Thursday, work was pretty okie. worked lunch and OT until 10pm. lol. lucky i’m doing closing with Amin not that bitch. as usual, i’m doing service.. and sometimes i find it too boring.. but still i have to do my work well.. as usual, bitch is the host.. wati is the barista for lunch.. when will i ever be ready to be host for lunch? suzy was doing OT for ytd as well.. sue was doing closing for bar.. when tim was about to leave the outlet, there was a group of 8 china people came in.. gradually, there was 31 of them.. and it was FULL HOUSE ytd. cool eh? this was the very 1st time in my 5 mths working in RX that it’s FULL HOUSE at NITE. hahaha. cool. but den these china people practically IGNORED me as if i dun exist.. damn.. i hate it whenever people ignore my pressence. perhaps the next time i will “speak a bit louder” (in another word is SHOUT ) at them to let my pressence be known. =D Erin had to do OT to help us with the crowd.. it was sooo busy ytd.. but we did it anyways. we missed the target by only $7.. aaaawwww.. wasted rite? but it’s ok.. den duckie came to fetch me home… and i went online to chat with wati & gf. how i wish that bitch will be OUT of RX soon.. sigh..

ok, this is one artistic work by tong lei who tied our hair together to try. lol. we sticked together for about 3 mins showing everyone what we have done to ourselves and let everyone have a good laugh. and this shows how bored we really are. =)

Friday, went to work early cos i wanna have dinner before i start work. and i had tom yam fried fish.. yummy.. i like it.. seriously.. but it aint spicy. =X so i started work late.. awwww.. but 15 mins.. but it’s ok lah.. after work, me & mon cherie accompanied suzy smoking at the raffles place there. after that we bumped into sophia who told us about what that bitch has done. that bitch actually told tim about sophia complaining about sue being lazy and let sophia do everything. omg. and the worse part was, she even call mon cherie her sweetie. fu*k her. duh. me & tong lei was the one who came out with the mon cherie thingy.. duh. and the worse of all was, she even commented that I’M LAZY. lol. fu*k. i wished i could slap her. zzz. talking about her pissed me off. but still tim said, he will settle everything. it’s boss say now. things always got blew up bcos of that bitch. i am here feeling hopeless and there she is trying to destroy every good things we have. anyways, gf dropped by today to say hi to us. how nice. and we played and chat ard for awhile b4 she goes home. aaawww.. missed working with abd & gf seriously.. things are not the same w/o them. and things ARE that DIFFERENT bcos of that fu*king bitch. realized something. me & tong lei always echoe amin whenever he said “I like~”.. hahaha. =X that’s the fun of working in RX. sigh.. but things are bcuming so different now.. when will we have another outing W/O that bitch? i’m pinning on the sentosa trip. =) great.. doing opening with amin & 1 nite closing with him (hoooray) & another with that bitch (booo!!). never count on that bitch when she says she will help to sweep floor blah blah blah, bcos she will end up saying “oh sorry, i got paper work to do.” guess everyone knows her style of “helping”. =D

went to work today.. i did bar today.. wohoooo.. ahahaha. now my whole body is itchy again. sian.. am i allegy to my hse? lol.. i m less itchy outside.. when i’m at home, i’m damn itchy.. HELP!! went shopping with my sis today and i bought a handbag for $29.. billabong. haha. i feel like i have been wasting money sia.. sigh.. i wanna buy that 6111 leh.. it’s so cool and i keep seeing ppl using and it’s like “seducing” me. hahaha. *think too much* anyways, after that i went back home and watch “da chang jiN”.. not bad. today is the 2nd episode. and i can’t watch it tml cos i working until 10pm. and i can’t watch it on fri neither, i working until 10pm. lol. oh man. sadded. nvm lah.. sigh.. i’m still so itchy. wanted to go clubbing at MOS with gf but duckie like not happy about it.. sian.. so i din go loh.. sigh.. now i m at home wanted to fall aslp any moment. haha.. ITCHY ITCHY ITCHY!! someone PLS HELP ME!

this is my new chicken little toy!!! yay~~~ this toy can put photo but i aint got any so, i wanted to take out the photo thingy but wait till i m not lazy den i will i do it. =X we went to had sakae sushi for dinner and ok, spend $36.15 on that. den i bought a lip gloss cos my lips is very dry for $14.90 and den i walked past pepper plus and bought a shirt for $8 and den i went to cineleisure and there was this shirt that caught my attention and i bought it at $12. and den i bought a new wallet for $29 and paid for duckie’s card holder for $13.. count count spend about 100. and, i m still so fucking itchy all over my body. SOMEONE HELP ME PLS!!!! =X if this itchness doesnt go away, i dunno how am i going to go work. sigh.

this is my chicken little given by duckie. he bought in e-bay though.. =X cute isnt it? haha. anyways, went out with gf, fang chew & tze ling today to town. watched “underworld evolution”.. it’s damn cool.. lol.. werewolves & vampires.. no matter how u shoot them and they still wouldnt die? lol. cool cool. den we went to pizza hut eat and tze ling pay.. it’s rare. =) den after that we went to walk ard b4 going to swensens to have our dessert which is ice cream. me & gf wanted to treat fang chew or give him a surprise somehow bcos his bday is near but we duno how so we ended up doing nothing. but i pay for the ice cream & fries though. after that we headed home bcos i’m working OPENING tml. thanks. haha. k, gonna go bed now. cya dudes. =)

These are the pics i took on friday nite at the esplanade. it’s kinda cool, so i took it. =]
(this is my band. lol. cool heh?) (this reminds me that, i missed my flute!!!) (this reminds me of Ming Ge Can Ting) (drums remind me of wang li hong.. =X) (the piano reminds me of jay zhou. =X)

My little outing with yujie today. (pics are taken at Heeren)

i had a little outing with yujie today. havent been going out lately bcos both of us are busy with our own stuffs so finally he asked me to ‘plan’ the outing today. i thought monkey was talking about going out today and, yup, i messed up the dates that we are suppose to meet up.. aaawww.. but anyways, he accompanied me to TCC(RX) to get my pay today cos wati smsed me and informed me that pay’s in! haha. so i’m able to go out today. after i took my pay, we had our dunno whether it’s lunch or dinner at the outlet. we ordered mama mia (beef), linguine & of cos, me and my chix wings. hahaha. chit chat and he told me about the girl he like recently.. well, that a good news. lol. at least wun make me feel bad for talking to him so badly in the past when he liked me. glad that he knows he gave me a lot of stress during that period of time. =X and of cos when i’m stressed by both sides, i tended to say bad things and piss people off. hope he understand me.. and of cos during that period of time, i can’t bring myself to like him when he keep saying that yujie is the who broke up us. one way or another, i dun like to be so close with him anymore. but there was a period of time he blocked me in MSN too. lol. so we are quite fair now. when i asked him if he ever regretted liking me, he said in the past maybe (or did he say got abit? lol. can’t rem) but now, he dun think so. and it’s always feels great to find someone who appreciate u. sigh.. until now, i still don’t think anyone ever appreciate me.. i have no hard work at all? but it’s always cool to have yujie by my side as a fren though. =] knowing i can count on him on certain things, it really feels good. we went to watch a movie “Date Movie“.. it’s funny though.. and by the “Scary movie 4” is coming out in april! hahaha. we talked about r/s today.. sigh.. i’m a failure.. but den what can i say? but he’s still a good fren of mine. with him a little bit of ‘zhong se qing you’, i might bash him up one day. lol. it depends. =] bcos he finally found someone after me.. well, he deserve it anyways. why shd i ever take up ppl’s timE? and he refused to show me that ger’s face despite my guessing.. i don’t think that girl’s pic is in his hp. he lied? lol. he said he will show me after that girl decided to be his gf. great. which means i have to wait long. cos that girl also liked another guy. sigh. tough decision to make. but yujie had also promised to remain as her fren 1st while she make her decision. and he’s quite excited to meet up with that girl bcos she’s celebrating his 21st bday in adv. lol. anyways, both of us went to take a neoprint!! finally after saying for YEARS. lol. yup.. but i have no scanner, so i can’t show. =P but it’s ok though.. and den he went to work after that… we were talking about maybe after one big round den me & him suddenly in a r/s together. lol. gd imagination heh? lol. but i m not a hindrance for him to woo that girl! =] cool. when i asked him why he didnt woo me. he said he got the intention but didnt bcos i’m already very stressed. lol. if he woos me, that will add up my loads. thanks. lol. that’s cool. when i told him my prob with duckie, he said my temper was a bit too “hot” in another words, i’m hot temper and i tended to keep things.. sigh.. only sec sch frens knows me the best.. am i not right?

met up with duckie just now and he passed me my “chicken little” toy.. yay.. i’m supposed to be happy but i wasn’t really happy also. this shall be the VERY LAST chance i will give him. after some serious thoughts, i will nvr give him a fifth chance to break my heart while this forth chance is the last one and after that, i will nvr ever forgive him. i’m still in a very depress mood now.. nothing really can cheer me up.. sigh.. maybe i will be happier in my dream.. and sometimes the way he asked me qns, i feel like he’s treating me like a criminal.. i don’t feel that good also..

Little Moomooz.

why did i always allow myself to get hurt by duckie so many times? and sometimes when i looked back, even though he used to said many unpleasants things to me but he had nvr wanna break up with me bcos i m frustrated. when i happened to look back into the past, i realised i was very contented with the past things that i used to do with him.. and he had nvr lied to me.. and he always let me have the best of everything. that was past and it can never come back. he smsed me just now to tell me he saw christopher at Zouk today.. that’s cool.

today, duckie break up with me but den i asked him if that’s what he reali wants.. in another words, i asked him if our break up is being finalised. once our break up is finalised, whenever he said in the future, i wun give a damn anymore. not even bcos i love him. he said he wants to take it back. den it’s fine with me but den i’m not a toy man.. i have been feeling itchy since wed, and i get no help and now, i got a scar from scratching. thanks to me. i have been scratching too hard.. seriously, why do i have to put thru with these things? i dun understand myself.. break up & take back again.. i’m getting hurt.. sometimes i wished he can be decisive in some things.. allow him to keep hurting me.. i’m not a fool.. this shall be the LAST Time and i’m serious abt it.. i’m sure that i’m not that unpopular..

i went to gf‘s hse jus now cos i dun wish to go home early.. so i went to her hse to slack for awhile.. we were surfing net, chatting & sms-ing.. i didnt tell duckie until i walked from bren’s hse to somerset to take NR home… i’m so f**kup now.. the things that i kept inside my heart seems to get heavier each day.. i’m still so lost. when everyone is moving on, i’m still lagging behind. when can i ever return to my past glory, that is if i ever have. =( i’m still so upset.. perhaps.. whatever happened reali for a purpose.

Did closing for bar and without she-who-shall-not-be-name‘s interruption. thanks. and thank god for that. den i went to esplanade to meet gf & the rest and have some talk there… sigh..

signing off going to bed soon.. i’m still so upset.

was a min late for work today due to my overslept-ness. lol. have my break and eat tom yam ban mian and dirty my uniform bcos of the prawn. duh.. den after that i quickly rush to tcc training center at beach center bcos i dunno how to go there! hahaha. but lucky i’m clever lah.. duh.. sometimes i have to praise myself cos no one praise me. there i have tried 36 new beverages.. damn.. makes me wanna pee. lol. i definately dun like the ginger beverage.. lOL~ drank too much coffee today.. and i feel itchy all over my body. =X anyways, saw michael (a colleague from meritus mandarin hotel), he was working nearby at a viet resturant and ask me if i’m interested to work 11-3pm for lunch hrs.. i might if i cant find any admin job. lol. i just tot i saw someone very familiar but i couldnt rem.. now i do. lol. btw, i saw a bear which she-who–shall-not-be-named has on her bag.. the bear she own which was given by jiayong looks like the one i have lots that i have took it from meritus. lol. den duckie came to meet me after my training.. den took a train back home. din reali talk to him much though. ok.. tat’s all. hah.. nothing much actually.. dun even know what’s my purpose of writing. so that my memory will improve? duh. i miss my old life.

gf, be cool alright? forget about the guy after all u still have me, ur gf, wati & the rest of RX except the u-know-who. (i make her sound like harry potter’s voldemort.. evil ppl always die) and guess what? she wrote a note stating what tea dun order blah blah blah and at the end of the note she wrote, love u all, patricia.. tong lei(sharon) was like puking.. not only her.. but everyone. lol. oh man.. =] popular huh? lOL. mayb i shd take a pic of that for u to see. =X

ok. there was this girl who wears a very low V cut spag.. i saw her on the train.. she aint got any big boobs, but she wears that.. and she’s fat.. nvm.. her skirt is ugly bcos too many buttons on the side of the skirt.. her shoes are dirty but it’s pink with very eye catching shoe laces. the overall just suck. when i look at her side view, it was almost flat… =X not that i wanna say her, but she’s VERY daring.. lol.. and the worse part is she pinned up her hair at the back.. from the front view, u couldnt see that she pinned up.. but once she turn.. it reali turns me off.. lol.. duh.. nvm.. when a girl walked past me and i just told duckie, i dun like leg chain with too many bells.. he was like saying, it seems like every girl offended me today. i dun ever wanna talk to him again. whatever.

aaaaaahhhhh, i almost didnt wanna wake up for work today.. i was so f**king tired.. till i keep thinking today i start work at 2.30pm… wahahaha.. but the truth is, i start work at 12noon. see the difference? hahaha. trying to kid myself so i can get more sleep.. but i still wake up.. and prepare for work blah blah blah.. =X as usual, whenever that she-who-shall-not-be-named worked opening, she will put herself as cashier… lol. today lunch was so bz.. but my gf, bren, dropped by and pass us a box of chocolate!!! and den i went to eat tim‘s chicken rice bcos i was so hungry (bcos he say he couldnt finish it, so he can share with me..).. yummy~~ thank you tim!!(that’s what he wants me to say when i was eating his rice) =) and den i chat with erin blah blah blah… nana is going to quit soon.. after a mth.. that’s sad.. so many ppl is leaving.. sigh.. wat’s tcc gonna be in the future? but nvm abt that, like i said all good things must come to the end. =X who will be the next one quitting? mE? who knows? anyways, was suppose to meet darling today but she need to go bbdc so i meet up with gf after work instead. lol. we went to M.S’s food court to have our dinner den we went to TCC (MW) to slack.. =) cooL~ and we talk abt everything that happened to us… sometimes, i felt that a guy treat ger like an idiot.. i don’t know why i feel that way.. i have been feeling that way ever since.. but whatever to that whatever i’m talking about.. and 3 cheers to single life~ =)

well, this is my very cool boss in his army uniform! seg tim.
me & abd.. his last day (4th march 2006) at work.. and surprisingly, he didnt not bully me.. he’s nice guy lah.. except for the fact that he likes to bully me.. like tickle me, den strangle me or even touch my neck bcos it’s so sensitive?? lol..

Saturday, it was abd’s last day at work.. so i get to close bar but most of it sue helped me do.. and bren (my gf) came to drop by.. lol. abd was saying because it’s his last day at work, he wants to strangle me for 10 mins!! and of cos he din lah.. so after that me & gf went to have our dinner at meridian bcos i’m VERY HUNGRY!!! den we went to AT’s tcc to slack.. for the very first time i tried the chilli beef soup.. well, it’s nice.. and for the first time i ate the tiramisu~ hahaha.. den we chat & crap & bitch.. =) after that i meet duckie for movie.. we went to watch “Big Momma’s house 2”.. damn, it’s so funny that i couldnt help laughing loud & louder. den after that we went to take bus home already.. hahaha.. tired.. till i fast go bath den i go slp already..

to think abt it, nothing reali last forever.. all good things must come to an end.. the more we didnt want to, the more it will. after bren & abd has left the outlet.. things are a bit diff in a way.. no one’s there to strangle me anymore (bcos the both of them always does that!!!).. but still the outlet still have familiar faces that i will see everyday.. ppl whom i hang ard with, ppl whom i crapped with, ppl whom i hate most.. lol.. but still, life stll have to go on.. nothing has change much.. =) except gd staffs left and the lousy one remain (there is only 1).. well, at least there are ppl who cared abt me.. everyone asked me whether i m alright since that thurs when i cried at work, before work blah… wati even asked me if i cried bcos of personal things or bcos of work.. and erin was the clever one.. the first thing she asked me was, “how’s things btwn u & donald?”, “r u guys still together?”, “everyone knows abt it”.. well, i appreciate their concerns towards me.. reali.. even amin who always bully me ask if i’m alright.. that shows how concern and great colleagues i have in TCC. =) so today amin asked me how am i feeling.. =) that was like so cool? it’s more than words that i can say to them.. nothing but gratitude towards them.. =) for taking in my nonsense, rubbish and for teaching me bar blah blah blah.. really appreciate. =] i can’t bear to leave TCC, but still i know one day i will leave just like the rest of them. =X

Sunday, it was supposed to be a stay at home day.. but damn, something wrong with my sim card.. suddenly it was spoiled and i can’t use it anymore.. so i waited for duckie to finish work so he will acc me to get the sim card replaced.. and suay enough.. i need my dad’s I/C bcos the line is under his name. =.= so i have no choice and i throw temper at him.. i am so suay.. when i was eating, my gum is so damn fucking pain.. den i went to his hse to get his another line’s sim card to use.. it’s so inconvenient.. but i get to play with his dog! hahaha.. den he acc me home.. den he left for aust…

Monday, damn.. i forget to time out last sat so i have worked for more than 46 hrs.. hardworking huh? lol. as usual lah, i’m a server during lunch time and den i took over the bar after lunch time.. ahaha.. i was so suay that i broke 1 tango glass. =X careless.. i tried to save that, but still missed it. after that i meet darling for dinner at TCC.. =) den after dinner, we went to meet amy for some shopping and we bought a bra each (ok, amy bought 2 and darling bought 1 for herself & 1 for her sis).. den we went to buy some sushi to eat & talk abt the NYP student video.. and den talk abt bf(s) and den we talk abt sex. lol. den after that we went back hm.. tired now and duckie emailed me.. ok.. i going to slp~~

will update soon. sigh.