Final decision.

ah, is this my final decision for everything? for duckie & him. duckie tell me to take off everything that has our pics from my frenster blah.. he told me to change everything.. yes, maybe i will because there isnt any point now. he was late for 40 mins today and didn’t even bother to say sorry when i showed him my unhappiness. he shd at least inform me that he will be late so i dun have to go out so early and wait for him like some kind of alien standing there and everyone who walked past me looked at me. duh. den we took a bus to town and…. we sat at taka, stand at taka cont the quarrel that lasted for weeks.. couldnt stand anymore, he throw his hp after awhile he pick it back. while i just sit there speechless and after a few moments i just cried… he wants to bring me to have dinner but i refused. i went to look for him to get back my stuffs… and the one ended up accompany me is yujie… i went to eat xiao wan mian alone at JP.. after a few mins i have finished my noodle, he reach.. i waited for him for half an hr.. but at least he told me in advance that he was caught with something imp.. den i acc him to eat his dinner at KFC while i just drink water and saw eng biao & his another fren whom i don’t know.. crap for awhile and den i cont to chat with yujie.. told him about everything.. and of cos i’m so kpo.. i asked him how is his progress with that girl.. to my surprise… their progress was.. WOW.. haha.. but still, from what yujie say was, that girl only like him and she love another guy.. hmmmm.. but at least yujie took the first step! hahaha.. whether that girl will choose him or not is another thing.

he smsed me, telling me he still so in love with the past me… he was, in fact, during the past few days trying to see whether do i still love him like before.. and he still thinking of wanting to patch up with me.. these few mths, i wasnt very happy with the things happening around me. 1st is my hp bill which cost about $125.. bcos of the stupid auto roam plus, 2300 smses.. damn.. tell me.. how am i suppose to pay? den i have to juggle btween my emotions because of the r/s and my work.. simply bcos i don’t not wish to affect anyone. and den, my bank left 10 bucks.. and my wallet left 15 bucks.. i’m so pathetic.. i only have enough money to top up my ez link card.. and den i have to go on diet so i dun have to spend so much money on eating.. maybe that explains why i’m getting thinner and lighter even though i eat so much… sigh.. i feel each time after a break up, i am not me anymore.. i tended to get from bad to worse or even more worse.. my attitude to certain someone will change time after time.. i was so patience with duckie but he did not realise. i could have just break off with him for the 1st time he mentioned it.. and the worse part is duckie say, 我不把他放在眼里。if i nvr did, i wouldnt stay with him for long and despite him saying break up for so many times and i’m still around him. but each time we meet we just go off unhappily. what’s the point of meeting? to get more anger? frustration came in. no one understands me at all.. i’m upset.. but who can cheer me up? even he said he couldnt cheer me up.. i wish i’m happier.. at least i thought i am..