I want to blog something, but I am thinking what I should blog since there is so many things running thru my mind and indeed, some are very tough decision.

From Drop Box

What makes someone wants to love again? To recover from the hurts that you had in the previous relationship, the best medicine is your new found love. While healing from the previous relationship, whatever that had happened still lingers. Like what others always say, move on! I am doing my bit to move on from the previous relationship. Thus I believe that,in order, for me trust someone again, I need a certain level of security which till now, I have not attain any.

As far as I am concern, no matter how much effort I put in, it’s never enough. I want to be the only beauty queen in their heart. But it’s just so hard. Impossible is nothing (Adidas’s slogan), how true is that? I have attempted umpteen times, and yet, I failed. Why so?

From Drop Box

People often told me that if a guy truly loves you, you will be his only beauty queen. But does such thinking still exist? I don’t think so. All I know is, every boyfriend will tell me how I look like a ghost (even though I knew it) without my make up on. To them (maybe to most of the guys), I look stupid with no knowledge or whatsoever and plus the fact that I don’t like this nor that, that’s why they hate to go out with me. It’s really hurtful to be thought by this person you love (or used to love) only during the weekdays and when weekends is here, you are all forgotten and forsaken. I really hate this feeling, and till now, I can’t shake this off me.

From Drop Box

I always think that by giving out everything I have, I will definitely get something in return. And look, what did I get in return? Nothing, but heart ache. I tried, I tried my best to forget all these heart breaking events. And yes, for this past few months, I stopped thinking.

From Drop Box

Who doesn’t want to feel love and be loved by someone? I want to hold the hands of my love ones, forever. If I have a choice that is. But sometimes, life doesn’t give me any choice. In my 24 years, I realized once I made a mistake, it’s impossible for me to go back in time to undo everything I did when I was a youngster. And for the fact that, I did not achieve anything (yet). And I need a goal to achieve that something. I need encouragement from people, I need people to tell me “Just go for it!”. I need all those that. When I was talking to TY, and he told me that he thinks that qualification doesn’t really matters, I knew he’s not supportive of me. And that disappoints me. No matter how that particular someone used to hurt me, sometimes his words does make some sense. To forget someone and move on, is really hard and time is not in my hands. But I am sure I can do it.

From Drop Box

Love is build on many factor and trust, is one of the main factor. I trusted him. But now,I am doubting.