Oh yes, here comes a rabbit in my house! Now it looks like my house is a mini pet shop with a irritating yet cute dog, and a very quiet rabbit. =] Yet, this rabbit isn’t ours. It belongs to my brother’s friends and will be staying at our house for a few months. And my brother told me something funny. He told me when he told mum that he’s gonna bring a rabbit home, my mum asked him “Is the rabbit gonna be noisy?”. LOL. Oh, how i wished the rabbit can bark like a dog! Sacrastic. Nevertheless, all pets that are in our household are becoming real fat. Besides, this rabbit is fat and juicy! I mean, well fed! And guess what? This rabbit is BIGGER than my DOG. =.= Tooty is such a loser. Fancy him losing to a rabbit. And he kept going to the cage to look the at rabbit. I think he wants to: 1) fight the rabbit because he got the attention or 2) he wants to make friend with it. But i think none of the choices is what he wants. Because he’s simply too timid for anything! Haha!

And, bf says he might wanna get a puppy. =] I told him to wait till he’s working office hours first, if not noone will look after the poor puppy, if he ever gonna get one. If he really get one, i’m gonna be really excited. Maybe i shouldn’t be so pessimistic about this relationship at all. Paranoid i would say. =

Argh. I feel so sick now. =[ Kept coughing and soon i will be coughing my lungs out.

My attempt to break up with Nic failed. You must be thinking “Jaymee crazy huh? Just got together and now she’s talking about BREAK UP? Gosh”.

Jaymee doesn’t feel any security in this relationship. Simply because he’s still young and have the tendency to go out and have fun. And, perhaps some other things as well. Oh well, i couldn’t say i wanna break up with him when i was talking to him on the phone and managed to tell him thru SMS and he gave me a call back. i just felt that i couldn’t trust him 100% still, because i find it hard to do so. No faith in this relationship at all. Especially when i view his friendster there is like hundreds of little girls in it. This is a BIG no-no for me. OH yes, and his MSN list too. Perhaps u might thinking “Jaymee, you think too much”, but if you were me, how would you react especially when you know that your ex bf has been going after those young girls? zzzz. I hate to mention about this, but it keeps coming into my mind and is refusing to go away. Oh well. He persuaded me, and i don’t even know if i’m doing the correct thing. So what shd i do? I told him that he should just prove it to me, no point talking about giving me security and no actions. I hate empty promises. And he reassured me that he’s gonna revamp his friendster and MSN list, we shall see. He just want us to talk things out first, compromise each other before the B word. I just felt that we shdn’t waste time together if i can’t trust him at all.

This is my very fun Stitch. Pull the tail and his hands and legs will wiggle. =] And Peiwen says give her a week and this Stitch will be spoiled. =|

And this is my very first watch. =]

All these are given by Zong Yang who just came back from Indo. =]

When i told bf that it’s like the WHOLE WORLD knows we are together, this is what he asked me:

bf: i thought you say this is supposed to be an underground relationship?

me: how to be underground relationship when you hold my hands in front of ZY and co?

bf: *laughs* Good mah. I don’t like it to be underground. Then now how? Now not underground anymore?

me: !$^(^)($(%*#(^#(%&# (Bloody hell) I have already wrote it in my blog. So it’s nvm liao. Evelyn says this is above ground relationship. No longer underground.

He hold my hand in front of ZY on purpose lorhs when i kept reminding him “THIS IS AN UNDERGROUND RELATIONSHIP, WE CANNOT HOLD HANDS“. On another side, ZY was guessing if we are together. Lols. Oh well. This is my silly bf lorhhs. So no more underground. It’s OPEN relationship now. Lols. And not only Rebecca says he looks like him, even Bear says he look like him as well. Oh well. And that stupid Bear has got a gf, never share the good news! Congrats!

Everyone has to make decision everyday. And i have to make one once in awhile. Haha. Oh well. I am hoping that the following decision will not fail on me.

3 days ago, i made a decision that concerns me and Nic. Yeah, he asked me to be his girlfriend. In which, i agreed. Looking at him, reminds me so much of him, and i know if i can’t let the past behind me i’ll be doing a bad favor for the both of us. Because i wanna believe that he’s different. [Yeah, as if it’s gonna happen because all guys are the same! Bloody hell] And for the past 3 days that we are hanging out together, it’s still quite alright. i wasn’t ready to tell the whole world about this, because i’m still uncertain of this relationship. Some people might be surprised, some might not. After all, we are talking about a 22 years old NSF with a 23 years old, old woman. Been to his house, and his parents are very pleasant. Kind folks. However, i’m still very uncertain about this whole thing. I wanted to keep it unknown to the rest, but it seems like . . . . perhaps the whole world has already know about this. Maybe it’s just some assurance thing to people that ‘WE ARE TOGETHER‘. Haha. And no doubt, he’s my very nice ah sum boyfriend for now. =] And we took neoprint today! How cool is that?

I went to watch “Red Cliff” with my younger sister, Evelyn, her friend and Nic on Friday. And the story is not so bad. Except when the part says “to be continue…”. Other than that, the movie is fantastic. Although i heard that in the actual story, Zhu Ge Liang isn’t supposed to be some handsome guy, but they ought to have hunks and babes to be in this movie, except for some artise that we ain’t familiar with, so that people like us will watch it. And seriously, I don’t see anything in Lin Chi Ling, who was supposed to be Taiwan’s supermodel. Except for the fact that, she’s a vase in the movie. And i don’t really think she’s a vase vase. You get what i mean? I am trying to say, she’s not that very pretty except for the fact that maybe she got great legs and body? hmmm. Perhaps you might think that I’m a girl, so i won’t like her and stuffs like that… But seriously, what attract guys are normally the look and figure of a woman. =| After the movie, we went to BQ to have supper before heading home. Life is good. =]

Hoho! Another blockbuster movie this week. Watched the “Dark Knight” with Nic and his friends at JP today. Have asked Evelyn and Kerine along but they are unable to make it, and i’m ‘desperate’ to watch it. Whatever. lols. The movie is great. Specially the person who act as Joker in the movie. I must say he really has got the talent. Talented people doesn’t get to live too long i supposed. I heard that he passed away early Jan this year due to overdose of drugs, or was it misuse of drugs? Not sure about this part though. You tell me? And i love the explosions in the movie! =| And guess what? I bumped into Rebecca and her bf at JP. Watching the same movie, however, we are in different theater. And what great mind thinks alike, she thought that Nic does look like him. Hmmm.. Time to sleep! Before anything more gets into my hollow mind.

I’m sooo happy now! Because i passed that so easy BTT (Basic Theory Test) and i have just booked my FTT (Final Theory Test) on the 10th September and i’m waiting for month end to come because i’m now too broke to go for my practical lesson despite the fact i passed my BTT and have applied the PDL (Provisional Driving License) on the day i passed my BTT. I have confidence in me. Being confidence means i can pass my BTT without any effort, but i have to study hard for my FTT since everyone says this is the tough one. =] So i will use these less than 2 months to finish my practice and evaulation for my FTT and book for my TP ASAP! Think too much. The practical cost itself can kill me. But i think it’s gonna worth it if i pass the first time. = Think too much? Hohos.

And things that are happening now, keeps me very happy. lol

Marie Digby – Traffic

This is the third time this week
that i find myself wandering down your street
and i can’t seem to give it up
i’ve even stopped making these excuses
for why you’re stuck here in my thoughts
when it’s been long enough
and i try to keep myself moving
but i’m not getting anywhere

i wait in the same spot
brain like a parking lot
you’re the traffic in my head
you’re the reason that i’m wrecked
i pray for it to stop
like rain on the sidewalk
the traffic in my head, you’re the traffic in my head
there’s just too much to forget

guess i should be happy now
everything is back to how it was
before you came around
i’m already changing
and i’ve even tried
to find a new distraction
but still you surround
as if it’s not hard enough
and i try to keep myself moving
but i’m not getting anywhere

i wait in the same spot
brain like a parking lot
you’re the traffic in my head
you’re the reason that i’m wrecked
i pray for it to stop
like rain on the sidewalk
the traffic in my head, you’re the traffic in my head
a part of me thinks that i’m going crazy

the world’s spinning, my vision is hazy
and none of this makes any sense
i never meant for this to end
i can do what i have to do
if i could only get around you…

Why do i care about him deleting me in facebook?

Because i m bothered by the fact that he treat me like shit.

Wish me luck people.

though BTT is easy. But i need to be kiasu a bit. LOL.

Wanna know how cute the guy is to me?

When he says he want me to fall in love with him again.

If i have never love him before, how am i going to love him again?