Past

his words and his words is bullshit. the whole nite couldn’t slp and was sms-ing and i realised the reason was maybe he has change his heart. the nick i saw previously was “mel mel…=)” and if mel is the one who told his ex our break up, will he still =) to her? contradicting. everything doesnt work well for me and i definately not gonne live in the past too. in the past, piggy will nvr say nasty things to me nor he will smoke. today, piggy say nasty things to me and he smokes. the different is so big. and he say i were to spare tots for others. each time we quarrelled, i have been patience to him first before i actually explode. ah, but everything i did was actually not good for the others. and everything he does is good. he spares thoughts for others but nvr me. he talk to ppl nicely, but not me. he always explode on me for nothing but never on others. tell me, how the past me can come back? where is the innocent and stupid girl i once was? i’m still so stupid now.. but am i innocent? only god knows. for one thing i know is that, i could nvr be the past me.