fuck breakfast. i aint gonna have any breakfast anymore. i went to the bloody toilet for more than 3 times. had stomach ache the whole damn day ever since i had hotcakes this morning. damn it. i hate stomach ache. i damn hate it. and i hate myself too.

a student gave a mini mooncake! and it makes me damn happy.. realising mooncake festival is here, but i just dun feel the mooncake festival is going around. y?

baby rented a car. picked me up after work. went to slash‘s hse to pick him up. then we went to Bukit Timah to have supper. Wanted to go Mustafa, but we ended up at East Coast Park. went home only at 2plus in the morning. damn tired.

when i woke up in the morning, i saw my dog resting on my tigger slipper and guurrr at my grandma. =.= what a stupid dog.
yup. this is what we call delicious. haha. Abigail has requested her friend to help her queue for the Donut Factory‘s donut, and the aroma of the donuts filled up the air in BMI. and of cos, taking pictures of the delicious food is a MUST. haha. yummy. and see, how the girls are excited over it? you should know the power of having snacks. haha.

Went out with my mama, brothers and younger sister to Bukit Batok because mama wants to get a new hp and i wanna go n “kio sai”. hahaha. because i wanna get new hp too. =[ ok, i admit i always tempted to get new hp.. and my current hp i just got it last year lo. =X but i love n73 still.. i want to get the HTC touch phone.. because it’s damn cool.. and my hp can trade in for $300.. which i can’t bear to part… so i might as well wait for the price to drop and save money for that at the same time. so i told mama that i wanna get the hp when my brother’s hp plan finishes. as my bday present. LOL. that will be in november! and mama say ok. but i will have to pay the difference. i can wait. =] then i went to look for peili and her friends [at clementi Kbox] even though i didn’t have my dinner because i was running late to meet her.. had a fun time singing. gosh, i love singing… shall we go again? hahaha. then we went to the coffeeshop nearby to have some food before heading home. and i wanna make her my dinner kakis on friday. hee.

He’s the prisoner. in a basket. LOL.

The pirated sesame street. Look how ugly they are. Yucks. but they are stupid lah. and stupid things lidat are damn hilarious.

meet up with peili for dinner on friday.. was very angry with her because she made me go to Raffles Place and change venue to Harbourfront after waiting for her for about 10 mins. and i’m a sick person lo. but she bought me jelly beans. haha. walk around for a little while then peili went out for smoke and we sat there for almost 3 hours. -.- then we head to Boat Quay because Themis enlisting on saturday.. so it’s like a “farewell” for him.. then i went to look for baby….

went to watch “Permonition” with Sze tien.. i couldn’t suppress my sadness.. i just couldn’t.. maybe when i wake up for the next few days i wouldn’t feel so bad. don’t make me feel so sad.. i was having slight fever ytd when i went to consult a doc.. then i took med and feel slpy after all.. gosh… i wish you are here.

i was supposed to be happy. Supposed to be. i was happy that we are back together, i was happy when he bought me a little present which surprises me. i was happy spending time with him. so even though i’m sick, i will still meet him because i’m happy just to see him. but what makes me unhappy is that he’s not concern about me when i’m sick.. i’m just upset with this, othewise i am contented with everything else. simply because i thought love can change someone. i hate to say this.. he agreed to treat me better.. not that he’s not treating me good. but he can treat me better. i don’t wish to feel inferior to his friends. why can’t he show a little concern towards me? he made me feel worse… worse than just being sick.. when i told him i got fever, he said nothing, did nothing.. it feels like he has used lots of knives and pierced thru my heart, unknowingly or knowingly. all i hope is he care about me a little. i never wanna break up.. but i am too hurt by his coldness. will you PLEASE care about me? PLEASE?

Leave Out All The Rest

My fav song. Linkin Parks’ new album. =]

Lyrics
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taken my beating
I’ve shared what I made

I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
[Leave Out All the Rest lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com%5D

Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

i m so furious after waiting for a cab for more than an hour, trying to call a cab and the bloody cab didn’t come. f*ck. what’s wrong with these cabbys? and then there is korean guy ask me to call a cab for him, so i called for 2. only 1 came. i wanted to have that cab for myself. but that bloody cabby wants to choose to go hotel instead of going to jurong. i’m exploding. zzzzz. and i got a bf whom i don’t think he cares about me. because he knows i’m not feeling well, he didn’t ask at all. didn’t ask if i had dinner, didn’t ask if i m feeling better. no, nothing from him. perhaps i was too concern about him and this should stop. here i am, having slight fever, and bf at home – slpg. he didn’t offer to buy me dinner though i didn’t eat, because he was slpg half way. and i wanted him to accompany me. but? he went back to slp. but he don’t sound like he’s slpg. i think he’s busy playing games. i hate guys who play games and ignore me. i hate it. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Gosh, it really feels good to have a bedroom to myself. and i wondered when is it going to happen? i guess it never will. I spent a night at aunty dorcas house last night, had a room to myself (though it’s only for a night, i was thrilled when she say “come, this is your room.” LOL). then we went to her house to put down the stuffs and went to the coffee shop to have some food.. gosh.. i feel so full.. i watched tv with her and her husband, used my laptop to surf net, gosh.. the feeling is damn good lah. then today baby came down to office to meet me. i was surprised and happy to see him. then we went to lao pa sa to have dinner. and he sent me home because i need to pass my mum 1 stack of toto papers. =.= and then, my dad was like asking me to change $41 with a 4D paper.. he say he won that amount loh. =.= if i can’t collect money tml, i will feel cheated lah. LOL. i think i’m falling sick soon. having block nose and a little bit of running nose. gosh.. better slp early.. =]

Monday, 10.09.2007
was late for work and i forgotten to bring my pass out.. gosh.. that’s double of everything. =[ and Jordan was here. so my day isn’t bad at all. =] had to clear some things, and i’m really excited about staying overnight at aunty dorcas‘s house. hee. but Jordan left at 7p.m.. i have to finish my work fast so that i can meet amy at vivo as fast as possible so that she don’t have to wait for a long time for me to come. the suspension of the movie is not bad, however… they end the movie in a bad way.. oh well… we were sitting at the 2nd row from the front, so we just swop our seats to other alphabets. LOL. and then once the movie ends, we ran out of the theater and went to the washroom and ran ALL THE WAY TO THE MRT station. gosh, we were so tired. LOL. and we managed to get the last train. phew. alright. it’s time for me to shower and slp! nitey

Saturday, 08.09.2007

Met up with hunnie & Lipeng. Hitch a ride from baby.. after some quarrel… we are back together again.. however, Terms and Conditions applies. I hate to say this but if this relationship doesn’t work out in a month’s time, den it would be better for me to leave than keep getting myself hurt. i need assurance baby… i really need it. use your actions and show it to me. how can i be assured if you continue to treat me coldly? can’t you understand my hearT? i don’t want it to be back to square one. then we went to JE to pick the girls up and head to different places. we went to MOS and he went to a live band pub at lavender. i was traumatized by the events that happened in the club. 1st it was the transsexuals that we saw in the toilet that made us almost puke.. then, it was a guy trying to be funny.. then, it was another guy who grabbed me real hard and asked if i have got skill.. and i’m still puzzled by it. it bothers me. and i wanted to say “SI BOTAK”. *fen nuu* and then lastly, it was the same group of guys trying to surround us.. and we managed to get away from them. yucks. i haven’t been clubbing for a long time. and the door bitach actually asked me if i have borrowed someone my i/c… =.=||| but wat makes me happy was baby bought me a necklace and a pair of earrings. =] that makes me a happy woman after the whole thing. yup. and i love the necklace so much… *muacks*