Listen to my heart beat

today’s work is fun.. start work at 11am today.. 1st time chat with Brenda for so long.. cos i took the initative to chat with her.. hahaha.. anyways.. i’m on floor today and when suzy went to break, i took over her for awhile.. den duckie came to look for me.. the moment i saw him, my whole face turn red until sophia say me.. hahaha.. he ah, drink double espresso again.. so Erin asked me why he always drink that, so i told her he’s crazy.. hahaha.. =X so we had our dinner at TCC.. =) they didn’t charge us for the drinks.. of cos they got charge us for the food lah.. and they gave us 20% discount.. so overall we just had to pay $30++.. while we are having our meal, nana came and say i really have alot of appetite to eat.. hahaha.. =X kekeke..den after that we went hm already.. cos i’m very tired.. until i slept in the train.. Hahaha.. had lotsa laughter today.. =) i love to laugh.. along with my colleague.. keke.. =) they are so frenli and nice to play with.. i have a new nick name.. tim called me tick tock.. hahaha.. duh.. hohoho.. =) alright.. i gotta slp early already.. otherwise tml late for work again.. start work at 7am and finish work at 12noon den i will go duckie‘s hse to do my IC.. sigh.. =) so tired.. hahaha…

to those ppl, stop looking for troubles.. it’s so irritating.. go away.. leave me alone and i swear i will leave u alone too. thanks alot man.. i’m reali damn happy now lah.. ahhaha.. life w/o u is really much more better since both of us are stubborn ppl who doesnt give way to each other and i can’t let anyone to have any more chance to say anything bad about me anymore.. nvr.. and pls, ask ur very nice and gd frens of urs to KEEP OUT OF OUR BUSINESS.. thanks.. i meant wat i say.. it’s getting on my nerves.. =)

i m so bz recently.. busy until i don’t think i got time to finish everything on time.. haha.. sigh.. so i gotta work hard!! =) jia you bahz

Went to work ytd.. start work at 12noon and end work at about 10.30pm.. cos i m doing closing for the bar for the 1st time.. so i’m a bit slow don’t know wat to do.. don’t know wat’s wrong with me i break 3 drinking glass, 1 catalina glass and the jar for the thermometer & spoons for the bar.. sian diaoz… and the bar was so busy that i don’t even have time to read the FHM.. stupid sia.. i don’t understand guys lah.. some gers in the mag are not very pretty but i admit they do have big boobs.. lol.. big boobs with no looks oso can make it to singapore’s FHM.. tat shows the low mentality of those guys.. hahaha.. boobs are imp.. =) and suzy asked me whether i wanna exchange present with her on xmas or christmas day.. i say i’m ok with it… so i’m going to shop for christmas! how exciting this yr’s christmas.. lol.. =) can’t wait huh!!

Today i went to sch late.. sigh.. and i forget to sign out.. haha.. nvm.. sigh.. sian diao me.. i do IC assignment until i forget about everything.. -_- today i ate quite alot of things.. i eat xia mian, teriyaki chicken s/w & dinner i had KFC cos me & duckie left the sch at about 9pm.. so we went to have KFC for dinner.. i have been eating the whole evening.. haha.. i feel so hungry.. so tml i better dont eat lunch.. =) i hate to have big stomach.. =( i need to finish my part hopefully by this wk.. so i can combine my work with my partner (josephine.. not our jo.. but my class’s).. =) jia you bahz me.. and i stil have to wake up early tml.. and i’m sick.. i m having flu RIGHT now.. sigh diao.. haha… gotta go.

i was so tired until i didn’t online last nite and went off to bed.. =) can’t help it.. i woke up 7plus in the morning bcos i gotta attend one stupid talk about security blah blah blah.. in short.. it’s SAF talk about army.. -_- so i reached sch at 9plus.. and meet duckie to go in together.. i was sitting quite in front only a few rows frm the stage.. the talk thing is boring.. and.. i didn’t know who was sitting behind me until i turned and see.. it’s yuxiang, andrew, and edwin.. we didnt even say hi.. and i dunno why oso.. sigh.. i kinda miss talking to them but they dun look like they wanna talk to me.. just watever lah.. sigh… den sis sms me asking me to go watch movie.. so i went and we watch “Aeon Flux“.. not bad though.. the actions are very fast…fast and swift.. lol.. =) den after that i went hm (and before i went to bed.. i suddenly feel so sad.. don’t ask me.. i oso dun know why.. it feels like someone is sad.. tat’s why i m sad.. i dont know lah.. don’t ask me!!! ) and sLP till tis morning i wake up and realised.. i didn’t go for my IC tutorial again.. stupid… sigh..

well, was too tired to post anything last nite.. so i will post everything today.. =)

ytd, i worked 7am – 3pm.. it was suppose that i work till 12noon.. but tim told me to work till 3pm instad.. so i say ok.. so i do painting the whole day after the housekeeping.. =) i painted the branches, and bricks.. that was meant for tml’s decoration.. =) i do painting till i forget to eat my lunch.. so i went hm at 3plus.. after i reached hm, i saw a package on my table and i tot someone sent me a bomb.. just kidding.. it’s a birthday present from sister carol and brother andrew.. thanks alot.. =) both of them gave me a christian CD.. =) slept for awhile cos i reach hm ard 4pm.. and get out of my hse at about 7plus to meet duckie at the boon lay interchange den we took train to town to have our dinner and rot before our movie (“Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire) at 12.40mn.. =) after dinner we meet darling & joseph.. den we went to swensen to eat earthquake.. after eating me and duckie rush all the way to P.S for our movie.. lucky we reach there just nice.. the movie start immediately after we sat down.. lol.. den after movie we took a cab hm cos i’m reali VERY tired and slpy.. =X

*p.s. my ah ma say my doraemon’s sweater is CUTE.. hahaha..

today, i woke up late.. i was suppose to meet suzy at 11.30am!! but i overslept and woke up only after 1pm.. sian diao.. so i smsed tim and told him i’ll be late.. so i was reali very late.. LOL.. i reached there about 5pm.. and i took a cab down.. it’s so damn hot today that i almost melted.. waste my money to take cab down.. but it’s fun.. =) darling & joseph came down to pass me my brithday present.. they bought me and bracelet.. thanks alot.. lol.. these 3 days i keep receiving presents.. =X that’s gd.. ahaha.. so we deco the place until 10pm.. and i whole day only eat 3 satay and 1 chicken thigh.. lol..duh.. jus finish my maggie mee.. hohoho.. time to upload those pics i took today.. it’s a bit blur.. =)

yay, i finally bought a new hp.. for $0 cos i trade in my samsung e600c.. lol.. it’s faulty but i still can trade in for $150.. not bad not bad.. so i only need to pay for the SIM card money which is about $27.. lol.. =P so i got myself a panasonic VS2.. =) although i’m a bit disappointed that it’s not pink color, but i’m satisfied with the silver color =) keke.. den we rush all the way frm paragon to P.S for our movie (“chicken little”) it’s funny though.. lol.. after movie we went to have our dinner at the food court and den we head for hm.. b4 that i meet kelvin cos he say he wanna pass me by bday present. and guess what he gave me? lol.. a doraemon sweater.. LOL!! so i’m working 7am tml.. =) alright.. i’m very tired now.. gtg now.. tml will be a better day~ cos i m going to watch harry potter! hohoho.. i will take pic of it and upload here soon.. =) nite

i saw him.. saw him in the bus.. 242.. wat a coincident.. why did we decided not to contact anymore.. i still see him?

We “almost” break up… “I dont want to break up with u” that’s what he said to me.. think of it.. i didn’t want to break up with him too but then i can’t stand people always say i need him and so on.. i hate it when people say bad things about me.. but it doesnt matter anymore.. think of it.. maybe me and him had never started.. duckie said it’s ok for gf to use bf’s money.. but i think otherwise.. somehow i think we need to pay for each other and not always let the guy do the paying.. that’s what happened btwn me n him.. he always say he wants to pay for me and when he’s broke.. i pay for him too.. but it seems like he forgotten about it and only rem what he did for me.. and not what i did for him.. but it’s over anyways. i don’t even wanna start thinking about him at this point of time.. sigh..

I went to queenstown to meet bao ge ge cos he’s returning me the money for sat’s.. =) now i’m 20 bucks richer.. hahaha.. den we went to ikea.. but it’s CLOSED!! and the time is only 6plus.. and all the shop is CLOSED!! that’s weird.. but going there reminds me of him.. reminds me we used to go there for a walk after a filled meal.. reminds me we always walk past ikea to go oppsite ikea for meal or walk.. and we used to go alexendra for dinner… eat our fav or jian… hahahaha… memories.. hard to erase.. but i will try my best NOT to rem.. =X i dragged myself there though.. cos.. everywhere there reminds me of him.. sigh.. he send 2 sms.. but it wasn’t meant for me.. he used to it.. and so i didn’t bother to sms him back.. lol.. a girl..

after meeting bao ge ge.. i went to town to meet duckie.. we met at lucky plaza cos i took bus 14.. den we walk all the way to cineleisure to have our dinner… and den we went to teleshop to look at hp.. cos i desperately need to change a new one cos my hp keeps hanging and for example.. it hangs 2-3 times within 5 mins today!! and it auto switch off.. sian diao.. and i saw tis hp i like.. it’s panasonic VS2.. it got 16 millions of colors which makes it damn cool.. hahaha.. and most of all.. it’s the PINK color that attracts me… kekeke.. i’m so excited now cos i’m going to buy that pink color hp.. BEFORE christmas! =) lalalalala..

i feel so good. =) i feel like i had nvr know such person before.. when i wake up today, i don’t even rem what happened last nite.. =) so happy now.. i’m going to put away whatever that person has given me away. keke. it’s brand new start.

Be mine forever, alright? =) i can’t bear to let u go.

To his frens & to my classmates of NP: thanks for reading. thanks for telling him my bad and thanks for telling him i’m using him. =) i feel so good now.. lol.. i wish i could manipulate everyone with my words just like i manipulate him. =) i’m not good with words but then, i know all his friends is watching to see me fall so they can laugh loud into my face. i know he will too. look, he’s right. i love money. and i love it alot. hahaha. to me, money is god. just like everyone say i need duckie in order to survive. in order to prove myself. i’m going to break up with him. i don’t know wat’s wrong with me. but i know i’m sick and tired of crying each time i read his diary and read what he wrote abt me. well, that’s true. hahaha, but look, i’m not trying hard to gain ppl’s pity on me.. i hate to study.. i wanna earn big bucks.. and spend all those money i earn on MYSELF. =) in tis way, NO ONE will ever say i NEED a GUY to survive. =) and i hate him for throwing my booboo & co away. =(

p.s. i’m not sad.

I just reformatted my laptop on monday.. the process of reformat is so damn long and it makes me wanna fall aslp.. sigh.. nevertheless, i managed to ‘tahan’ until i install SP 2(Service Pack 2) den i went to bed.. but it’s so late already! so i didn’t manage to wake up and reach sch at 8am.. why so early cos i have made a bookin for visual basic.net.. sian diao.. and ytd (tues) zhiwei didn’t help me sign in so i went to get a MC for whole day.. so i whole day didn’t go sch and i meet duckie for dinner.. sian diao.. this yr is a very suay (unlucky) yr.. my hp bill is exploding and ppl just dun call me and they like to sms me instead.. thanks leh.. 134 bucks.. hahaha.. -_- how did i did it? gosh.. and tml i got sch.. more jia lat.. sian diao liao me.. my laptop now got NOTHING inside.. i mean no programs lah.. sian diao i have to go sch tml to install everything back..

today, went to work usual.. start work at 11am.. lunch hr is so damn busy till i got 1 order wrong.. =X oops… den after lunch hr, nana told me to do bar again.. so yup.. i was like sian diao.. but it’s fun doing bar.. i learnt a new drink.. absolut esp.. =) tim taught me.. =) i was so shocked when duckie came near the bar and OEI me.. my soul was like came out of my body for a few secs before it came back to this world again.. =.= i was about to reply him cos my hp was off automactically for absolute NO reasons.. stupid duck… lol.. den i keep myself busy while the rest are doing the stuffs for decorating the place on sun.. =) i’m SO excited.. hahaha.. everyone was like shocked to see him too lah.. suddenly come and OEI me.. lol.. and tim keep asking me if he’s a doc.. -_- crazy one him.. living in his own world.. haha.. i mus rem how to make those frappe.. i just keep referring to the SOP.. is NOT the solution at all.. sigh.. and den i finish work at 7pm and went to have dinner with him at JP.. eat KFC.. yay.. long time no eat!! hohoho.. den we went to liberty to buy my cup noodles and den we went to somewhere near the playground to chit chat.. hahaha.. sigh..

i will be meeting darling alicia tml.. she will be coming to my sch to look for me since she finish sch at 1pm.. =) cos i haben meet up with her for more than 1 wk.. =( tml tml tml.. tml duckie will have his TP test.. at 10am.. but before that he got revision at 7am.. he’s very kuku always book so early.. -_-

my world is falling down.. will chicken little save me? yeah.. we will be watching that on fri.. cos i have already booked the tickets.. =) he gave me a voodoo doll.. i don’t know it’s right to take or not.. and again he made choices for me.. =) it’s the same thing since yujie’s incident.. =) and again he said i didn’t choose him.. i can’t choose him and will not choose him.. i can’t go back to someone who keep degrading me.. his frens didn’t degrade themselves but i did. =) thanks alot. and i don’t need guys like what he said.. i don’t go into r/s with all the guys i went out with.. and i’m not a playful girl.. i don’t play with guys emotionally.. i only play with my tooty and toys.. and this is what he smsed me:
“12 midnite. Fairytale has ended. Cinderella has changed back to being herself. Let it be.”
“ok. I already helped u made a choice. Take care.”
“haha.” (i have stopped replying him since he only sms me haha.)
“When will u learn little moomooz? When will u change? Haha. Perhaps u are not the one afterall. Rem ur promise ok? I can’t afford to let my life be ruined at ur hands.” (den suddenly he sms me this.)
“=) all i know is that everything wrong now. I am going to make things right again.” (he said he got gd frens while i got bad frens.. who threaten me with frenships.. think about it.. sometimes it true…)
“they feel sorry for me. Good frens. =)”
“i wonder why u have to say such things when all alone ur choice isnt me? if ur thinking never changes then u r rite. We will break up. There will be many more yujie n donald n history will just repeat. isnt it repeating now? When u have been urt b4 hen u will know how much u hurt me. For now it is best we dont contact. ur heart already choose him, believe in ur own choice for god’s sake.”
“ok. i asked u to be with me. u didnt. it’s ur choice all alone. don’t take me for granted. i will not be there when he is not. please just stay out of my life n dont look for me when u need me. rem ur own words and promises. i will rather be with someone who choose me.” (if i were to choose him, things like yujie’s incident happened again.. we will break up again.. if i choose him, he will abandon his frens like the past.. and when we break up he will start blaming me again.. and most importantly.. his frens don’t like me.. =) and.. my frens don’t like him.. he also dun like my frens & family.. )
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“ya. i promised.” (we are to spend xmas together cos we promised long time ago.. plegde.. )