No doubt.
Judging from my character, you know what I am going to say. I regretted. But, I shall look forward and never look back. I can’t ‘undo‘ delete can I?
I was crying alone at one corner hoping noone will notice and good enough, no one did.
You must be wondering what have I done that makes me so sad? Read on.
I deleted TY from my FB, MSN and HP contacts. Don’t ask me WHY. I just did it after he told me:
“I don’t know if I am going out with my friend, or going for Malaysia trip or NDP trip on Saturday. If not I can acc you. And if my parents are not singing on Sunday, then I am free.”
That was his plans after forcing me go choose this Saturday (when I gave him a choice to choose either this weekend or next weekend) after my work to go Science Center. Oh well. This reminds me so much of that someone I loath the most when it comes to date him out. I hate it. Really. It was supposed to be a simple question: “Will you be going out with me?”, the latter must think about whether his friends will ask him out, if not then he will decide to meet me. Else, if he decided to go out with friends at the very last minute, very often he said: “I don’t believe you can’t find anyone to go out with.”. When I tried to date him for his birthday, he would say:”See how first, maybe I will date XXX out.” Ok, fine. I mean, you could have told me directly, “Going out with you is really boring.” and then I will stop!
Another loathsome thing is that, I love mango with sago from Ji De Chi (Jurong Point) and most of the time I will visit that place for dessert after my meals. TY would always comment that the dessert there sucks, and I should try the one in H.K. Ok, FINE, I will migrate to H.K tomorrow just for the mango with sago. He would comment about what is so bad about me, but never the good things. Did he noticed who told him the GREAT DEAL at Jurong SAFRA Kbox? If it’s not for me, could he enjoy the $10 nett singing session? No, I doubt so. So after that, his friends flock all the from the east to Jurong SAFRA to enjoy the $10 nett KBOX. Wooohoooo!
I am feeling so tiny on this planet sometimes, I even doubted my existence. Really. People don’t notice me. When something happens, I became from bad to worse. He’s right, I can’t treat him the way I treat that man. That’s because I have had enough of the lies told by the men. Enough. What do you mean by, “even if we love each other, it doesn’t mean that we have to be together”? I love you, I like you, I WANT TO BE WITH YOU! This is such a simple matter, but I waited or he claimed he waited for me for 9 months?
If you asked me, I will tell you directly that “YES, I LIKE KTY.” But if you were to ask him, he probably will give you all sorts of answers like “Me like her? Cannot be lah”, or “she’s just my scandal you don’t know meh?”. I have NEVER like the word – S C A N D A L. I think it’s just a word used to insult my existence in this guy’s life. He told me that if this girl have known him earlier, most probably she would have fall in love with him. Great! He told me that in my house and I almost want to kick him out. I don’t need a cassanova in my life. I just need someone to love me.
I wish to delete him just like I deleted Nicholas or even that man. But I know it will take me some time to get over it. Even though I was the one who did that. He said I am the most selfish person on earth, because I did not take his feelings into consideration with all the things I did. I tried, but I realized, I don’t know this man anymore. He doesn’t want to give me the thing I desire, but he’s asking more from me. How is it fair? Not fair. It’s never fair. I tried to give in, be the girl he likes, but I aint big boobs hot babes.
Listen to my heart beat 