Just that they are born in the different year. So, I dragged Rebecca along since she say she wants to come along when I told her quite some time back. So, we went to TBP (Tiong Bahru Plaza) to get the presents, cards and birthday cake. And then make our way to JP to meet the ladies.
My ah ma was hospitalized, suspected that she got some food poisoning (and the previous night I was told she got suspected mild heart attack), and lucky for us, she’s hospitalized for a night and now she’s back. Home sweet home. Was worried about her. And my mother (the evil woman) kept complaining about her eating the leftovers thus ended up this way. This is how irritating my mum can be. Because she treats her OWN mother better than her mother-in-law who is the one who helped to look after the household. From taking care of her kids (who is us) to keeping the house clean to cook all 3 meals. Ah ma is getting old, and yet she’s cares about everyone. I mean, why can’t my mum be like ah ma?
Back to where I left, my elder sister was late because she went to the hospital to pick up my ah ma and was waiting for the medicine. And by the time we meet was already 9plus p.m.
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Nevertheless, we had a sumptous meal at New York New York. We had cake cutting session there as well, and I gave the rest of the cake (4 slices) to the staffs there because they are great by helping me with the birthday song! =]
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And of cos, we cannot be sitting there without taking any photos, because this will NOT be me already. =] After dinner which ends pretty late (around 11p.m), Desmond sent everyone of us home.
Psst: We saw our FAV cousin there! OMG.
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Celebrated TY‘s birthday over the weekends on Saturday with Alvin, Wei Xiong and Jonathan.
First, we went to Dian Xiao Er to have dinner. And I realized, the food is not that very fantastic as the first time or the second time I had it. We ordered a set meal for 4 persons with some other dishes as well.
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The meal is enjoyable, considering I didn’t really have much because
Damn it, so my choice is quite limited huh. Doesn’t matter. So, I passed TY the bag that I bought for him. Just in case you are curious how does the bag looks like…. gonna show you how it looks like:
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Quite chio right? I know lah. Because I was the one who bought it mah. Ok, I know I am a little thick skin (don’t you dare to say me behind my back that I am MORE than a little thick skin!). This is the bag that I bought from Feb29 after getting the store person to be my model so that I can decide which bag to buy. And I am glad that he likes the bag. =] And surprisingly, the bag suits him. LOL.
Ok, after the dinner. We continue with our plan for some singing session. And by now I should have know that singing with the guys means that I don’t have much chance to sing. Nevermind about that, because I was happily snapping pictures away. And TY always complain that I took ugly pictures of him. Oh well, what are camera for? It’s been a long time since I last saw Jonathan, which I don’t even remember when, so we have lots to crap. Enjoying the moment of taking pictures and acting cute. -.-”’ I made TY wear the badge that comes with the birthday card. Which is so cute! Hahaha.
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And then, we just continue singing until 2a.m, after which we went to S-11 because the guys want to have some food. Jonathan kept saying he’s going home at 3a.m, but by the time he really got into the cab is already 5plus a.m. Oh gosh. We were actually standing by the road and chatted for more than an hour. Thanks to Jonathan. Out of the blue, he say “Ok, in another 30 minutes we can go home without midnight charge”, I was giving him one kind of face because my feet is aching from standing at the same spot. My stomach is hungry and my throat is thirsty. Gosh. After he left, I went to buy a can of drink and glup it down my throat before heading home. And this is how we spent his birthday together. =] Last year, we went singing too. Hahaha.
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This is the group pictures that we took. And of course, I added in some captions to make it look funnier. LOL.
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And, little baby came to our for a visit on Sunday! Finally huh. Have not seen her for quite a long time. She’s growing pretty well. Just that, when she cries, she can really tear down your house! The power of a baby’s cries.
And seriously, I think my little niece is cute and she does know what’s good and what’s not good. Let’s say, my brother passed her the Readers Digest book for her to hold and suddenly exclaimed that the baby is trying to tear up his book. Out of goodwill, my mum changed the Readers Digest to the Ikea mag and the baby cried immediately. So, my sister picked her up after she had her dinner and starts reading to her. My sisters were trying to intro her the man for his famous shoes, Jimmy Choo. I was actually laughing off my ass. Oh well. After that I went to meet Guo Wei for dinner @ JP. And after that we were slacking off almost everywhere while waiting for TY to come.
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And, I bought him a Tiramisu for his ‘birthday cake’. Wanted to get one for him yesterday, but I didn’t know anything about his plan, so I forsake it. =] So we were sitting at our usual place crapping. And holding my little irritating dog. =]
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And yes, I met up with him today as well for dinner because he will be away for outfield (but I think he’s going for a 3 days picnic instead because he bought quite a bit of tibbits). We went to Queensway Shopping Centre because Wei Xiong wants to buy a pair of basketball shoes. After that, we went to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe for our dinner. And I can feel the sleeping sensational creeping onto me. For the last few moments, I feel so stoned and tired. So I just want to get some rest in the bus, which I did, because I got a great human pillow (TY of cos). =] After that we went to JP to get some of his tibbits (again because he ate some in the morning) and headed home. =]
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I am going to write a serious entry, yet you might think it sounds crap. Whatever it is, it’s just my opinion and how I feel over the years.
I must admit at times I hate to be a girl. Why is it so? Living in this era whereby genders doesn’t really matters now, some conservatives families still thinks that boys/guys/men are the GOLD in the family. Thus the more the merrier, and so, if you are the only girl count yourself lucky. Perhaps your mummy is a girl lover, spoil you with barbie dolls and all that you ever wanted and all of your brothers dotes on you. Great for you. If your mummy have a dozens of boys and you are still being neglected, reality is such.
In my family, out of the 5 kids, 2 of them are boys. And unfortunately, my elder brother aint like us. He goes to special school (in some context, your ‘special school’ might be referring to those Raffles Boys School, blah.. BUT I am referring to schools for children with disabilities) and thus all the responsibilities falls onto my younger brother’s shoulder.
In my household, I am deemed as someone very useless, be it whether I am a student who are still studying or even as a working adult. When I was in primary school, my results were so poor and lousy that my form teacher gave her question of doubts whether I did went to kindergarden. And since then, my father has been using this to mock at me, even till now. Believe it or not, some simple words that a primary school learnt now, was what I picked up when I was in secondary school. And that’s the time where my results gets slightly better. I am just not into studying.
When I was a little kid, I was deprived much of my childhood. C’mon, try talking to me about care bears, I don’t even know what the hell is that until a few years back. In my back of mind, what I remembered was Ninja Turtle, Power Rangers (me and my sliblings will be fighting over which character we want to be and I am always the yellow ranger since I like yellow back then). Barbie dolls? What the hell is that? I don’t own any barbie dolls. The first time I played with one was when I was in Primary 6, at my back-then best friend’s house. I would always go to her house after school to experience some childhood (by playing with her barbie dolls and cats). Played block catching (such games never fails to make my heart thumping fast and faster). And out of goodwill, some people will discard their used toys to us. And we will just fight for it. The only person who really owned new toys before was my elder sister. Because she’s the first child.
I had actually dreamt to be a doctor when I grew up. And as time past by, I knew that is an impossible dream I actually came up with another dream to be a nurse. After watching those television shows and found out that I have to bathe the patients etc, I gave up my so-called dream (I admit I am a very typical singaporean who doesn’t want to work in any ‘dirty’ job of any kind). As time pass by, with the clock ticking away, I realized that all my so-called dreams have gone into the drain with me, not wanting to concentrate on studying.
When people starts their relationship in secondary school (some I heard starts in primary school), I was looking at those lover birds with envious eyes. And then, when I was out with my secondary school friends wearing the tweety bird t-shirt that my mum bought for me, I was filled with embarrassment because everyone was laughing at me. Since then on, I vowed to get my own clothes (with my mum’s money of cos). I am actually a below aveage looking girl. I bet when I walked on the streets, noone will even bother to look at me (not like they will look at me now). So, during the secondary school times (even till now), there is always rumours about who is more chio (pretty) than who. Or discuss whose boobs is bigger. Or even start to spread around who is the potential “Flower” in the entire school. Of course, sad enough to say, such things never happen to me since I am none of what I have mentioned above. So, I spend most of my secondary school life with my girlfriends. And I was introduced to alcohol when I was 16 years old. (And, I still hate the taste of it.) Friends around me, smokes. I tried picking up smoking, but I failed terribly. I am wondering, what will I look like or even behave like if I picked up those bad habits along the way. Will I still be sitting in front of my netbook typing this long entry, OR I will be like other chiongster clubbing all night long? I guess it will be the latter. When the girls around me started dating, and noone is dating me.. I feel very unwanted. When the girls around me started to be in a serious relationship, and I am still alone.. I feel that I do not have quality (like boobs, no good character blah blah). Always in doubt when there is a rumour someone likes me.
And Hooray! Heaven was pitying on me, I finally had a boyfriend when I was in poly. But that didn’t work out because like me, he was a first timer too. For the rest of the 3 boyfriends that I had after that, no relationships for me last more than 8 months. Even the most recent one, we broke up 3 times, patched back 2 times. How tiring can one relationship be? I wanted to commit into one relationship, the other party isn’t ready. So how does one hand claps without the help of another? Impossible.
Sometimes, questions keep popping into my head. Was it something wrong with me that I can’t hold on to any of these guys. I don’t like people to tell me, I am a good girl and still ended up breaking up. So, if I am really a nice and good girl, why don’t these guys hold on to me? Breaking up with these boyfriends ain’t easy. Lucky for me, I have friends around who cares. They helped me thru these painful time. I learnt that it’s not the time that heals your wounds. It’s the love you found next heals you. Believe it or not, it really feels good to have someone to cling on. When the person I love the most told me, he’s going to get another girl to be his gf, I swear my heart literally broke into tiny pieces and that was the night I drank quite a bit. It even came to the certain extend that I begged him not to treat me this way. Often, it was ignored. And I woke up from this horrible and terrible nightmare and told myself to let it go, because it’s never gonna come back.
I do love my recent broke up boyfriend a lot. But the thing about him was, he’s unable to commit. I can’t say I know him inside out. But, I do know what kind of answer he would give me when I asked him if he wants to spend the special occasion with me. The answer would be “See how first”. And he will end up telling me “meet you another day lah.”, I just knew he’s going out with his usual cliques. How does it feels? Sucky of course. If a girlfriend doesn’t get to see her boyfriend as and when, it would be pointless to be together. And then, I have to feel jealous over his friends. Because ultimately, his friends is more important than me. I tried many ways to please him, does the things he say. Follow his ‘requirements”, but things doesn’t work this way. The more I followed his ‘rules’ the more I think I am going crazy. So, we broke up for the final time. Nothing is going to be the same again. My feelings for him, is buried along with the memories I have with him. I do not want to remind myself of the bad times (though we do have good times together.. good times together is always so short).
Back to my topic, girls are always on the losing side. We get pregnant, whereas guys can just push their responsibility away (so, if you guys want to push your responsibility away, use protection). Of course, there are good men around. There is an old saying “Good man are either married, or died”. The modern one will be “Good man are either married, died or gay”. Unless you get some alien (I am referring to people like my brother-in-law) as your husband, else.. prepare yourself to fall into the trap of abusive guys or good for nothing guys. Ok, back to the pregnant part, it’s either we give birth or abortion. Many youngsters these days choose the latter. Why? Because it’s their parent’s decision. If you are old enough (and of marriage age) and your boyfriend is responsible for his action, you get married and perhaps even a divorce after that. Marriage is for a life time, but people seems to have forgotten about the vows they made. What’s the world becoming? Marriage shouldn’t be something you did on impluse, getting married for the sake of getting married. It would be very unfair for your kids. Reality is, kids from broken familiar tends to turn to the wrong path. So, if you want to make such decision, always think twice. And even if you decided to get married, plan wisely what you can provide for your child. Don’t bring them to this earth to suffer.
Now that I am getting oldER, I am starting to think about what will happen to me. Considering that I am turning 24 this year. I am still getting nowhere. Whereas all my girlfriends are attached. It’s just me. Believing that I will find one soon. Soon….
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Ok, I finally brought along my t-shirt, shorts and shoes for the badminton game. And I was feeling so tired but I did enjoy the game. The only thing that happened to me during game was, the skin on my finger peeled off. Ouch. I didn’t feel the pain until Jeremy was standing behind me and I was looking at the racket and saw that the skin on my finger is peeling. So disgusted by it ok. The pain came creeping to me when I wasn’t playing. Ok, this is what we can divertion of attention? Whatever it is.. I am tired right now. It’s Friday tomorrow! But I am working on Saturday. Looking forward to meet TY for his birthday. =]
And guess what? I got a little shocked when I take a look at my bank account. Oh my.. I still got 20 days before I get my pay and money is running out. I wondered what will happen when I am back from Vietnam trip. I think I will have to eat grass for my breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper. And I have to read the books I bought as a form of entertainment. OMG. HELP ME. So, I decided that I must not spend the money as if I am drinking water. Yes, that’s what I am going to do! (as if)
I think I must clarify that I am moody not because of anyone. I am moody because I am moody. Simple. I stopped talking to a particular person doesn’t I have something against him. It’s simply because I am moody yesterday and still am a little moody. That’s all. Let’s say it’s just PMS-ing lah. You will know it when a girl is PMS-ing during that period of time. Haha. But I am really surprised when everyone came to ask me if I am Ok. Thanks for your concern, I am Ok now. And I know I will be better tomorrow. Cheers!
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Finally, I am not faceless girl on my PSB Academy card. Today I received MY card with my picture on it. For the past 1 month plus I was using the “Visitor” pass. Now, I am an official STAFF liao. But, I find my PSB card’s picture a little too ugly. Why? Because I have paid almost $20 for this picture ok? That’s the thing about wanting to take a passport size photo. That particular person told me, even without the CD, she still have to charge me $20. =.=”’ And I re-took the picture at least 3 times because I wasn’t satisfied, and that lady told me “Ok, this is the last try”. So fucking lame. That explains my buay song expression. I swear, I will NEVER go that shop at P.S again.
Anyways, I am feeling a bit moody today. I have no idea why. I was happy yesterday. And, today I am so moody and I think I kinda ignored everyone. PMS, I guess. My bad. I swear I will be happy me again tomorrow. =]
I went for my break alone since noone is going for break and I don’t usually wait for that Fish. For a moment, I feel so emo and I swear, tears can just come flowing out if I didn’t control it. I bumped in Wilson at the coffee shop and end up having my break with him (since Calvin and Steve were both on AL). He kept joking that I should quit my job and how not popular I am. Oh well. I know that pretty well. After that we walked back together and I stayed at the reception because noone was there. Jeremy and Remi were both busy with their reports. And Lawrence called and asked me what time did that Fish went home. Not able to advise because I wasn’t there. Sigh. I am still feeling so MOODY.
Listen to my heart beat 