i’m out of my mind. everyday i’m fearing that someone might login my frenster and start deleting my little booboo’s pic.. i’m upset.. sigh.. i need slp so much.. gd nite

i need a life. whenever i felt that someone is happy, and i think about it den i realised.. my life is totally in a mess. i have stopped believing in fairy tales when i feel the urge to grow up fast. fairy tales about everlasting love is a bit bullshit to reality like these. like a girl running into another man’s arm when she has got a bf. like a guy breaking a girl’s heart and still say he loves her. like a someone in the relationship having an affair. like some people, happy get themselves married, next day unhappy they divorved. who knows? me? i am a bitch. i wish i am. i needed to cry.. i need booboo to cry on.. i need someone to lean on and not someone to stick to me like a glue not knowing what i’m thinking about. My thoughts. i tried to think of other as well. but still, everything turns out the same. i need to occupy myself with things so that my thoughts wouldn’t wander back into the past and keep pondering about it. i need a break. out of singapore. to somewhere where i can relax myself.. i feel like i have made a few grave mistakes that i can’t take it back once they are done. life is a bitch.

there isn’t anything that will spice up my life recently but anger. i can’t bring myself to trust just any other guys anymore. or perhaps trust will take place after a very long period of time. i was almost going to explode. Almost. i controlled myself from exploding and the worse part is i realli seriously hate it when people invaded my stuffs. i’m so screwed up. sigh. i need to forget everything that has happened so i can move on.. i’m still considering about duckie‘s qns about being his gf… i’m not sure.. i have no idea wat i reali want as well. we shall not rush into any conclusion yet.

went out with my gf ytd. had a nice time talking to her.. taking pics of us. here are some pics. =) she wants to try the new menu food so we had it at clarke quay’s TCC and after that we went to have some ice cream! muahaha. and gf bought me a bracelet. how nice of her. it’s pink and with crystal kind of heart shape. =) pretty.

me & gf at clarke quay~

well, it’s US again. =P

Our desserts. =) YummY~

because of this pic, i heard some ang moh laughing at me. i have to acc my ancestor for dinner what to do? =]

Worked 7am today. i barely have any sleep and i have to wake up again.. worked opening with tim. it’s fine i guess. Keep repeating “to the airport! *some flying sound* airport!, are u sure?, don’t worry. there’s no sugar.”.. if u are unsure what i’m talking abt. it’s the pepsi max commercial. i like it so much. =) anyways, i’m the cashier today. no short of cash blah.. was a bit too blind to see isaac‘s 1 & 2.. but everything is alright. almost key in the wrong amt for the credit card bcos i feel discomfort ppl standing besides me. but lucky for me. =) now, i have an imp task to do for wati. and that is to collect moneY! haha. we are having BBQ on the 30th of april and me & suzy is the financial controller. alright, which means i have to chase after ppl for money. =P after work, i meet duckie.. and the meeting was unpleasant one until i reached his hse and play with ger ger. =] when i’m feeling so vexed, he come and ask me 2 qns which i dun rem bcos of his “that day”. but whatever, i aint gonna let this matter haunt me. and i need some rest as well.. i feel very tired after working.. and i’m considering if i shd convert to a full time in TCC.

it’s sad to know that amin is no longer with us. he’s transferred to cineleisure.. i felt very upset actually. after all, he’s my fav manager. someone whom i can insult and he in return insult me back. now, i have less 1 person in RX to crap with. and this makes me miss those who had left earlier on.. i missed gf‘s strangle. i missed abd‘s repeating of the same song. i missed tong lei‘s crapping. it feels sad to see people leave.. it makes me feel upset.. i tot it was some kind of belated april fool’s joke.. but it isn’t.. upset. how i wish some things will remain the same. and it will never change. but even things remains the same and human changes.. i rather the things change. there goes amin. and here stays pat.

was supposed to go sis carol’s hse for baby shower today.. but i woke up at 3plus instead.. damn.. and so i watched movie today. “Firewall“. it’s cool. the story’s not bad. the 2nd movie of the week showing how to rob a bank. haha. the first was the “Inside Man” den now came “Firewall“. but the coolest of all was the “Inside Man“.. yup. that’s what i think. had a little dispute with duckie though. about me asking “u very religious meh?” (that qns is in chinese), and he wasn’t happy abt me asking that. not that i disrespect his religion. i ask bcos some people doesn’t really follow what their religion wants them to. restrictions. and i didn’t force him to eat beef bcos i wanna eat b.k. .. i merely say “aiyah, eat only mah”.. that doesnt mean that i want him to eat beef what. and he was very unhappy abt it.. ok.. maybe i shd just keep my big mouth shut so i wouldn’t offend him anymore.. den he ask me why i didn’t talk to him blah.. sometimes i’m a bit paranoid. den he told me about his instinct that he will come and quarrel with me. the point is, me & him has got nothing to quarrel about anymore. he has already stop wanting that da vinci code book back which is good. i can take my own sweet time reading plus that book is at my sis’s workplace now. not that duckie is not good enough. i feel that my mouth is not good enough.. i’m too straight forward. the next time i wanna talk, maybe i will think carefully before i say anything that hurts people. and i’m not his gf still. and my chest is very pain now.. has been taking a lot of very deep breathe. am i dying soon?

it’s public holiday todaY! haha.. and it was raining so heavily until i didn’t wanna get out of my bed despite i’m suppose to meet duckie at 3pm today. so i reach town ard 5.50pm instead. and den we went to Thai Express to have dinner and made a membership card. =P den we went to walk ard before our movie starts at 9.35pm.. i bought a slipper which made both of my feets swollen.. LOL.. oh well.. i rather wear that heels. duh.. but it’s okie.. went to watch “Lead the way” today.. oh man, it’s beautiful~ the dancing is beautiful.. the people are funny and show is meaningful. a little respect is what u need. when a guy leads the way, the girl has the opinion whether to follow or not.. in this case.. i follow. =) i wanna give all my best to everything.. i wanna show to people that actually im capable too.. =] when i get a little praise, i will work even more harder. =)

ok, today i went to play the reverse bungy thingy with tim & sue. OMG!!! it’s so damn shioK! muahahaha.. i wanna play again! i wouldn’t mind if i got more money.. but the bungy costed $25 (with student card) or $35 (without student card).. and den we got the video of us (tat’s me & sue shouting while tim is laughing.. LOL).. omg.. and the bungy thingy is in my mind until now.. and just now i feel like i’m flying off even though the belt is VERY TIGHT. muahaha.. shioK! den tong lei come to meet us for dinner. we had dinner at TCC.. was very unhappy with nana‘s behaviour. but i don’t wanna mention anythng more bcos it’s not our fault. and i can’t believe that she-who-shall-not-be-named actually told wati that me & sue are actually getting close to her.. duh. we had dinner at TCC and den me & sue share chix wings and tong lei had oven baked marinated chix. den we went to esplanade there to have cakes at baker’s inn. the cakes is nice but the drink suck. so we feedback to the manager abt the drinks and we were given 10% discount. lol. den after that we went back home. had such a pleasant daY! =] makes me feel so happy.. muahaha.

Today, i did hosting for lunch time. and it was my FIRST time doing that.. i was actually very nervous. hehe.. i was hoping i did a gd if not great job.. i asked sue & erin they say i’m good.

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
how do u find my hosting today

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I think you did an extremely good job

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I thought of doing a briefing after lunch and congratulate u on job well done in front of all the staff, like I did to suzy yesterday for her effort at hosting

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
but something happened btw me and Amin.

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
so I cancelled the briefing

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
ahh

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
sorry, but honestly you did a great job for a first timer

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
it’s ok

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
i just wanna as ur opinion if i have done my hosting well today

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
you have done a good job. Only need a bit more consistency… meaning this effort that you showed today, I hope it will continue on days to come when you do hosting ok my dear?

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
huh

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
hah

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
i dun wanna do anymore hosting lah

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
weiiii

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
you ha

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
actually i’m nervous today leh

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
cos i scare

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I know.. can see

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I have faith in you

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
When suze did hosting yesterday, I was nervous

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
because she has gt language problem.

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
so I was guiding her

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
but you… you dun need any guidance. you can do a great job without me guiding you

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
and it’s ur first time

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
it’s a great job

sometimes it feels good to have ppl praising u.. esp, when ppl praise me for the 1st time that i did a good job.. =] i have a sense of accomplishment. =) hehe.

hey, stop coming to my blog and write stuffs that is NOT truth alright? who horny with u? ur rabbit or snoopy? u r just a very sticky person and i didn’t even wanna touch u.. dun make urself sound so noble and if u r loaded and wanna lend ur fren that book, go n BUY IT URSELF. ur have a lot of money go club and dun have money to buy that book? dun make me laugh and that book cost less than $30. and i simply dun have time for ppl like u.. want me to meet u to pass u that book so u will return me in JUNE? dream on.. insisted that i’m liar and i tell lies still want me to pass u the book like a good girl who will listen to u, JUST BCOS U ASK ME NICELY and what happen to me when u talk to me in a crude way and i still talk to u in a nice way? u fucked me? that book was bought by a liar to u man. why claimed the book is urs when ur fren needs it and when it was lying ard ur room? ha. and that’s NONE OF MY BUSINESS. stop asking for the book like a sissy and if u try to threaten me, i dunno what i will do to that book. i might tear it or throw it away or give it to other ppl. dun try me. i’m not that person u used to know. i WUN do anything to pleases u and get shit back.

i feel i m sick of life already. and i’m sick of humans too. the person i’m sick of the most is that whoever. =[ he keep saying i’m devil and den he keep saying i’m liar.. tell me.. what’s wrong with them? and even nana at work ignores me just bcos i told her it’s too early to pledge table at 7.50pm cos i pledge table at 8.30-9pm.. den she was like “den u pledge and do setting urself”… i was like.. a bit offended by this.. and the reason i didn’t wanna pledge that early was bcos after i pledge, it’s full hse again.. it feels like i have to do double job to pledge the tables again.. and after that she didn’t talk to me at all.. nvm.. and the worse part is she told kitchen that she didn’t dare to ask earlier bcos she scare ppl say she’s kiasu and i just walk past her and i’m offended by this.. and den at abt 9.20, she tell every customer that we are closing in 5 mins.. i know she wants to go home early but it was so wrong.. and i didn’t dare to tell her.. sigh.. tell me, am i suppose to remain happy in RX? but i’m excited about playing the reverse bunggy tml.. =] shd go and relax myself and SCREAM!!!! hahah.