was supposed to go sis carol’s hse for baby shower today.. but i woke up at 3plus instead.. damn.. and so i watched movie today. “Firewall“. it’s cool. the story’s not bad. the 2nd movie of the week showing how to rob a bank. haha. the first was the “Inside Man” den now came “Firewall“. but the coolest of all was the “Inside Man“.. yup. that’s what i think. had a little dispute with duckie though. about me asking “u very religious meh?” (that qns is in chinese), and he wasn’t happy abt me asking that. not that i disrespect his religion. i ask bcos some people doesn’t really follow what their religion wants them to. restrictions. and i didn’t force him to eat beef bcos i wanna eat b.k. .. i merely say “aiyah, eat only mah”.. that doesnt mean that i want him to eat beef what. and he was very unhappy abt it.. ok.. maybe i shd just keep my big mouth shut so i wouldn’t offend him anymore.. den he ask me why i didn’t talk to him blah.. sometimes i’m a bit paranoid. den he told me about his instinct that he will come and quarrel with me. the point is, me & him has got nothing to quarrel about anymore. he has already stop wanting that da vinci code book back which is good. i can take my own sweet time reading plus that book is at my sis’s workplace now. not that duckie is not good enough. i feel that my mouth is not good enough.. i’m too straight forward. the next time i wanna talk, maybe i will think carefully before i say anything that hurts people. and i’m not his gf still. and my chest is very pain now.. has been taking a lot of very deep breathe. am i dying soon?

it’s public holiday todaY! haha.. and it was raining so heavily until i didn’t wanna get out of my bed despite i’m suppose to meet duckie at 3pm today. so i reach town ard 5.50pm instead. and den we went to Thai Express to have dinner and made a membership card. =P den we went to walk ard before our movie starts at 9.35pm.. i bought a slipper which made both of my feets swollen.. LOL.. oh well.. i rather wear that heels. duh.. but it’s okie.. went to watch “Lead the way” today.. oh man, it’s beautiful~ the dancing is beautiful.. the people are funny and show is meaningful. a little respect is what u need. when a guy leads the way, the girl has the opinion whether to follow or not.. in this case.. i follow. =) i wanna give all my best to everything.. i wanna show to people that actually im capable too.. =] when i get a little praise, i will work even more harder. =)

ok, today i went to play the reverse bungy thingy with tim & sue. OMG!!! it’s so damn shioK! muahahaha.. i wanna play again! i wouldn’t mind if i got more money.. but the bungy costed $25 (with student card) or $35 (without student card).. and den we got the video of us (tat’s me & sue shouting while tim is laughing.. LOL).. omg.. and the bungy thingy is in my mind until now.. and just now i feel like i’m flying off even though the belt is VERY TIGHT. muahaha.. shioK! den tong lei come to meet us for dinner. we had dinner at TCC.. was very unhappy with nana‘s behaviour. but i don’t wanna mention anythng more bcos it’s not our fault. and i can’t believe that she-who-shall-not-be-named actually told wati that me & sue are actually getting close to her.. duh. we had dinner at TCC and den me & sue share chix wings and tong lei had oven baked marinated chix. den we went to esplanade there to have cakes at baker’s inn. the cakes is nice but the drink suck. so we feedback to the manager abt the drinks and we were given 10% discount. lol. den after that we went back home. had such a pleasant daY! =] makes me feel so happy.. muahaha.

Today, i did hosting for lunch time. and it was my FIRST time doing that.. i was actually very nervous. hehe.. i was hoping i did a gd if not great job.. i asked sue & erin they say i’m good.

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
how do u find my hosting today

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I think you did an extremely good job

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I thought of doing a briefing after lunch and congratulate u on job well done in front of all the staff, like I did to suzy yesterday for her effort at hosting

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
but something happened btw me and Amin.

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
so I cancelled the briefing

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
ahh

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
sorry, but honestly you did a great job for a first timer

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
it’s ok

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
i just wanna as ur opinion if i have done my hosting well today

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
you have done a good job. Only need a bit more consistency… meaning this effort that you showed today, I hope it will continue on days to come when you do hosting ok my dear?

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
huh

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
hah

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
i dun wanna do anymore hosting lah

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
weiiii

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
you ha

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
actually i’m nervous today leh

(｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) yUnnIe (｡◕‿◕｡).(◕.◕) Reverse Bungy is DAMN SHIOK! says:
cos i scare

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I know.. can see

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
I have faith in you

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
When suze did hosting yesterday, I was nervous

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
because she has gt language problem.

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
so I was guiding her

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
but you… you dun need any guidance. you can do a great job without me guiding you

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
and it’s ur first time

~EmiLyTh BaThoRy~ says:
it’s a great job

sometimes it feels good to have ppl praising u.. esp, when ppl praise me for the 1st time that i did a good job.. =] i have a sense of accomplishment. =) hehe.

hey, stop coming to my blog and write stuffs that is NOT truth alright? who horny with u? ur rabbit or snoopy? u r just a very sticky person and i didn’t even wanna touch u.. dun make urself sound so noble and if u r loaded and wanna lend ur fren that book, go n BUY IT URSELF. ur have a lot of money go club and dun have money to buy that book? dun make me laugh and that book cost less than $30. and i simply dun have time for ppl like u.. want me to meet u to pass u that book so u will return me in JUNE? dream on.. insisted that i’m liar and i tell lies still want me to pass u the book like a good girl who will listen to u, JUST BCOS U ASK ME NICELY and what happen to me when u talk to me in a crude way and i still talk to u in a nice way? u fucked me? that book was bought by a liar to u man. why claimed the book is urs when ur fren needs it and when it was lying ard ur room? ha. and that’s NONE OF MY BUSINESS. stop asking for the book like a sissy and if u try to threaten me, i dunno what i will do to that book. i might tear it or throw it away or give it to other ppl. dun try me. i’m not that person u used to know. i WUN do anything to pleases u and get shit back.

i feel i m sick of life already. and i’m sick of humans too. the person i’m sick of the most is that whoever. =[ he keep saying i’m devil and den he keep saying i’m liar.. tell me.. what’s wrong with them? and even nana at work ignores me just bcos i told her it’s too early to pledge table at 7.50pm cos i pledge table at 8.30-9pm.. den she was like “den u pledge and do setting urself”… i was like.. a bit offended by this.. and the reason i didn’t wanna pledge that early was bcos after i pledge, it’s full hse again.. it feels like i have to do double job to pledge the tables again.. and after that she didn’t talk to me at all.. nvm.. and the worse part is she told kitchen that she didn’t dare to ask earlier bcos she scare ppl say she’s kiasu and i just walk past her and i’m offended by this.. and den at abt 9.20, she tell every customer that we are closing in 5 mins.. i know she wants to go home early but it was so wrong.. and i didn’t dare to tell her.. sigh.. tell me, am i suppose to remain happy in RX? but i’m excited about playing the reverse bunggy tml.. =] shd go and relax myself and SCREAM!!!! hahah.

now i have a mission. that is to make a few new drink recipes for the secretary week which falls on 24th – 28th april. it was suppose to be tong lei‘s job and now she’s no longer working with us and i’m familiarize with the bar drinks.. tim couldn’t ask the other part timer because, bin bin got sch.. suzy hasn’t memorise the drinks.. the rest haven’t learn bar.. and he couldn’t ask the full timers to do because they got stuffs to do as well.. that left me.. oh well.. so now, i’m going to work harder to come out with some nice drinks to prove to ppl my worth.. yes! that’s what i will do. =) so after work i went to eat with bin bin, da mian & mon cherie. after that me, bin bin & da mian walked to bugis after we went back to tcc to get our pay.. i have returned $40 our of the $100 to my mama and bought mrt concession for this month to reduce my expenses. after that i meet duckie to have dinner.. so i eat again. LOL.. den went shopping and i bought a skirt for $18, a bag for $19.90 & a hp sock for $1.90.. lol.

just now i went downstairs to pick up my sister and suddenly, she cried.. i was quite shocked.. and i asked her what happened.. she’s feeling so unhappy in everything and she claims she’s lousy.. it’s hurts me to see her cry until lidat.. sigh.. so it was about chris.. sometimes i wondered if guys are stupid or what?? couldn’t they spare more thoughts on the girls? sometimes they will just claim credits for themselves and forget about us. or they will spend alot of effort trying to woo a particular girl and once they got her, they will start treating her like shit.. and whenever there is an issue going on, it’s always the girl’s fault. why can’t the guys just fu*king leave my siste alone? she’s already miserable bcos of brandon and she managed to stand back on her own feet and these guys make her fall again.. can’t they just spare some thoughts for her or at least, leave her alone? guys, can’t reali understand what they are thinking about.. they are nvr serious about 1 r/s.

suddenly, tim & wati was talking about resignation today. and so tim was asking “everyone” whether are they going to resign and when he asked me, i was smiling and laughing.. and when i told him that i planned to resign next month.. he was shocked. i have to resign if the pay continues to be so low. i’m earning $4.50/hr + $0.80 of meal allowance (if i work more than 5hrs and of cos i work 5 hrs or more).. but now, i’m earning money for myself. i have to support myself now that i have NO MORE allowance to take from my parents. and of cos i have to pay for my hp bill as well. sigh.. so i was hoping that tim will manage to raise my pay higher a bit.. he didn’t want me to quit.. because if he could, he didn’t wan gf, tong lei & abd to quit as well. i have think of myself too.. i didnt quit earlier because i know they need ppl and it seems like i’m not helping.. i cannot do host.. nor i can do bar well… if tong lei‘s here.. i dun even have the chance to create new drinks for the secretary week. sigh.. let’s hope i will do my job well.. and i’m doing research so i know what drinks i can make with the ingredients i have in the bar. =]

went to work today and did some Service Quality Form. i have this weakness for crying when people keep asking me questions.. i just can’t take it and i just cry.. was it because my service wasn’t good enough? was it that i’m too lousy? i feel like.. i’m useless.. sigh… i just thought i’m doing my job well today and i didn’t screw up anything else… but i got reprimanded.. maybe i’m just not good enough. and i got my present from sabah! haha.. fang chew bought it for me. a bag with .. yes, my fav – flower. lol.. and its the pic on the left. =) and that little present cheered me up.. =) and seriously, i cannot believe he choose it lah.. LOL. the bag is simply lovely.. and i went shopping too. bought a mini skirt for $26.90, a mini pants for $24.90 (i think), 3 tops from giodano for $36 & a wallet for $25.20 from project shop. =) but poor duckie might become poor after today.. we went to watch “inside man” today at cineleisure.. the show is damn nice. lol. it was about a ‘robbery’ at manhattan bank.. and the proceedure of the robbery was so damn cool. aaahhh.. after shopping today it made my mood slightly better.. and just now sue called asking me to replace her until closing tml.. so i might work until closing tml instead of 5pm.. yes, that is what i’m gonna do.. hahaha.. sigh.. gf, tell me what to do.. i’m a bit lost. working in RX is no longer what i wish for each time i wake up.. seriously.. sometimes i’m sick of working there.. not because of the environment.. but bcos of the ppl..

Friday
I admit i was upset because i helped tong lei to close bar because she wants to do bar but close service… it’s ok that i help but when i need help and there was none of them offering their help.. it was like everyone ignoring me and no one bothers about me.. and bin bin say “dun worry, we will definately help u do closing for bar”… and he did.. helped me wash those glasses and let me clear them up by putting them back into their original places. den he helped me to clear the rubbish bins but nvr help me put trash bag inside.. and he did when i told him to.. he took out the trash bags that are not yet fold and just leave them there.. and den he went to talk to tong lei.. yes, i understand that he wants to stick her to chat because it was, after all, her last day in RX.. but still… they shd at least give me help and by the time i finish closing bar was like almost 10.30pm? and so after i closed the bar get myself changed and went back home w/o taking pics with tong lei.. cos i was very upset with them. am i petty?

Saturday
it’s the food tasting day! haha.. i was excited for the past few days until the things that happened on fri.. it turns me off and i reali feel like quitting if my presence in RX is not known to everyone den what’s the point i work therE? and i close bar again.. 3rd day in a row. but it’s ok.. cos i like to do bar.. haha.. and gf came to the outlet to go to the BBQ with us. and the bbq was at tim‘s fren’s condo which was located at upper bukit timah.. me, wati, sue, fang chew, damien, mason, and pat went there after work.. and we all had fun time there. tim n mon cherie was bbq-ing the food.. i was thrown into water by tim after they have throw tong lei in!!! omg.. we are indeed tong lei. hahaha. and gradually EVERYONE was thrown into the water. hahaha. it was so funny.. and i was shivering once i came out of the water.. OMG.. and tim had to borrow me his tower.. hahaha.. and i just keep shivering bcos i did not have extra clothes to change.. duh.. and after that i meet up with duckie because he wants to.. so he acc me home and i change and went out again.. haha.. this is stupid because we went all the way to town to have mac.. duh.. den i went to his hse to stay overnite bcos i’m too tired to take NR back home. and of cos he went to living room to slp..

Sunday
I woke up today and i didnt see him in the living room i was hesitating whether i shd go out of his room to look for him and i did.. ahaha.. den his sister told me he’s at his mum’s room slpg.. and i played with ger ger.. =) so cute.. haha. and she grown until so BIG.. she’s even bigger than tooty.. omg.. hahaha.. and she’s getting heavier too. =X den i went to brush my teeth and watch tv.. his mum cooked lunch for us.. curry chicken.. yay… haha.. my fav! and den i cont to watch tv.. after awhile i went back to slp again.. haha.. den we went to town.. cos we booked tickets for today.. and end up it was ticket for WED.. damn.. so we went to have dinner instead and walk ard until it’s time to go home.. ok.. i’m slpy already.. nite! =)

one word: upset.

that’s how i’m feeling today and right now. say good bye to my nokia.. say good bye to tong lei.. say good bye to me.

a very bad thing happened to me today.. i lost my $10.. u may think it’s only a $10 bucks.. but it means a lot to me. i have lost my $10 to top my ex link.. and gf helped me pay $10 for the bbq this sat farewell party… u see? a small $10 i can do so many things.. so can u imagine how sad i was? and i borrowed this $10.. i was supposed to work 12noon – 5pm today.. but tim said there isn’t enough ppl so i was asked to do OT until 10pm. =] if gf called earlier, den i wouldn’t have OT and i could acc her ard den she wouldn’t feel so lost.. she got this very lost expression on her face.. and if she come earlier den she could have accompany me for dinner or rather, my late lunch.. hahaha.. damien was toooooo busy.. he worked OT everyday!! but he went home early today.. lol.. and damien say i must be happy bcos my “bf” is coming back tml.. and michael laugh.. lol.. si damien. lol. kill him! muahaha. did closing for bar today.. and i keep doing blended drinks.. it’s killing me!! especially the Azuki Freeze.. =.= i keep taking the red bean in and out of the fridge.. duh.. den it was the fraps that wants my life too.. busy busy busy!!! ahaha.. and lucky got mon cherie, missy & nana help me.. sue helped me wash the glasses before she time out.. yay~~~ i better slp early today bcos i’m working OT tml too.. hahaha. =)