aiyo, fengyun, how many times must i tell you once you break up from a relationship, you must learn to accept it! why are you still persistant to know if he still loves you? does it matters now? if he loves you; really loves you, would he mention break up in the first place when he’s angry? that’s if he really loves you. now that he mentioned break up, it means that he no longer loves you.. or perhaps he has changed of heart? you should have notice the change long time ago. or you have noticed it long time ago? he’s a changed person now. if you realised, maybe long time ago he stopped loving you and he was only using this as an excuse to break up? you will never know. anyways, there are alot of guys out there what. why? scare you can’t get a bf meh? even if you can’t get a bf it’s ok what, you still have your friends around. maybe you were too giving in this relationship, that’s why this relationship doesn’t work out. in the past you were stubborn, now you are giving. either way, your relationship doesn’t last at all. you and him are not meant to be. i think i have told you maybe a thousand times. wake up from your idea ok? see this is what happens when you tries HARD. be smarter the next time so you wouldn’t get hurt alright? it hurts to see you cry so much.

Judge: You have been given a death sentence.

Me: WHY?!

Judge: The charges are: Failed to report to bf your whereabout and who are you are out with.

Me: But I’m still trying hard. I did told him i’m going to eat. Ok, maybe i missed out the “out” after the going. But still, it’s not a big deal. I’m having supper with the same person and nearby!

Judge: It doesn’t matter. As long as you failed to report, you are being charge of the guilt.

Me: But giving me death sentence is being unfair to me!

Judge: You asked for it. Your bf has warned you many times.

Me: But i’m trying hard! Why can’t he give me more time?

Judge: He doesn’t wanna give you time anymore. The sentence takes effect from today.

he cares! =D

i guess, we are running out of love. we started so fast, now we have got nothing left. do we still have the love from the beginning? i could sense it flowing away; away from us.

i guess, we are running out of patience. we were too patience from the beginning, now we left with zero patience. time has sucked all the patience away from us.

i guess, we have personality crash. we are two stubborn people together. but i don’t want to be the only one giving in to you. can’t you just give in to me? sometimes, the actions u did to me, really hurts me deeply; without you realising.

i guess, we have nothing left to say but angry words. my angry words, his angry words. this is never gonna end. i know. i just knew it.

i guess, we are running out of time. thus this is the end of our love story? it takes 2 hands to clap. i don’t wanna be in this relationship alone. where are u? i don’t see you anywhere anymore. i do not want a prolong relationship that leds us to nowhere. both of us need a direction to somewhere. i was hoping that you will be my direction, someone whom i can follow forever. but somehow, i guess this decision made was wrong. we are not meant to be. [if we are meant to be, God tell me. or YOU tell me?]

if i can’t use my blog to vent out my anger. den what’s the point of my blog?

+ Bf throws his temper back at you when you threw your temper at him for not meeting you when you have waited for him the whole darn day JUST BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING OUTSIDE [waited for him to wake up from his sleep, wait for him to finish his dinner]

+ He said you are just PMS-ing (well maybe that’s true, but still. I’M A GIRL.)

+ Then he would give you the same attitude you gave him the night

+ He just won’t coax you at all

+ Then when you told him that you had a bad night last night, he would apologised and then when you say something more, he would then say “I say sorry loh. Den what you want me to do?” this kind of suck up attitude.

+ Then when you typed [GO AWAY] in your MSN personal message, he typed [fuck you! Get Lost!]. what was your reaction?

+ Then he would say “we meet more than last time already what.. why complain? it’s not i run away” [perhaps you wont run, but i will be the one doing that]

i simply hated this relationship. and i don’t know why i’m still in it. i don’t feel myself being treasured by him. I DON’T AT ALL. when i told him about this, he would always say ‘didn’t my actions proved my love for you?’. but i just don’t feel it anymore. i just don’t.

what am i doing?

suddenly i have this pissed off feeling.

just go away everyone.

i need to slp.

Whose action does this picture reminds you of?

A familiar action from the very someone whom we are always talking about.

A familiar someone of a higher position.

shouldn’t make it too obvious. =X

and yes, only the BMI-ers will know. =]

*** picture contribution goes to Abigail. =] Thanks for posing. LOL

Went to meet hunnie for dinner and then qing ren (peili) for some kbox session. ok, after all these, i’m broke! hooray! =] we went to Lerk Thai to have dinner, and they are having this dinner “eat-all-you-can-buffet” dinner.. thus, me & hunnie ordered that. even though everything is small portion, but we didn’t managed to finish it because there are food i don’t eat after all. =X and when the food came, it filled up the whole table, literally. then we went to Marina Sq to have our kbox session. [we almost end up in MOS alright]… Lawerence tot we are supposed to go see penguins ytd (saturday)! omg. =[ thus, i m at home now.. doing nothing.. because noone ask me out! gosh.

this is our dinner. =X

us at Lerk Thai

This is what we cal multi tasking – singing, smsing, posing at the same time. =]

me & lover

these are my woman. HAHA

what she is doing? =.=