i missed him. and i missed him a lot out of the blue. i wondered if i should just give him a msg. but my brain told me not to though my heart wants to. though he said nasty things to me, wanting me to back off… a part of me still – stays at where i used to be… sometimes i wished he would call me or sms me, but a part of me knows very well that it would never happen. my sister say i was on drugs that’s why i am thinking of him, and partly because she didn’t go out with me. oh well.. i misses him so much because we haven’t meet for 3 weeks and he’s ignoring me. that makes me upset. i tried my best not to blog my feelings about this, but i just can’t help it. i wished. i hope. no, i can’t wish or hope. i need to get back to reality. why can’t he realize that i do and really love him lots? but i’m giving him the ‘space’ he wants. i stopped contacting him. sometimes i feel like crying because i misses him so much. but he will just tell me ‘no’. he doesn’t wanna talk to me, because we got nothing to talk about, and he would assume that i will talk about our relationship. can someone help me with this? Gosh, i am drowning in this. =[

Went to watch “Enchanted” with Kane. The movie is rather funny, but too fairytale. aawww. If given the chance, would you wanna live in fairytale world or reality? I would choose fairytales. ok, this proves that i have no childhood. Mama doesn’t read bedtime story to me or buy me fairytale storybooks. I don’t even have barbie dolls to play with! humph. the movie was like a combination of different fairytales and this is the result -> Enchanted. It feels like i’m watching “Snow white and the seven drawfs” and then suddenly “Cinderella”. LoL. anyhows, the night out with him is purely L-A-M-E. we walked from The Cathay -> Selegie -> Bugis. Alright, that wasn’t our plan. But, yeah. Crapping around as usual, and he say i was irritating. LOL. oh well. what to do? after the show, i managed to catch the last bus home. But, i was really shocked to know he’s OLDER than me because the people he hanged out with was YOUNGER than him. LoL. i have this impression that he might wanna know KERINE too. =]

how does it feels like going to go the toilet for at least 6 times a day? Gosh, it feels like i m going FLAT. i wondered how come my stomach has so much to give out. Ha. damn chiam. when i looked at the previous med, it’s was exactly 26th that i went to the doc for the same problem. So what now? I’m going to have the same problem every 26th of the month? Someone PLEASE save me!!!

went to MOS on Saturday. yes, again. this time round with Peili, Lao Pa, Kuan Chong, his gf and 2 other friends. and of cos, i must admit that i DON’T LIKE kuan chong‘s guy fren. Because:

1) He HIT my head so hard. it just makes me DON’T LIKE him
2) He pinched me. i don’t know i know him well enough that he can pinch me.

alright. he tried to apologized, but still. don’t like means don’t like. And, i think that the guys who actually grabbed me was a little too despo. Perhaps, was very despo. and we are trying to get rid of some irritating guys, but they just keep coming back. and i believe, Peili was high. i kept dragging her, she kept going back. =.= anyhows, i do enjoy myself. and gotta know 2 more new friends. oh yes, it’s so fun la! i love rock & roll!

Say Hi to my new baby. Nokia 6500 Slide. I went to get my new phone today. Because i thought the promotion end today, but the promotion is only for people who goes to Ngee Ann City. Nevermind, I upgraded my hp plan to iTwo Plus, means i got 700 minutes talk time, and free incoming call all day and still 500 free sms. =_= so i only need to pay $48 for this phone. and i thought my phone was spoiled because it couldn’t detect the 1GB memory card. =X paranoid. lol. oh well, i have to explore my hp and, i seriously think it’s a beauty. =D and i passed my N73 to my little sister. Hope that will make her a little happier since it’s A LOT BETTER than her previous old school hp. LOL.

i’m the spoke person for Nokia. But, i m not paid to do so. =[

taking pictures in toilet is a MUST. lol

Went to MOS with Valerie on Friday. Just went there for some fun since she has got membership and i can go in for free. LOL. we went in to Pure Room to take pictures before heading to R&B, Smoove, for some action. It’s so crowded there till we have got nowhere to stay. and people just keep coming in. =[ and we stand on the Platform to avoid the crowd and there is this girl who got herself damn high, was dancing so aggressively till she kept knocking onto us. =[ and then she finally went down. and we have some space for ourselves until some guys came up too. After MOS we went to LUnar to look for her cousin. ok, that’s the kind of place i don’t really wanna go. and by the time i reached home, it’s 4a.m. and yes, i was late for work. =[

sushi!

present from lao pa. he came down specially to pass me the present. another cow year. =]

from Josephine. lucky she smsed me today. otherwise i won’t know i have been smsing the wrong number. =.=

from Shaiful and Pom. Something i want! Thanks dudes.

from darling & her bf. =D

i was waiting for the whole day for his sms to wish me “Happy Birthday”. but, that’s not gonna happen because my birthday is over now. looks like he has totally forgotten about me. right. i should have done so. but, i was still looking forward to spend my birthday with him. sometimes i wished he would give me a little attention but, it just pisses me off when he kept saying “bye bye bye” to me. no point talking about it because thinking of it makes me sad. really. be strong babe.

a lot people wishes me”Happy Birthday” today. unexpected people. ahaha. oh well. that makes me happier. i found 3 packets of oreo cookie, 2 packets of green tea, 2 kokocrunch on my table as well as in my bag. LOL. i wondered who put it on my table. hmmm… and i received vitagen from ah tui. LOL. and i received flowers from Priscilla and Aunty Dorcas. =] Shall post up more pictures tml. because i forget to take a pic of my flowers. =[

It’s my birthday today! and i’m so happy. because i spend the 1st minute in my workplace; helping out out with the decorations for Christmas. LOL. it’s well spent huh? And i was surprised when Jasmine played on Keyboard “Happy birthday” song for me. I’m so touched can? 1st time ever. Hahaha. I didn’t even realised she went to on the Keyboard power. hmmm. anyways, i’m so happy. As usual, Hunnie called me. and sang me a “Happy Birthday” (that i’m born in a zoo) song. LOL. lame. and of cos, that Stanley Poh… he just has to add in the “aunty” word while wishing me “Happy Birthday”… =.= and Sze Tien smsed me “Happy Birthday”. =D It really makes me happy. I was looking forward to spend my birthday with someone special, but i guess that “someone special” just has to make me disappointed. but it’s ok, because… he’s not the only person who can make me happy. I just, hate him too much. that i don’t even wanna remain friend with him. Really. So determined. =D please feel happy for me yeh? HAhaha. lame. and i had A PACKET OF OREO COOKIE, A PACKET OF GREEN TEA and ONE SMALL BOX OF KOKOCRUNCH popping on my table today. Isn’t it WEIRD? suspicious. hmmm… alright, i need to head to bed soon. it’s getting LATE. gosh. Nitey world.

the new “terrorist” is in BMI! gosh. beware of her, otherwise the next one to die will be you.