I am looking back on the resolution list I made for myself last year, and this is what I got,
January 4, 2010 by jaymeetan
I was reflecting myself for the past year and what have I done, and once again, I have accomplish nothing. Not that I am incompetent, but this is where laziness steps in. Ok, I know it’s just a crap full of excuses. I have yet list down my New Year Resolution for 2010. And this year, I only have 3 simple wish (no more hoping, yearning for LoVe) and they are:
1) To get my driving license
2) Get started on my degree program
3) GAIN WEIGHT!
Yup, the strike off ones are the one I accomplished this year.
I started my degree program in April. Along with Jesslin, and got to know some awesome groupmates; Celest, Gina, and Sylvia. Although doing groupwork can be really troublesome at times because of the coordination work and what’s not, I still have my fair share of fun and laughter.
I passed my driving test on the 6th December (which is not long ago), on my second attempt. The first one was a flop because I was too nervous and it was raining so heavily. But, I earned my experience from that first attempt. And that’s one of the happiest day of my entire life.
So, what I didn’t managed to accomplish was the 3rd on my list, gaining weight.
Actually, I can’t really say I didnt accomplish it, I didnt even weigh myself! So, let’s count as 1/4 done. 🙂
Next, the new year is approaching and I think I need to come up with a list to make sure I accomplished it at the end of next year. 😀
And the feeling of accomplishing something on your list, really feels good! WOOOOHOOO!

- I WILL graduate from UCD.
Sounds lame. But, getting back the not-good results can further demoralize myself. Some times, I think I want to give up on getting the degree. It’s really killing me. I’m not good in business at all. My English is worse than my Chinese, and my Chinese isn’t any better.
The flesh is weak, but only God makes me strong.
- Get the date for my traditional wedding.
It’s hard because the bf seems unwilling; to have a traditional wedding. He feels it’s an obligation. Some thing that is against his will and he has to do it because our parents wants it, not him. To him, money is a constraint also.
I believe to have more faith, that God will guide us through the whole process, and provide us with the sufficient cash for the wedding in 2012.
- Friendship.
Strained friendships. I don’t know if I should just leave the group, or stay.
Distance. I can feel myself distancing from all of you. Afterall, no sense of belonging.
Well, at least I know, all these people didn’t know me after all these years.
After all these things, I know, I don’t fucking exist. I know.
When life fails you countless times. When friends forsake you. Only God will never fail you nor forsake you.
- Gain weight.
I think I can never leave this out from my resolution list until the day I grow fat.
In Jesus’ name, I will grow healthier each day.
I think that’s all for my list. Not very sure if I have some thing to add-on later. Hopefully not. 😀