my tears flow doesn’t mean i m upset. but im disappointed.
i cried doesn’t mean i m upset but because my heart has been broken into pieces.
if time can really go back, i will not make the same mistake again.
can u imagine your bf call you 1a.m in the middle of the night for only god knows what reason, and you are feeling damn tired after a day of tedious work and you off all your handphones because you feel so paranoid. the next day when you wake up, on your handphones, just to see your bf says “break up” because you rejected his call and switch off your hp. how do you feel? shocked and at the same time, you tried to explain to him that you are tired and was sleeping, he thinks that you are just finding excuses for yourself. then you realised, your bf has never trust you. Just like some times you slept late at night and when there are days whereby you went to bed early, and you told your bf about it, he thinks you are lying. because he claims that he knows what time u went to bed every night. then when you tried to talk to him, he said he wants to take his afternoon nap. so when you have a bf who rather takes an afternoon than talking to you, how do you feel at this very moment? do you rather he don’t pick up your calls at all? then, he don’t reply you for an hr or two when you asked him if he’s serious about breaking up, how do you feel? after that he replies you, tries to argue with you things regarding, you did not sms him 1st when he did not sms you for a long time and stuffs like that. after that, he said he doesn’t wanna quarrel about this like a small kid, so you brought out the very 1st question that you asked him which he did not reply. in return, he asked you how much you love him and how much are you willing to sacfices for him and are you willing to change. relationship, it’s about giving and taking. my commitment to him is: my love, my time, my care. anything he needs, but sex. but it seems like this ans is not satisfying enough. and when you asked him that qns once again, he said he was angry and not upset. that was why he said break up. but still, you find that he did not really ans your qns. so you asked him another qns, is he that kind of person who mentions break up easily when he’s angry and that the relationship we have is not important at all. he stops replying you. because you have lots of things to do, so you did not msg him as well. once you reached home after having some mcdonald ice cream, you feel better. and den you smsed him if he wants to talk to you. he gave you a reply “ok loh”. you feel that he doesn’t really wanna talk. but then he re-assure you that he’s willing to talk peacefully. and you guys talked. so you brought up why he did not reply your last sms regarding ‘is he that kind of person who mentions break up easily when he’s angry and that the relationship we have is not important at all‘. he said he don’t know what to reply so he stopped replying. when he said “do you think you will ignore me when i say break up. i’ll wait for you to change but i will not be as patience as i used to be”… how do you feel? will your heart break into a million pieces? i guess, everything will be over soon.
Listen to my heart beat 